For the rest of the day, we just lounge around. When we talk, I notice that he doesn’t really make eye contact with me because of the bruise. I guess he is still a little pissed.
I don’t like him not looking at me so I grab my purse and go into the bathroom. I pull my hair into a ponytail and pull out my makeup bag. I grab my concealer and foundation. When I finish covering it, it still looks like I’m not wearing makeup which is good. I pull my hair out of the ponytail and let it fall.
I cut the light off and make my way back to the living room. When Julius looks at me he smiles. I laugh “What can I say, I’m a little handy with a makeup brush thanks to Mya”
He kisses me and pulls me into his arms. I’m glad he is comfortable again. I pull away from his kiss to straddle him and he moans as I lower myself onto his lap. I usually would be the passive one during these situations, but he brings a different side out of me. I want him, but I don’t want to rush it. I don’t want to have sex with him just because I know he wants it. Although I’m beginning to want it pretty bad myself.
He pulls the shirt over my head and unhooks my bra leaving me in only my underwear. He takes each breast into his mouth. I let my head fall back in pleasure. I moan loudly when he nibbles on my hard nipple. It sends a chill down my spine. I begin unbuttoning his shirt, but I don’t finish because he wraps his arm around me. In one swift movement, I’m under him on the couch. He parts my thighs and positions himself between them.
I blush as he looks down at my body. He runs his hand up and down my chest and stomach. His hand stops over my heart. It’s beating fast and he smiles. “Your heart is racing”
I don’t say anything. I just grab his shirt and pull him down for a kiss. Losing myself in his lips, I begin to think that I’m getting myself into a situation I may not be able to get myself out of. Julius begins kissing along my jawline to my neck. I moan as I feel his warm breath on my neck. He puts his mouth to my ear and whispers “I want you so badly”
It almost pushes me over the edge. I pull on his belt, undoing it and unbuttoning his pants. When I reach for the zipper, he grabs my hand. I look up at him confused.
“Krystal, you don’t have to do this”
I make a soft whining moan “I think I want to”
“You think. That’s the problem. I see it in your eyes. You aren’t sure if you want this” And he is right. I wasn’t sure, but my body was 100% ready for this. My hand falls as I am defeated. He isn’t going to have sex with me. He wants me to be sure.
He reaches the floor and grabs the shirt. I pull it over my head and sigh. I wasn’t angry, but I’m just not used to being so out of control. I decided that I needed to get away from him. I’m too turned on to just sit here and talk with him.
I get up and go into the room to put my clothes on.
“Where are you going?” He gets up and follows me.
“I think I should leave”
He steps closer to me and I hold my hand out pressing it against his chest stopping him. I look up at him and my insides melt. I shake my head and grab my shoes.
“Did I do something wrong?” He asks
“No. You didn’t do anything. I’m just not in control of my body right now and I think I should leave before I jump you.”
He chuckles and pull me to him as I try to get around him “Where do you think you are going”
I breathe hard “Please, let me go”
He traces my jawline with his thumb and I can’t take it anymore. My lips smash into his and I drop my bag and shoes on the floor. I unbutton his shirt in a record-breaking speed only to have my brain tell me to stop. I freak out and push him away. In the process, I also push myself back against the door. I put my hand on my forehead trying to figure out when I became bipolar.
Julius is looking at me, eyes full of lust. His eyes are scanning my body as if he wants to scoop me into his arms and take me to the bed. God, I wish he would. The sexual tension is so thick that we almost don’t notice his phone ringing.
“Are you going to answer that?” I ask as I slide down the door and sit on the floor.
He picks up the phone and answers. He looks at me and walks into the other room to talk. I frown wondering who it could be.
He comes back out a few seconds later. “I have to take you home now”
“Is everything okay?”
He smooths his hair back “Uh yes....well no. Umm, my ex is on her way over here. I’m really sorry”
“Oh. Okay” I think about the woman in the picture and my whole mood changes. I pick my things up and wait by the door as he grabs his keys. The ride back to campus is quiet with a totally different type of tension in the air. Julius pulls into the back parking lot where no one parks because of the break in’s. He parks the car and for a moment we sit there in silence.
I decide to break the awkward silence “Do you still want to be with her?”
“I don’t know. We were together for a long time and we have been hot and cold for almost 2 years”
I didn’t want to hear any more. In that moment I am relieved that I didn’t have sex with him because I’m sure I would feel like crap right now. I open the car door and get out without saying a word. It’s strange how he can just kick me to the curb when this woman calls. What is he, her lap dog or something?
