“How are you feeling?” Colton asked when Alexa came down to the kitchen later that evening. He was a little disappointed that she wasn’t in her nightgown, which showed off a bit more skin than the blouse and jeans she currently wore. He sat at the kitchen table going over some audio files of some new artists someone had recommended to him.
“Good,” she said shyly, lifting her shoulders as she put her hands in her pockets. “I definitely feel much better than I did even only a couple of hours ago.”
“I’m glad. You hungry?”
“No, not really. A little thirsty.”
“Let me get you some water, tea, coffee?”
“Water is fine, and I can get it, don’t trouble yourself.”
“I want to trouble myself,” he replied with a grin getting up, holding out his chair for her to sit. When she did, he left to get her a bottle of water from the refrigerator. “Here you go.”
“You seem to be healing well,” he commented sitting down in a chair next to her. “All the swelling has gone down, and the bruises are starting to turn and fade. We probably should get those stitches out in a few days or so. I think the doctor said to come to the ER and he would take them out, which is unusual. I suspect he might want to see you again.”
“To take my stitches out of course,” she said plainly, not getting his subtle tease.
“Never have I had an ER doc tell me to come back to see them. They usually pass you onto your primary care physician. But Doctor Jennings was very clear on telling me to bring you back to the ER so he could see you again.”
“I’m sure there is some reason he said that,” she said unsurely. He seemed to be making a point she wasn’t getting.
His grin wavered slightly in brilliance. “You really don’t see it,” he said more to himself than her.
“See what?” she asked her eyes wide with questioning innocence.
“That he likes you,” Colton finally came out with it. “Dr. Jennings is definitely attracted to you, and even though it probably is against the rules or norms of his profession, he wants to see you again.”
Colton shook his head at the blush moving over her face. Christ, she was so guileless. “You really don’t see it?” he asked.
“I don’t think that that is why he wants to see me again,” she said hesitantly. “I mean I am so out of his league not to mention, damaged goods.”
“Don’t say that,” he gritted out a little harshly causing her to startle. “You are not damaged goods. Don’t think that.”
“But I’m not a virgin anymore,” she practically whispered. “That was my one source of value as a woman, but it’s gone now.”
“That was not your value as a woman,” Colton disagreed vehemently. “You are so much more than your virginity. You are a helluva woman as far as I can see. Your parents are some of the cruelest people I have every met in my life, and I work in the music industry. But you aren’t like them at all. You’ve managed to remain kind, sweet and gentle. You think I don’t know about the cats.”
“You know about the cats?” she squeaked in surprise.
“Yes, sweets. I know about the cats.”
“Sorry,” she looked ashamed.
“Don’t be. I’m happy that you do it. When I remember I give them any leftovers I have from lunch or if I come to the office late and see them lounging around I give them my dinner leftovers.”
“You do? I was wondering why they were getting so fat!”
He chuckled at her observation. “Between the two of us I’m surprised they can move at all!” he exclaimed.
When she laughed, a part of him felt a longing rise in him that spread throughout his chest. He wanted to make her laugh all the time. He needed to make her laugh. It was his duty as her man to feed her, pleasure her and - love her.
What, he thought with surprise? When the hell had “love” come into the equation? He wasn’t a man that fell in love. He was a greet ’em and fuck ’em type, a man whore as he told her once before.
Falling in love was the last thing he wanted or needed in his life right now. His career demanded a lot of his time, as Alexa knew. He hadn’t been lying when he told her that she was his longest relationship with a woman. He had male friends from high school and college but female friends, buddies, pals, were not something he did.
“Are you ok?” she asked reaching out to lay a hand on his arm. “You went pale.”
“Really?” he said astonished that he had such a physical reaction to the idea that he might be in – love.
“Yes, are you coming down with something,” she asked, rising so that she could put her wrist against his forehead. He closed his eyes enjoying the feel of her soft, cool skin against his. Before he knew what he was doing, he placed both hands on her hips, gripping them to keep her there in place.
Alexa looked down at Colton when he put his hands on her body. She wondered if he could feel her trembling slightly under his touch. Never had a straight man touched her like this. His eyes were closed, and his mouth was slightly open as if amazed by something. She took a chance and rested her hands on his shoulders. Her eyes widened as she felt him quivering beneath her touch.
“Colton,” she said tenderly. “Colton are you ok?”
