I was sitting in a consulting room that is well furnished and a nice floral smell made the room even more comfortable for me. I am waiting for my therapist, I had this session in the afternoon so I took two-hour permission from my work to attend this. When I was in my thoughts an elderly woman maybe in her fifties entered the room with a smile on her face. She dressed formally, wearing glasses and looked perfect as a therapist. She took a seat opposite me.
“Good afternoon Ms. Jane Nicholas I am Doctor Maureen your therapist,” she said.
“Oh nice to meet you,” I offered my hand and smiled. After sitting comfortably she started to speak,
“Tell me about you, Ms. Jane,” she asked me with a smile.
“Well... I am currently twenty-four and working as a financial adviser in Aaron group of companies,” I said basic information but I don’t know what she’s expecting me to say.
“Ok that’s great and about your parents,” she asked me even though she’s having every single detail about me in her file that she’s holding in her hands.
“My parents died when I was sixteen in a car accident,” I said and looked at her expression that asked me to continue further.
“After that my grandmother took care of me till I finished my high school and then I moved to San Francisco, I got an admission to study finance at San Francisco state university,” I said.
“You’re good in your studies I think,” she said and I smiled, “Yeah, I am one of the best students there”.
“Are you in a relationship? Jane,” she asked me without hesitation.
“No I have never been in a relationship with anyone, after my parent’s death I mostly lived in my own world and I felt somewhat insecure with people around me especially men so that’s the reason,” I said.
“You’re living with your friend?” she asked me.
“Yeah, I am living with my friend Jennifer we become friends at the university.”
“Ok Jane, now tell me what’s your problem,” she asks me crossing her legs.
“Actually I think I am more insecure and also, I feel like I was being watched by someone. I sometimes feel like I am insane to think like this, but I am actually feeling this for the past four years, I always console myself that I am insecure that’s why I am thinking like being stalked, but nowadays it’s going beyond the limit.”
“What you’re feeling,” she asked me curiously.
“Hmm, actually I felt this way four years before when I came here to live. I worked in a café that is two blocks away from my apartment, one day after finishing my work I felt someone is walking behind me on that day it was quite a dark and no one is there in the street. It kind of creepy you know.
I then grabbed my courage and looked around but there’s no one and again I walked, but I felt the same feeling and my fear increased to a top range so I ran towards my apartment without looking back. From that day onwards I never worked late, and also I moved to another place but still I have that feeling of being stalked,” I said.
“It’s common feeling Ms. Jane, how you can specifically say that you’re being stalked,” she asked.
“Yeah, I know that but even in my room I having this kind of feelings I thought I am going crazy over this, so that’s why I enrolled in this counseling.”
“Have you ever talked about this with anyone,” she asked me.
“No, I never opened about this to anyone even with my friend I thought it’s not the best thing and I don’t want anyone to worry about me.”
“Oh....” she nodded and continued, “You said that it’s now going beyond the limit what happened now,” she asked.
“Umm.... a few weeks before I had a heavy workload in my office, so after finishing that I walked to my apartment it was silent and I never walked in that street at that time.
I felt nervous and scared. I walked as fast as I could, again the same stalking feeling popped into my mind.
But this time I saw a shadow of a person before me. I felt someone walking behind me and so close. I turned to see who it was, he was standing ten foot away from me and I can feel that the person was looking intently at me. After seeing that I turned immediately and ran to my apartment and then I didn’t sleep that night I was so scared to be alone and also now I don’t know whether it’s my illusion or really someone is stalking me,” I said.
“I can understand what you’re feeling Jane and we will talk about the solution in our next session,” Dr. Maureen said with a confused expression I thought she needs some time to analyze my situation.
’Thank you, Dr. Maureen, for your time,” I said and stood up to leave.
“Goodbye, Jane. Have a nice day,” she said.
I came out of the building and looked at my watch it was past two. I took a deep breath and walked to my office.
I don’t know whether this counseling will help me or not but this is all I can do for now.
