Intelligence. This is one I could go on and on for days about. You don’t know me, you don’t go to my school, so you wouldn’t completely understand. But I am that smart kid, who knows everything.
But let me tell you, no one knows everything. You say, “Oh, I want to be smart like you.” No, you don’t want to be like me. I don’t know everything, and being smart doesn’t mean you’re any different. I go through things, everyone goes through things.
Everyone’s assumption that I know everything has caused me to be an outcast, and people assume I don’t do anything fun or all I do is study. The main reason students come to me is for answers to the homework or the classwork. And I help them, but I wonder if that’s the only reason I’m not completely rejected.
It used to be in elementary school where we weren’t judged or separated by our intelligence. That was the best. No one knew me for always getting A’s or perfect marks on everything. I was recognized for my artistic and musical skills, which is something I am actually proud of. I’m not proud of memorizing the periodic table or something stupid like that because that’s for me. There isn’t anything to be proud about that.
The thing is, nothing I know has come naturally. Contrary to popular belief, I don’t inherently know everything. People think I just know all this stuff, but I actually spend my own time and effort into learning the things I do. Anyone could be as smart as me if they actually tried. I look at some people, and their laziness astounds me. It doesn’t make sense. Not when we were given so much in this world.
And I get the world is changing. Once upon a time, freedom used to be life and education and rights. Now, it’s money and technology. I think we take a lot of things for granted.
I’m not a big show-off, and I really only try to help people. I know people at school hate me, so I act clueless and stupid in class about things I could recite in my sleep because I know how kids feel at school when they just feel dumb because the people around them understand it, but they don’t. And because of that, I ask questions that I know some people are wondering but are too scared to ask, and the teacher will look at me funny because they know I know it.
I know what I know, and there’s no point in flaunting that. I would honestly rather be average and fit in.
But I’ll get the perfect scores and put in my real complete effort on the tests when I need it. But with everything leading up to it, I don’t have go act like I know everything and put my hand up every single time like a Miss Know-It-All.
I will admit, I am a perfectionist, which can be a weakness because nobody’s perfect. A lot of people call my sister and I geniuses. She laughs at it, but I refuse to be called that because the perfect scores I make on exams took time and effort.
Sometimes, you have to go along to get along. Blend in to fit in. And it will hurt. It does hurt. Because we shouldn’t judge each other by looks or intelligence or wealth. But we do. We can’t help but to do that.
I don’t want to sound like a stuck-up brat, but I’m sure I do, so I’ll stop there. Just know that most people aren’t naturally smart. They work hard to get to where they are.
It is my considered opinion that knowledge is power, but there is a limit to what we can know and learn in this lifetime, so it’s important to let our imaginations run wild and let us free, because imagination is the force that can unlock the power within and give us what knowledge cannot.