I trudge on regardless. Not speaking to the husband at home, glowing at his side in public, trying to be a half decent mum while I am at it. I felt as though I was walking on a tightrope.
While the husband fucked around, getting drunk and high with his stupid friends and whatever whores are in tow. While I drowned in a job I really truly should have said no to. While becoming more snappy and impatient with my children. I had one light in my darkness , I had one reason to wake up in the morning and it was TGWTDG.
Not do not even attempt to judge me. I told you from the start you wont like me. Yes, I am a mother and that is supposed to mean I must live for my kids but did the genius who came up with that ever considered that kids eventually grow up?? What happens to the mother who lives for her kids when the kids grow up? They become the mother in law’s from hell!!! That’s what. Just ask my dad, he has enough mother in law’s to last a lifetime and he knows all about having an unfulfilled parent budding in where they do not belong.
My baby girl, an only girl like me is only 3 but I swear to you, I can already see her moving on with her life. I do not want to be that person who makes a pain out of herself.
I already made a proper fool of myself living for a man who was living for himself. I am not stupid enough to do it again.
You don’t need to tell me that I am selfish and childish. I know I am. And you know what? I honestly DO NOT CARE!!!