Hatred, I have felt it before. I’ve seen myself being engulfed into the darkness of hatred. I hated everything about me to the extent that I even questioned my own existence. It was as if there was no reason for my existence and there was no reason for me live. At that time, all I wanted was to end my life. Trust, faith...I had believed that this was just mere words until the day when somebody broke it. My trust was broken, my faith in God and love was broken the day when I was cheated in love.
Until the day I found Zachary.
I couldn’t even realize, when he became the most important person in my life.
Day by day, I found myself trusting him more than anyone else and when I did that... when I finally started trusting him...it was like I was finally able to find myself, my existence. It felt as if my whole life I’ve been living a fake world until I found him and everything in my surrounding seemed to be real and wonderful.
Trust grew up to be faith.
I had faith...hopes on him that he would make everything right for me. He would actually save me from my darkness, my hatred and will eventually help me in forgetting the ugly past of loving Emmett and it was how it went. He stood on all my hopes and found his way towards my heart.
And then I started loving him.
It wasn’t about his looks or money, it was just him. Only him. I was sure he could’ve handled me and I would’ve fallen in love with him even if he didn’t have his wealth to impress me. The words he used, the way he expressed his love, the way he looked at me was enough for me to fall head over heels for him. And it was when I hated myself even more for not waiting for him to come into my life. I knew he was my soul mate and instead of going over the edge for loving Emmett...it would’ve been better if I had waited for him. I wanted to be his first love and I wanted him to be my first and last but I ruined it all.
I had to choose Emmett.
But life had planned something else for me and it was when Emmett’s ugly truth was unveiled and it was how Zachary entered my life. I was glad he came for me.
I was stupid enough not to believe that Emmett was my only love. I was wrong. Zachary proved me wrong and he poured all his emotions out on me and I loved him back. Sometimes, I found myself questioning the silliest question to myself if I were the one who loved Zachary the most or the love that Zachary had for me was much more than what I did.
He proved me wrong every time.
Every single time.
And I was glad I was the one who was wrong. Like every single time, he came forward to help me without any selfishness and hesitation and it was why I could feel all his agony when he engulfed me in his arms. I could feel his heavy breath as his chest pressed into mine and he buried his head in the crook of my neck, I could feel all his sufferings.
A month. It had been a month since I was pulled out of his life and I imagined what he had to go through in my absence.
“Did you miss me?” I asked as I felt him silent for a while with me still in his arms.
“Zachary?” I spoke up and ran my hands all over his back.
When he didn’t reply, I made it my cue to move back but when I did take a step back, he lunged forward not wanting to leave me but ended up putting his weight all over and due to sudden bending of my back pain laced up my body causing me to hiss in pain. Zachary heard it and immediately pulled back from me and looked at me worriedly.
“What happened? Juliette?” he asked as he held my face in his cold hands.
I smiled and shook my head no at him. “It’s nothing... it’s just my back,” I said as I touched my back and closed my eyes feeling the pain.
“Y-You need to sit down. I can see you are not really in a good condition. I’m sorry... I should’ve been more careful about it,” he helped me back on my bed as I sat on the bed and he arranged the pillows for me to sit comfortably before sitting next to me on a chair and looked at me lovingly as he held my hand in his.
“Is this a dream?” he asked which made me chuckle and I pinched him on his hand expecting a hiss from him but he didn’t even move. All he did was stare at me.
“I want to know everything. What happened and how did you end up here? Why are you in the hospital?” he asked everything in one go and I found myself inhaling deeply before telling him everything that happened to me. From hiring a taxi to the accident and waking up on the hospital bed to hearing all those conversations of unknown people.
“So this is what I can remember,” I said once I told him everything in detail.
“But even if I try to remember it, I still can’t figure it out who was that guy and who he was talking to,” I said recalling the guy who was talking against Zachary while I pretended to sleep. As I closed my eyes to remember the day a sharp pain in my head caused me to hiss in pain and I held the temple of my head rubbing it trying to ease the pain.
“What happened?” he asked almost immediately by my side as he held my face in his hand.
“N-Nothing, it’s just my head,” I said and I could feel the corner of my eyes stinging but nevertheless I smiled at him not wanting to worry him.
“It’s alright. You don’t need to remember, I shall take care of it. Don’t hurt yourself. You are still weak,” he said and I shook my head no.