“Hey Jane, wake up it’s already 7.30,” Jennifer shouted and started banging my door.
“Yeah...yeah, I am coming,” I murmured in half sleep and again started to sleep.
“Don’t sleep again or I will break the door,” she shouted like a crazy woman. Ah... this girl clearly knows everything about me.
I slowly opened my eyes and I noticed the time as 7.39am, my eyes widened to see that. Immediately I stepped down on the cold floor and went to open the door.
Jennifer was standing in front of me wearing her gym shorts and a tank top and her hair tied in a high ponytail, she looked fresh and bright but her expression is cold.
“I give you ten minutes time, come quickly,” she said and walked. I sighed hearing her order.
Then I went to the restroom and finished my morning chores. I came out and opened my cupboard to take my workout shorts and a T-shirt. I tied my hair in a high ponytail. I drank a glass of water from the kitchen and went into the workout room.
Jennifer was a physical trainer and a well-known YouTuber. I met her at the university and we become friends at the instant. She’s an Asian her parents were living in Beijing, Jennifer was an energetic person after we become friends we rented an apartment together in a low cost, we stayed as a comfort for each other I helped Jennifer in her career as a YouTuber, we struggled a lot till our graduation then I got a job in the financial firm in Aaron group of companies and she started a fitness center that is located near my office, morning she usually drove me to the office but in the evening I have to come by myself.
“Hurry up Jay we have to start,” she said after looking at me.
We started to do our workout for almost half an hour, thanks to Jennifer she’s the reason for my fitness, actually I don’t believe in the diet or fitness I am just doing this to relax.
“It’s burning Jenny, I am really exhausted,” I said and I was drowning in my sweat.
“Ok it’s over,” she said and we did our thirtieth squat.
After resting for ten minutes, I went to take a cold shower. It relaxed my muscles and every single cell of my body. I came out wrapping my body with a pink towel, I looked around my room and also checked my windows door before taking my towel off from my body. It has become a habit for me to be like this. I slipped the towel and put my black underwear, I decided to wear a white shirt with skinny jeans and my sweater. I tied my hair in a ponytail.
For my eyes I looked great, I came out and went to the kitchen the smell of pancakes tempted me to eat.
Jenny was preparing pancakes only for me and for her... god she’s going to eat that banana and veggies I thought how can she even live without eating the pancakes.
“Hey Jay you’re looking great,” she said.
“You also,” I said she’s wearing white skinny jeans and a pink T-shirt.
“Jay after finishing your work buy some calorie-less beer for me, I am having some work so I will be late today,” she said.
“Sure,” I said and took my handbag then we walked out of our house. After fifteen minutes of the drive, she dropped me in front of my office.
“Bye buddy, see you tonight,” she waved goodbye and left.
My office situated on the busiest streets of San Francisco. It was a ten-storey building where my office situated on the fifth floor.
When the elevator door was about to close I ran and stopped it. I lifted my head up and looked inside there were fully men and I am the only girl going to enter.
Jane, you can do it! I encouraged myself.
I entered inside and my heart beat increased its phase and I became little nervous, I thought to myself that no one is around me and I prayed to god to make it fast. I heard a few men were talking and some of them murmuring but I don’t care about them.
When the elevator reached the third floor most of the men got down and there’s a lot of free space. Then suddenly someone tapped me from behind I turned to see, it was George my junior at work.
“Good morning Jane,” he said with a smile.
“Good morning George,” I said with a small smile and turned. George was a nice guy but still I can’t talk with him other than work, my problem is this that I can’t socialize with anyone that easily I want to trust them but my mind is not making me do that cause I am scared, but people around me especially men think that I am arrogant and a rude bitch so I avoided any sort of relationship or friendship with them, but which guy going hear my point of view, there are several women out there, I am not the only women in this world right?
In my life, there’s not a single guy who approached me even as a friend, I sometimes feel like, why I am like this?
