Slowly Dying

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Summary

Trigger warning on depression, anxiety, eating disorders, self harm, suicidal thoughts/tendencies and I dont know just a lot of shit

Genre:
Poetry / Other
Author:
Hi
Status:
Ongoing
Chapters:
11
Rating:
5.0 1 review
Age Rating:
13+

When the hunger becomes normal again

The emptiness in my stomach seems right again

The loud grumbling can be silenced by running

I know I only just started to relapse again but it's funny how my body takes to it so naturally

In the mornings I drink coffee

Now I use it to replace my meals as well but in the mornings

Its innocent

I'm tired and want coffee

The pains havent started yet

I dont feel hungry yet

Although the thought of food in general is sickening

I know I only just started again but I've already lost 3 pounds and I remember why I never wanted to stop

I wasn't as big this time

But my stomach is no longer bloated in the mornings

And at night I go to bed hungry and it is so familiar

When I go to the bathroom I do 50 jumping jacks and 20 situps

I was done writing because i didnt want to always be looking for the sad thing to write about

But this morning I took a breath in and out came a poem

I dont feel overly sad but I do know that this might be bad

Because I dream of bones and blood

I watch the skinny girls exist and I am so damn jealous

I see my skinny friends and family and view it as a competition that i want to win even if it hurts me

I know i only just started again

But I already never want to stop

And I'm willing to win at any cost

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Baylee Fowler: I do wish there were some chapters in elenas POV but I’m so in love with this story

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Claire Morrison: This is as good as the other 2 books.

More Recommendations

Claire Morrison: I read the 3rd book thinking it was a stand alone never realised there was 2 before it. The writer has good descriptions and it she has used a little of her personal life I wonder what she has lived through. Well worth reading.

Taggsa: Love this book i can not wait until it is updated such an amazing plot line, job well done and it will more than likley be one that stays in my library.

Kellyan David: I really liked but it's not the ending I was hoping for. I really enjoy reading and the ending made it a bit real and not fiction because ppl do go through things like that. I'm happy they stuck together through it all

JacquelineS: I am so glad I chose to read this story. It was beautifully written and I adored the characters. Kudos to the author for capturing all the romance, passion, and heartache that involves in abstaining a relationship.

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