The world has finally succeeded in fooling me,
Lying to me,
Toying with me
And has torn me apart.
Now I am just a broken antique clock,
Who keeps on ticking away.
Day turns into night,
Night turns into day,
Everything is just gone by as a haze.
Nothing startles me,
Nothing excites me,
Nothing saddens me,
Everything seems ordinary.
Life keeps on passing by,
Like a flowing river,
And I am just a boat going where it takes me,
Because I am just a voyager who doesn’t have a destination.
They say to take that as an opportunity to explore the world and I say no,
Because the world is a succubus,
That lures you with false dreams,
And seduces you with its mystery.
They say curiosity killed the cat,
And I can vouch for that,
Because I am the cat who brutally got killed.
My daily dose of books can no longer help me escape my reality,
My colorful paintings are now black,
My eyes no longer light the night,
Nor do my pets bring me joy.
Never have I felt so lost in life,
Never have I been this confused,
Never have I questioned my existence,
Never have I questioned my worth,
Until today because of this dystopian world.
So, I lay still on the bed and look at my ceiling,
And that’s when I have a eureka moment like all great scientists and realize,
That I suffer from anhedonia,
The condition where nothing interests me.
A/N – In case, the last line doesn’t clarify, Anhedonia is the condition where one loses interest in things that he/she loved. This is a very important poem to me. It talks about the very dark phase of life where we stop caring about anything or doing things that makes us happy because we are lost. In case you went through or are going through this please know you are not alone and it’s okay to feel like this. It is a certified 100 percent OKAY to feel lost, confused, or mad about feeling this way BUT, it is NOT OKAY TO BE STUCK ABOUT IT. It will be an extremely hard phase to get out of but start doing one or two things you love again & look in the mirror every day and smile and listen to songs that make you happy and bring a smile to your face.
Here are a few songs I think will bring a smile to your face -:
1.Don’t feel like crying – Sigrid
2.Red Ribbon- Madilyn Bailey
3. Don’t Kill My Vibe- Sigrid
4. I really don’t care- Demi Lovato ft. Cher Lloyd
5. It’s not u it’s me- Bea Miller, 6 Lack
6.S.L.U.T – Bea miller
7.Like that- Bea Miller
8.Silly people- Blanks
9.Shake it off- Taylor Swift
10.Me! – Taylor Swift ft Brendon Urie
11.High Hopes- Brendon Urie
13. Lola- Iggy Azalea, Alice Chater
14.Up- Star Darlings
15.Look at her now- Selena Gomez
16.Watermelon Sugar – Harry Styles
17. You need to calm down-Taylor swift
18.How Far I’ll Go -Alessia Cara
19.Lush Life- Zara Larsson
20.Most Girls – Hailee Steinfeld
21.Me too-Meghan Trainor
22.Uptown Funk- Mark Ronson ft Bruno Mars
23.Waste my time – Grace Vanderwaal
24.Better by myself- Hey Violet
25.O.D.D- Hey Violet
26.Better When I am dancing -Meghan Trainor
27.Dance Monkey – Tones and I
28.Kings & Queens- Ava Max
29. I did something bad- Taylor swift
31. Never give up- Sia
I honestly could write more but I think this is good enough. I will share the links on the wall page on Inkitt, Tumblr, and Instagram. My Instagram and Tumblr name handle is @asenalicht
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