Lovesick and Succumbing
You've been clutching my heart so tightly lately, I guess I didn't expect you to let go.
I thought we could make it through this rough patch together, but really what do I know?
I'm just a teenage girl searching for love, never been so totally naive.
I should be more careful from now on, stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.
I make it too easy to win my heart over, and I fall without being caught.
Hopefully one day I'll find someone, who will think the world of me instead of just an afterthought.
I've choked back my tears for so long; I just want my eyes to let them fall like rain.
Maybe then it'd be easier, to deal with this unbearable pain.
I'm lost without you; I'm running in circles, trying to find your heart once again.
I guess I've lost it forever now, my words on this paper look like a bloodstain.
Attempting to refrain from inflicting self damage, my razor calls to me in my shower.
Instead I slide down the wall with running water, curl up in a ball like a coward.
I can't bring myself to go through with it, but I really wish I could.
I can't express what I feel with tears, so a scar on my wrist might do me some good.
Then I come to my senses and convince myself that I'm prone to heartbreak.
I read your words and I go cold, my body begins to shake.
I guess I'm just meant to be the always happy girl, fill everyone else around me with joy.
I can't seem to make myself smile though, the only way I seem to is because of a boy.
I'll always be the girl who blindly walks into love, gives away her heart like an idiot.
I'm done with love and the hurt it brings, screw it all I quit.