Through Emma’s eyes
September 21st 2018
when I woke up today, I felt like shit, I've been having the worst headaches but still had to get up and prepare for starting college, my mom got me this journal to account for how I'm feeling probs so that I won't fall off the rails lol. Well I'm feeling like crap so sorry mom
So far have not gotten anything for my classes just got some pillowcases for my dorm room bed and that's it. Now as I sit in this local cafe drinking the most awful latte I wonder if I would even make any friends here
Well no one moved into the dorms yet except this one boy in the room further down from me
He seems like a snob. I already saw him making a mess in our shared kitchen like.. does he have no manners at least can he wait till classes start.
It's already the afternoon and I have no idea what I'm gonna do may as well as sleep and call it a day...
Tomorrow will be better I hope, especially my anxiety I hope it's not as bad. I had to brace myself for a bit in the bathroom and just close my eyes, scrunch my fists into knuckles because I knew I couldn't do anything else cause people would see, I hate this, I hate myself for being like this.