Chapter 1 - Fearful Hope
My happiest memories
Lost in the void of my darkest fears.
The nightmares, the accessories to my thoughts.
The visual terror I experience in the nightmares that suck me in is beyond belief.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so broken, so scarred, and so plagued.
I live in constant terror of my own mind.
Days upon days I lose sleep in fear of what sleep may bring.
All sleep has ever brought me is fear, anxiety, and panic.
Nothing good comes of it.
I don’t know how much farther I can walk in this darkness without running into fear itself.
But the one thing I can hope for when I run into the thing, the monster that is, fear. Is that, behind it, within it, through it.. I will find happiness once again..
And that, is what keeps me going, that is what keeps me walking, even if it is in the dark, lost, and isolated. It’s hope, and hope when brought amongst fear, is the greatest strength one can have..