I don’t look back when he pulls off. I feel cheap and used. Like I was just some replacement for his feelings. In the building, I run into Anna. I invite her back to my room to talk to get my mind off Julius.
I drop my things by the door and she flops on my bed. “Krystal, I am stuck in a weird situation”
“Okay, tell me.”
“Well, I have a friend and he likes me and has known me for a few years. We have only been friends, but I can tell he wants to be more by the way he talks to me and listens. I don’t really know what to do because whenever he even grazes his fingers over my skin I freak out. I know he is nothing like Todd, but I just can’t get past it. I don’t want to scare him off”
I nod “Yeah, I know how you feel. I’ve been a little off myself lately.” I hand her a bottle of water and take a seat on the bed. “Just let him know that it takes time. He seems like a very understanding guy.”
She smiles “Yeah, he is.” I can tell she truly likes him back, she just had bad luck with Todd. The same way I did.
We talk for about 2 hours before she leaves and I realize we have a lot in common. I’m going to have to introduce her to Robert, Mya, and Christopher one of these days.
During those 2 hours, I tried not to think about Julius. He has texted me twice, but I don’t reply. He chose who he wanted to talk to so there was no use in texting me. I’m not one to fight for someone’s attention.
The next day in class I completely ignore Julius’ looks. I stay focused on work and not him. I know he knows that I’m pissed. Mya asks about it and I tell her. She says that I should give him a chance, but if he isn’t over her then I don’t need to be in the picture getting my hopes up.
Although I was ignoring him, the lustful thoughts remained. I found myself daydreaming about his hands on me. I think about that day in the file room when he kissed me on my stomach. I feel an urge come from between my legs.
When I come back to reality, my face turns red because during my daydream. I had been staring right at him the whole time. I see a small smirk on his face while he is staring at his laptop. I put my head in my hand feeling completely embarrassed. Julius knew I was thinking about him.
After class, I am one of the first people to leave. The last thing I wanted to do was be the last one in here because he would try to explain yesterday and I really didn’t want to hear it. Mya decides that to take my mind off of him I would come with her to a frat party tomorrow night.
“Who has a frat party on a Wednesday?”
She shrugs “I don’t know but it’s going to fun. So you have to come with me.”
I don’t argue with her “Okay”
“Wow, that was easy. I like this Krystal. She doesn’t mind going out. You should keep her around more often” She laughs and hooks her arm in mine.
The next day I continue to ignore Julius. He makes an effort to ask me questions about the lecture along with a few others in the class. I give him the answer and continue to treat him like a normal teacher.
I breathe a sigh of relief when class ends. I don’t look at him as I leave. He texts me after I leave and I just look at the text.
J: Please talk to me.
I reply quickly and slide the phone into my back pocket
Me: I don’t think this is going to work out. You are clearly still interested in your ex. So you should deal with that.
Julius doesn’t text back. In my math class, I see him pass by twice, but he doesn’t look inside the class. After that, whenever someone passes the door, I think it’s him. Why am I doing this to myself? Torturing myself like some lovesick high school girl.
I shake the thought of him from my mind and go on about my day. I’m excited about going to the frat party. I always have fun at those.
I swing by the cafe after class to see what time Mya is leaving for the party before I head back to my room. I end up taking a short nap. When I wake up there are 3 texts from Julius.
J: I don’t want us to stop, but I have to figure out this ex-situation so I guess I have to respect your request.
J: I just wish you wouldn’t ignore me.
J: but I guess I deserve it. I was dumb for letting you think you weren’t important to me.
I begin to feel bad but brush it to the side. As long as his ex is in the picture then I wouldn’t be.
That night Mya comes to my room to see if I’m ready. I put on my heels and we head to the party. By the time we get there it is packed. Apparently, no one cares that it’s a weekday. The music is so loud that I feel the bass under my feet. We make our way to the kitchen of the frat house to get a drink. I settle for a beer, but Mya insists on taking a few shot first. As we take the first shot, Christopher walks up with Jell-O shots. I grab one and throw it back like a pro.
“Dang girl, you are a beast.” The voice says from behind me.
I turn around and laugh “Oh. Hey Jacob, right? What are you doing here?” I blush a little. I never expected to him here. He isn’t a student or anything. I’m surprised that I even remembered his name.
“Yeah, I’m alumni, sometimes I just come for the heck of it. Usually as undercover supervision. I do a lot of event for the school. I was around so I figured I’d swing by and spy” I fear he is going to ask about Julius, but he doesn’t. When everyone heads to the dance floor he nudges me “Be careful”
I nod and start to walk off, but I stop “Hey Jacob, do you want to dance?” No harm in dancing.