“I can’t still when I know that people out there are trying to hurt my husband and family,” I said thinking about the man.
“I should be the one telling you this,” he said and all of a sudden I was engulfed into a hug as he wrapped his hands around me and pulled me to him. I smiled wrapping my hands around him, his manly fragrance affecting me and I realized how much I had missed him.
“You don’t need to worry about anything from now on. I’m going to protect you this time. And they will be paying for what they did to you, I promise. They will have to pay for this,” he whispered as his voice showed his determination.
“But for now, let’s get you out of here. I don’t trust the doctors. As you told me, the doctors are also wit-” he was cut mid-sentence when all of a sudden we heard noises. It was as if somebody was coming towards my room and I panicked thinking what if it was the same man. He would definitely try to hurt Zachary if he saw him here with me.
“Lay down,” Zachary whispered and helped me on my bed and covered me using the sheet.
“W-Where are you going?” I asked as I held his hand when he made an attempt to go away.
“Don’t worry. I will be here,” he gave me a smile and kissed my forehead before walking towards the curtain where he hid behind it and I closed my eyes when people walked inside my room.
“Why is it taking so long for her to regain her consciousness?” I heard the same angry dude and felt the bed near my leg dipped, as if he sat there.
“She should’ve already gained her consciousness by now,” I assumed the person as the doctor.
“What have you decided to do with her when she regains her consciousness? The patient is still weak and she needs proper treatment for the head. She had severe injuries on her head when you brought her here. Although the wounds have healed we still can’t say anything about her mental stability. She needs to regain consciousness before we end up on a certain decision,” the doctor asked.
“I will be using her against the Sullivans. I don’t really care what really happens to her but at this very moment, I want her alive. Do whatever you want but keep her alive,” he said in a menacing tone probably trying to frighten the doctor. But then I had all my attention on Zachary. I was sure that he would be seething in anger behind those curtains and I prayed the lords to not to let his anger take over his brain. I knew Zachary was a cautious guy and he would generally think before acting but the very moment it was me who was his weakness.
“What if she tries to fight us if she gets up?” the doctor asked and I felt the room falling into a pitch of silence before the guy spoke up icily: “Kill her.”
“What?” the doctor gasped and I had my palm formed into a fist inside the bedsheet when I heard that.
“She is already dead before the world and it wouldn’t matter if we kill her now. It depends on her. If she co-operates with us, it will good for her if not then she is not needed,” he said and I felt my heartbeat rising thinking about Zachary.
What if she gets out and tries to kill the guy?
No! Zachary, please stay calm.
Juliette, you need to stay calm too.
They can’t hurt Zachary.
I felt as the bed shook a little when the guy who was sitting near my foot got up from the bed and I had imagined in my mind that he would definitely go towards the room’s window and what if he pulls the curtains aside? Zachary!
Oh my god! Zachary.
So, it was what I did. I did what was right at the moment to gain their attention and stop the guy from getting to Zachary who was still behind the curtain. I went against Zachary’s wishes and slowly opened my eyes.
“P-Patient? The patient has opened her eyes,” the doctor said as he began to check my nerves and the other guy ran towards me and looked at me. I could clearly see his face but I averted my gaze away from their direction pretending to adjust my gaze and blinked my eyes a few times.
“Can you hear me?” the doctor asked as he checked my eyes and held my hand in his checking the nerves.
I’m sorry Zachary.
I hope you forgive me for this but I’m doing this for you.
I love you and I shall protect you even if I had to die.
I looked at the guy and I could feel the anger inside me when I saw his face. I had never seen him around beforehand but the fact that he wanted to hurt Zac had me on my nerves. The first impression I had of him was hatred. I hated him the moment I saw him cause he was the cause of all the miseries and sufferings Zachary had to go through when he pulled me away from his life and as I looked at his face with an expression void of any emotions, I promised myself that I would definitely make his life a hell and he would curse the day for even thinking of hurting the Sullivans.
“W-Who are you?” I asked in a hoarse voice. The guy clenched his jaw and moved forward to speak up but stopped when I chose to speak cutting him up “And who am I? Where is this place?” his eyes widened and he looked troubled as he looked at the doctor who looked back at him puzzled by my reaction.