BEFORE I EMBARK…
Before I embark on the green way toward enlightenment
Sweet vermouth and dry
Add the bitters.
Hard pill to swallow
Especially when I didn’t quit her
What happened and why is im-material
For the better part of the year even now
Mixing my bleeding heart with rugged optimism
Mixing reality with what helps me sleep.
Looking in the mirror
’Cause it’s truth
No amount of tonic water can dilute.
Can’t distill heartache
Be still my heart
Not on real emotions.
Not even the ones that appear in phone text
Or on Facebook post
My pain has dwelling inside me,
It’s a daily dinner party
And I’m the host.