Some of them have approached me, but they want an easy going woman they wanted an open relationship they wanted sex in their relationship more than love. But I am not that kind of person who easily gives my body to whoever I am dating, so right now I am not having any thoughts about dating or having a relationship.
Jennifer sometimes used to tell me that I should get a boyfriend so that I can get comfort and safety.
Yeah I can do that, I can easily find a boyfriend but what if he leaves me after what he wants or he gets bored of me, people can think me that I am a fool for having an attitude like this, but after my parent's death, I had a great heartbreak. Every day I cried thinking about them. I am afraid of losing my loved ones and that fear is the reason for my introvert character.
When the elevator door opened on the fifth floor I walked straight into the office, I noticed some of them have already started working. I went to my cabin and placed my bag on the table and switched on my Apple laptop that is provided by the company. Then my telephone starts to ring.
“Jane, come to my cabin,” Edward said to me in the firm tone. I thought why he’s talking like this, is there any problem.
Edward was my chief officer in his forties, he maintains everything in here, Aaron group of companies was one of the largest company in the US and have several businesses in the industrial, hotel, shipping and also being partners with several multinational companies.
“Good morning Sir,” I said when I opened the door.
“Good morning,” he said but he didn’t smile. Take a seat, Jane.
I went and took a seat opposite to him and looked at him
“Is there anything important sir,” I asked him seeing his worried expression.
“Yeah Jane our boss Mr. William Aaron died this morning,” he said in a shock and sad tone.
“Oh.. But what we are going to do,” I asked him.
“The message came from the head office this morning they informed that all the companies are going to close by this afternoon and will open usually by Monday.”
“Ok sir,” I said by nodding my head. Mr. William Aaron was one of the powerful men in the entire world he’s seventy-five and got married two times, after his first wife died he married another woman who’s twenty years his junior.
He had only one son and he also died in an accident with his wife but their son a sole heir for Aaron group of companies is still there and living in Asian countries and maintaining the business there but I forgot his name. With his second wife, he had a daughter and there are no details about them, these are the details I gathered from the internet I never saw these people in the real life and it’s also difficult to see them.
“Ok sir I will inform this to everyone,” I said and he nodded.
Calling sir must be awkward but I used to this, everyone in the office calls him Ed and he also wants me to do the same, but I preferred to call him sir because he deserves the respect he’s so helpful and understanding person that I have ever seen in my entire life.
I typed the mail and send them informing that our office will close by 1.30, many of them were happy but I am feeling sad I thought how hard for them to lose the person who stands like a pillar for their house. Then I started working on the pending works and the day went off like this.
In the afternoon I went again to Edward’s cabin.
“May I come in sir?”
“Yes,” he said.
He was working on something on his laptop and didn’t look at me.
“What jane,” he asked me without looking at me.
“Sir is there any work for me because I planning to leave so..." I said.
He looked at me, “Is everyone left the office,” he asked.
“Yes, but some of them were still working sir,” I said.
“Ok Jane there’s not much work you can leave I can manage them and enjoy your weekend,” he said.
“Ok sir then I am leaving,” I said and came out. I went to my cabin and took my phone and handbag. I informed Jenny that I am coming home earlier and also about the situation.
She again informed me to buy some beer and our conversation ended.
I took the elevator and reached the main entrance. I walked to the bus stop and sat on the bench. I opened my phone there is more news about Mr. William. There are several great people twitted their condolence to his death.
Then the bus came and I took a seat beside the window. It was cold but it’s very nice.
After ten minutes of the ride I reached my stop I went to the nearby grocery shop and bought the beer, and I walked to my apartment, it was a five storey building and the cost was pretty high, but I and Jenny were earning a lot so we managed to get this apartment.
Our apartment was on the second floor I took the steps after reaching I opened the apartment door and went inside.
It was silent and I felt little scared I placed the beer in the fridge and went straight to my room and laid on the bed, the day is not good I thought and closed my eyes and sleep slowly engulfed me.