With every day that goes by,
Not everything we see is the same,
The stories of the happy Earth was a lie,
Were those stories only for fame?
I once believed that the world was full of smiles,
That everywhere I went no one was a fake,
Until I was hit by reality and I saw the smiles turn wild,
Those dull and empty eyes were no mistake.
There was once a time where I thought the Earth was small like a toy,
There was a time where I couldn't see the other side,
Until it came to me and took the last of my joy,
Now I have every reason to hide.
In the beginning I told about my ups and downs,
But no one truly understood,
So I left it on the inside and gave smiles instead of frowns,
I know nothing will ever be really good.
A laugh is a chance to forget what it feels like,
But that laugh only comes every so often,
A numbness I'm not used to making it harder to go on than a fierce hike,
Every day I hoped that things would eventually soften.
Eternally I am silently bleeding,
On the outside I am currently beaming,
I hope you don't ever feel what I am feeling,
Because on the inside all I'm doing is screaming.