Sometimes I get fed up with myself
asking, why am I still here?
With each week that passes, each of the days;
they eat up more and more of my soul.
I cannot hear myself no more.
I'll give myself one more chance,
and I'll go see you again.
Everything changes because
you make me feel so happy when we're together,
I don't think I'd be this comfortable anywhere else.
I'd do so much for you, you'd never know.
You'd also never know how much I hurt when
I think about you alone at home.
For the things you never find out about,
they hide in the shadows of my love.
And I pray you may never ever discover the shadow that lurks beneath my heart.
This was written in June 2017.
And I was one.