Everyone has such phases in their life which changes them evermore or breaks them forever; it’s we who have to decide whether to live or to die; but sometimes in some lives such phase too comes which turns a life of a broken soul that’s what happened in Vanessa’s case. In Vanessa’s life too such a juncture came where she decided to die but ended up getting a new life. She was broken down out of shits from inside completely, but another stage; another twist revamped her life completely.
She was sitting in the balcony waiting for the news she wanted to hear from last 3 years. That’s when her mom came and handed over her the newspaper with manila envelope. She looked at her home hopefully; her mom nodded and understood her dilemma. She checked it and her eyes got blurred as she read the headlines which were someone’s dream and now her reality,
"ANOTHER SENSATIONAL BOOK OF THE YEAR; A NEW ENTRY TO THE LIST OF THE BEST SELLING AUTHORS; 2,000 COPIES SOLD AND STILL THE COUNTING IS ON; MISS VANESSA HAD GOT THE PURPOSE TO LIVE FROM HER UNFINISHED LOVE STORY”
“Vanessa you did it my child, you did it” Vanessa’s mom hugged her and caressed her hair; she didn’t said anything as her tears were enough to convey the message to her mom, her mom broke the hug and she squeezed her hand in assurance while Vanessa blinked in affirmation. Today finally she got her aim accomplished
“I must inform others about it” her mom happily exclaimed and went down to break the news to others. Vanessa kept the paper aside and looks through the envelope. It contained an application regarding her novel’s success; there was a conference set up for her triumph. She kept the envelope carefully at safe place and took out a diary from drawer and went to balcony to read it again. She must have read that book for zillion times but still she can’t get enough of it, although it was someone’s else diary but whenever she read it she feel like she is living her life again after all it’s the diary of love of her life. She kept the diary close to her heart; it was her sole reason to be alive in these years otherwise she would have died three years back itself. Sometimes life has to be so cruel with you that you start hating your only existence in this world, same was with her that she so wanted to end herself until she got this diary and a ray of hope to get her life back again. She leaned back on the chair and stared at the fallen leaves on the ground. The autumn was at its peak now and soon the weather will take it’s turn with a blow of wind just Vanessa’s life as her life has fallen and soon will change with a blow of new hope, her struggle was now ended and soon she’ll have a new phase in her life. She has everything now what every normal human being wishes for, fame, name, money and a perfect family but did actually she has everything she wants, her thoughts broke due to her mom’s voice
“Vanessa, come child everyone is waiting”
“Coming” she checked herself one last time and went downstairs not before taking the newspaper and the envelope with her, everyone was sitting in dining area; her mom, dad, her Claire mom and Aiden dad, her brother; they all have a proud look on their faces, everyone came one by one to congratulate her.
Claire mom came to her (who is she will be revealed later on), her eyes where blurred due to fresh tears,
“Thank you Vanessa , it will be less if I thank you in front of what you did, I don’t know how you did but I’ really proud of you and happy for you” She kissed Vanessa on her forehead,
“Claire, you don’t need to thank me for this after all it was my wish to do this and it’s the only reason I’m still alive”
“God bless you child, you may get what you want”
“Thanks Claire this is actually what I want” she took the blessings from all the elders,
“Vanessa are you going to meet him”
She nodded and went out
“Good morning mam” the driver greeted her, Vanessa passed him a smile and sat at back seat. He too sat on driver seat and started the engine to drive off to her next destination. She took a long deep sigh before watching out of the window and slipping to the memories of the best days of her life where she had a normal life, she had lived her life with the love of her life.....................
Sometimes all you want is a reverse gear to your life but you know there’s never such thing and that only makes you miserable
Sometimes all you want is to take a jet speed run from your past but you know that you’re set to be snail and that only makes you stuck
Sometimes all you need is a stable flow in life but you know there’s never consistency and that only makes you fret
Sometimes all you want is to get drift to downwind but you know you’re meant to hover and that only makes you a hopeless pushover
Sometimes you want to strapped or stay put for once but sometimes yourself to spring out and that only makes chaos in your head
Sometimes you want to be competent by all your feebly attempts but all you know is there’s no such precise moment and that’s the only reason for your revulsion
Sometimes you know that your whole life is orchestrated by destiny but you still try to intimidate yourself and that only makes you reveling...........................