“Almost perfect,” he replied with his eyes still closed.
Alexa let him pull her in close to him, in between his legs. He laid his head on her shoulder; his face turned toward her. She felt him take a deep breath and let it out slowly, causing tingles to run across her sensitive skin.
“You smell so good,” she heard him mumble. “So good.”
“Th – thank you,” she responded not sure what to make of his behavior.
Just enjoy it; she heard Grayson’s voice tell her. Wrap your arms around him and remember what it’s liked to be held by him.
She did exactly that, and her motions gave him permission to move his arms around her waist and hug her even closer. Lowering her head to his, she found herself kissing him on the forehead. That seemed to release something inside him.
His head came up off her shoulder. His hands came up to possessively grab her head. Before she could even think about what he was doing, his lips fell upon hers, and this time it wasn’t a slight fluttering but a full on board, proprietary kiss, staking his claim on her. She readily opened her mouth to him when she felt his tongue tapping at her lips.
Moaning when his tongue entered her she savored the taste and feel of him – moist, hot and oh so alluring. She had never been kissed like this before. It was like he was devouring her, eating her alive. He stole her very breath away.
When he pulled back from her, she was panting. Her pupils were dilated, and she looked at him with barely concealed desire. Thankfully he was holding her up since her legs felt like jelly.
Now that he had had a taste of her, he wanted more. But he couldn’t. Not yet. She needed time to heal.
“I’m sorry,” he sighed, resting his forehead against hers. “I didn’t mean to do that.”
“I did want to kiss you, but I didn’t mean to do it now, while you’re still recovering. I don’t want to put any pressure on you Alexa.”
“I think I wouldn’t mind, you putting – pressure on me,” she said coyly a longing building in the pit of her stomach and spreading throughout her body. For once she didn’t try and squelch it but allowed the physical sensations to rule her.
“Don’t tempt me sweets,” he growled. “I want you too much to be teased.”
“I’m not teasing you, Colton. I want you as much as you want me. And I know this is not where we agreed to go in our relationship, but it seems as if our – souls and bodies want something more.”
“Our souls sweets?”
“Yes, a deeper connection with one another,” she explained. “Isn’t that what you want?”
He disengaged himself from her embrace, leaving her feeling bereft and cold. The hot longing inside her faded quickly. Evidently, he did not want that.
Staring at her, he thought about his words carefully.
“Alexa,” he began hesitantly. “There is a part of me that wants intimacy with you, at all levels. And it scares the hell out of me because I have never wanted that from another person. I don’t know what to do. A part of me wants to plunge in and see where this goes. Another part of me is scared shitless to do anything with you afraid of being hurt or hurting you. I don’t want to do that. That’s not even taking into account our professional relationship and the implications for it if we take this next step. I value your input on the artists I sign and feel like we are a good team for my company.”
Alexa watched him the entire time he made his impassioned plea. She nodded her head in agreement.
“I am scared shitless too,” she told him. “You could break my heart and have a track record that lets me know that is a strong possibility so I have no one to blame but myself for getting involved with you intimately because I should have known better.
“But Colton, I – need you. I’ve never wanted someone like I want you. I don’t know how to describe this desire I have for you. Maybe it is because you are the first man to ever show some interest in me, but I think it is particular to you and how you’ve treated me these past few days. No man other than Grayson has cared like you do or took care of me. It makes me feel – precious, and I’ve never been that important to anyone.”
“Sweets you are precious,” he replied hugging her again. “You’re parents should have taught you that. But clearly, they haven’t. You are an incredible woman Alexa which is why I feel this pull towards you that I have never felt with another woman.”
“And that scares you,” she declared softly.
“Yes, it does because I don’t know what to do.”
“Will you make love to me?” she asked boldly. “Will you take away these horrible memories I have and replace them with new ones? I promise not to take more than you are willing to give me. I won’t demand more from you than you can give.”
“I want to make love to you,” he said, pulling her away from him. He grabbed her head again forcing her to look up at him. “But we both need to think a bit more about this and let you heal up some more. Ok?”
She stared at him longingly for a long moment and then reluctantly nodded her head.
He gave her a half smile and then kissed her on the forehead when he wanted to kiss her mouth, neck, tits, stomach, and pussy. Tearing his thoughts away from picturing her nude before him, he lowered his hands from her, turned around and walked away before he did something stupid.