Chapter Twelve: Daisy.
For some reason, I didn’t want to go with Chris’ house even after a day off from seeing him. It was ridiculous, but I knew that he had gone on a date last night and for some reason that upset me more than anything. What if I came in to see that everything in his life had changed. What if he had a beautiful girlfriend now? I know I should be happy for him, glad that he was making a good life for himself. Yet, I was left feeling really alone and sad. What was wrong with me? I was only his dog walker, and that’s all I’ll ever be.
But in my grief, I was still happy when I received a text message from him before having to come in. Another attempt to get me to bring Koda along to his house when I took care of Thor. I didn’t understand why he was so adamant and why he felt I should bring him. But for some reason, I thought it was really sweet.
I would get fired if my boss knew about this. It was unprofessional and against the rules to bring your own dog to a job. Yet, here I was doing it. Chris had said it would our secret, and I really did believe him. He had finally worn me down, not to mention I found herself getting home later with our chats lasting longer these days. I was starting to feel bad for the dog at home waiting for me, so finally I decided to bring him.
As soon as I walked in the door I heard the sound of high pitched barks and nails of the hardwood. Koda stiffened beside me, unsure of what was coming. He relaxed the moment the small puppy came into view though, stating to run circles around the bigger dog and sniffing him. “Hello Thor, I brought you a friend today.”
“So you finally gave in?” A voice said from the other room. I smiled and unhooked Koda’s leash, but he didn’t leave my side as I followed the voice. Chris was standing their with a cup of coffee, he always had coffee in his hand, jeans a bit wrinkled along with his star wars tee shirt. It was all very normal, except for his clean and freshly shaved face.
“Whoa, am I in the right house?” I said, looking at him with a raised brow. “My client had a full head of hair on his face, and you are lacking that.” His face looked soft, not to mention handsome. It was a good look for him.
“Ha ha very very funny. I shaved this morning, decided I was starting to look like a hobo.” So he didn’t shave before his big date? Interesting. He set his coffee on the counter, “So this is the famous Koda.” The Collie sat next to me, head tilted at the stranger. “Figure he’s perfectly trained.”
“No such thing as a perfectly trained dog.” Thor was bouncing around Koda, nipping playing fully at his toes. The Collie would raise its paw only, taking it with total grace. “Koda is pretty calm though, at least sometimes. He isn’t when I first get home. He’s just nervous cause he’s in a new place.”
“He’s a good sport.” Chris laughed slightly at his own dog jumping all around trying to play.
“That he is.” I smiled and couldn’t help but feel pride in my dog. That was nothing new for me, I always felt that way about him. He really was such a good pup, and the best friend a girl could ask for. “Well we should get going! Time to get walking!”
He smiled at me, setting his coffee down. “Yeah, let’s get going.”
“Yeah, I finally got you to bring Koda. Which means all four of us can walk together now.” It was my job to walk his dog, Yet here he was trying to go on a walk with us? If I let him, I wouldn’t be doing my job really. I wouldn’t even deserve the money. But before I could tell him no, he had already grabbed the leash and managed to click it to Thor’s collar. “I’m not taking no for an answer.”
And knowing him, which she had been starting to do more and more, I could tell he wasn’t kidding. I leashed Koda up and nodded, “Fine fine! But you better keep up with us!”
“I’ll try, it’s gonna be tough for me. I have very little muscle mass.”
He held the door open for me and I walked out with a smile. “Unacceptable, I will leave you behind.”
I know that I should feel weird, but it didn’t as we walked down the sidewalk. I had been feeling more depressed as the day’s went on, more not myself. After the drunk night, and knowing that Chris was going on a date, I thought I was one step away from losing my mind. Yet, walking beside him right now with the dogs, I had forgotten how sad I was feeling. I felt somewhat good.
“Sorry about the other day.” Chris said, pulling the same dog back towards him. Thor had gotten better at walking, but he wasn’t an expect yet for sure. He just got to excited and wanted to run forward. Lucky for Chris and her, he was small and not super strong. If he was a big dog he would be pulling us up and down the street.
I looked at him, with a arched brow. “Sorry? What in the world are you sorry about?”
“My friend surprised you it seemed and everything you heard I guess.” He said, shrugging a bit. He had nothing to be sorry for, he was just living his life. It was her that overheard and made it weird. I was the creepy, easy dropping, dog walker.
For some reason overhearing that had really upset me to hear. That may be why I spoke before I could tell myself it was strange to comment on something that I over heard. “No, I’m the one that’s sorry. I shouldn’t of been listening, I didn’t mean to over hear your private conversation.”
“You work in my house, if I didn’t like you hearing things then I wouldn’t have you working for me.” I didn’t really think that was true. It seemed like it was my job to stay out of the way. “Don’t worry about it Daisy.”
My hand grasped Koda’s leash, pursing my lips slightly. “How did… That date go by the way?”
“Ah right. The date.” He sighed, “I guess she was nice, not really my type. She’s so serious. I just want someone I can have fun with. Yet, somehow I’m going on another date with her next week. I’m not very good at making my feelings know.”
“A second date huh?” I tried to chase the melancholy away, I didn’t want to be upset about him and what he did in his life. I wanted him to be happy, but I guess I liked when he was happy around me… Which was selfish. “That’s pretty neat.”
“Neat huh? You’re a big liar.”
He looked at me, and I looked back at him. Somehow, even though the conversation was awkward and I didn’t know what to say, we both started laughing. Somehow, we were both filled with joy.
Our walk lasted almost our whole hour and a half. It wasn’t a big deal if we went longer, since I didn’t have any other walks today, but Chris and I ended up back at his house. We both enter the house, and I had felt light up until that moment. Now we were back, and now I had to go home and back to reality. The reality being that he was an adult, and I was someone wishing she could be an adult but was to messed up to even know how.
“I should be getting going. Like always time has gotten away from me.” I said as I looked at my watch.
“Another dog to walk?” Chris asked as he slipped the collar off Thor. “Such a busy one you are.”
“No no, just you today.” I said, petting Koda’s head. I bet he was about ready to leave as well.
“Then maybe you should stay.” He said suddenly, which took me a bit by surprise. When I looked at him I think his own words had surprised him as well. After a moment he calmed his face, not backing down. “I mean, I was going to make dinner and you should both stay.”
I don’t know what number it was, but it had to be on the list of things I wasn’t allowed to do. I had already broken a bunch with Chris, but staying for dinner? “I don’t think I can do that Chris.” Before I could say anything more though I could feel his hand slipping into mine to take Koda’s leash.
“It could be fun, the dogs could play together more. You said that it would be good for Thor to play with other dogs after all.” He was talking but he sounded unsure of himself, like he was trying to figure out what to say and catch his breath at the same time.
Not to mention he was close, very very close. He had always pretty much kept his distance from me but today something was different. I had to admit their were times I wished he would get closer, but I always pushed that thought away. I worked for him, and he was older. 15 years older. I always assumed I was just a child to him.
Though, I guess a man wouldn’t kiss someone they thought was a child.
His hand cradled my face as his lips pressed to mine in a gentle yet deep kiss, his other hand looping around me to rest at the small of my back. At some point I had dropped Koda’s leash, my own hands resting on his chest.
It was bad, everything about this was bad. I could get in trouble, fired even, not to mention I had no clue what he was thinking. Why would someone like him want to kiss someone like me? My mind spun with all the reasons to say no and clinging to the reason to say yes, I found myself drawn into the kiss. I lost myself in the kiss, thoughts of reasons to not do it drifting away into nothing like the thoughts had never existed.