“Hell yeah, girl. Come on” I laugh as he takes my hand and leads me onto the dance floor. Jacob is really fun to be around and dancing with him makes me forget about Julius. We dance to 3 songs straight before a slow song comes on. I start to walk off the dance floor, but he grabs my hand.
“Naw, short stuff. I rarely get to have fun at these things so we are dancing” I smile and wrap my arms around his neck “You are a very convincing man, Jacob. I’m usually not one for slow dancing” Unless it’s a ball with my professor.
“It’s part of my charm” He chuckles. A part of me knows he is only dancing with me to keep an eye on me for Julius, but I don’t care. He is nice.
After a few more drinks with Mya, I begin to feel the effects. At around 3am, I ask Jacob to walk me back to the dorms. I take off my heels when we get out of the frat house and Jacob holds them for me. He also lends me his jacket. “Do you have a girlfriend, Jacob?”
“Nope. One man wolf pack here” I laugh at his answer. “Why? You are so sweet and charming. I’m sure any girl would swoon over you”
“Girls want guys who are bad. It’s the new trend. You’re not so bad yourself half pint. Why are you single?” He nudges me on the shoulder.
I shrug “I don’t know. It’s hard for me to find guys who understand me and plus I’m quite the introvert at times” I almost trip over air which would never happen if I wasn’t half drunk. I hook my arm in Jacob’s for stability.
“So what’s going on with you and J?” He finally blurts out the question I’ve been waiting for.
“He isn’t over his ex, so I’m eliminating myself from the situation”
“Understandable.” As we walk the wind begins to pick up. Jacob wraps his arm around me and I feel slightly uncomfortable. Not for danger reasons, but because he is Julius’ friend.
We get to the dorm and I stop at the door. “Well, Jacob, thank you for the dance and for walking me home.” I hand him his jacket and he hands me my shoes.
“No problem, I would feel bad if I let you walk alone.”
We stand there for a moment “Well....” I look at Jacob and he is looking at me.
“Well, half pint, I should get going. I guess I’ll see you around.” He smiles and looks down.
I walk up to him and kiss his cheek. “Bye Jacob.”
He stands there as I open the door to the building. I stop and turn around “Jacob”
“You are definitely going to make some lucky girl swoon one day. Keep being yourself. Bad guys are overrated” I smile and go into the building. Julius could learn a thing or two from Jacob.
When I get into my room, I peek down the hall and see Anna kissing a guy. “Hi, Anna” I say a little loud. She jumps and looks “Oh hi, Krystal.” She mouths to me that the guy she is kissing is the guy she was talking about earlier. I smile and go into my room.
I fall into the bed and go to sleep. Sadly, I only sleep for about 20 minutes when there is a knock on the door. I groan and get up. “Who is it?!”
I look over at the clock frowning at the 4:33 shining brightly. I pull the door open and it’s Jacob.
“What are you doing here Jacob?” I brush my hair back
“Uh, you left your phone in my jacket pocket” He holds my phone up and I scratch my forehead “Crap, thanks so much. How’d you get in?”
“I know the security guy. It’s cool, you have 2 missed calls from Julius. Maybe you should call him”
I shake my head “Nope. I just need a break from him. I’m sure he hasn’t worked out his ex-problems in 48 hours”
“Can I ask you something, Krystal?” He scratches his head nervously.
“Julius is having Thanksgiving dinner and I’m sure his ex will be his date. Well since he told me you weren’t going home for break I was wondering if you would be my date for dinner?”
I blink a few times “Um sure. I’d love to.”
I may regret being around Julius but Jacob is a nice guy and I’m sure he will be a great date. I just have to let him know that it won’t be serious “Jacob, just to let you know, we are going as just friends”
He nods fast “Oh, of course! You are just a cool girl and I want you there with me as a friend.”
“Great, but you know Julius is going to be pissed having me and his ex in the same room”
He smiles hard “I know. I never liked his ex, so it’s going to be fun see him all flustered”
I laugh. “Right, Well I’ll see you next week at dinner. Umm, gimme your phone so I can put my number in”
I take his phone and save my number in it. “There you go”
Jacob smiles “Alright. Well see you then, half pint”
When he leaves I decided to take a shower since I’m already up again. I never really planned to be with Julius for Thanksgiving. I was going to give him his space and stuff. I guess my plans have changed. I really hope this goes well