1. so much more than i deserve
when i am with Her, i feel like a child or an animal, reduced to basic thoughts and needs. warmth. softness. fingertips tracing lines on my back like an ice skater drawing on a frozen lake with dainty blades. shivers of pleasure. drooping eyelids. comfort.
she smells like vanilla and bergamot— sweet perfume and earl grey tea. we fit together so well somehow, limbs crossing limbs, bodies enveloping one another. it's strange how comfortable it can be, despite elbows and chins and odd angles. i never knew what home felt like until she held me in her arms.
my life is still filled with troubles. the nightmares still come. the worries still overtake me. but for now, right now, this is enough.
for now, "i love you" is enough. soft skin, and freckles, and sleepy eyes are enough.
this is enough to stick around for.