After Ethan shut down the whole club idea, he doesn’t let me talk about it the rest of the day or night. Every time I try to, there’s something else he needs to talk about first and honestly, it’s pissing me off. It’s almost like he blames the club for my miscarriage and that isn’t the case at all. However, I do understand where he’s coming from and I will hear him out on the matter, but I don’t want to quit the club. We reached a good spot with going and I don’t want to let that go just because Ethan has some warped comparison of the club and my reproductive health. The two have no relations what so ever, but in his mind, they go hand in hand.
The next day when we wake, I make sure to bring up the conversation no matter what. I refuse to keep letting him dodge this topic as if I don’t get a say in it. We’re about to get married. He can’t make all the decisions on his own. That isn’t how this works.
Once Ethan stirs a bit and finally opens his eyes, he sees that I’m already up and gets this dreaded look on his face knowing what I’m about to say before I even say it.
“Why do you want to quit the club?”
“I don’t want to talk about this, Thea.”
“Well, I do. This involves both of us and I should have a say. I don’t understand why you’re suddenly against the place.”
“We lost our baby in that place.”
“No, we didn’t. I lost my baby in a hospital.”
“You know what I mean.” He rolls his eyes.
“No, I don’t. The club didn’t make me have a miscarriage. The club didn’t cause the baby to die. It just happened. If it would have happened in the grocery store would you just never go back?”
He gives me a look, realizing that I have a point. I scoot over to him, laying my head on his chest while he thinks long and hard about whatever he’s planning on saying next. His hand comes up and lays on top of my head.
“I was terrified when it happened. It was like I instantly knew what was happening and couldn’t stop it. Now every time I think about the club, I just see the pained look on your face. I see you cringing in pain and me picking you up. I see how afraid Anna looked. I just can’t unsee it.”
“Ethan, I don’t want you to have a tainted feeling towards the club because something bad happened. If that were the case I would have quit so long ago. The first night I was almost attacked. Then I was almost attacked again by Troy. I was stalked by Kate. Bad things happen, Ethan, but it has nothing to do with the club. Things just happen sometimes. I know for a fact that you love the club and you’ve made me love it too. It’s our special place. Me, you, and Anna.”
I look up and Ethan is looking down at me and I know as much as he’s hesitant to know, he knows I’m right. We can’t use places and things as reminders of bad memories. If that were the case, we’d never go anywhere or like anything. I know he’s still hurting and it may take him longer to come to terms with everything, but I’m here for him.
“I’m not rushing you back to the club any time soon, Ethan. I just don’t want you to give up something you enjoy.”
“I know, babe. You’re right.”
“I know.” I smile and he chuckles softly, poking my side.
“Your smart ass.”
“Always.” He whispers.
After our talk, we get up and find my mom in the kitchen with the newspaper open as she drinks a mimosa. God, she’s becoming such a city gal.
“What are you up to, mom?”
“Looking for an apartment.”
My eyebrow raises in surprise.
“How are you going to afford it?”
She looks up and smiles.
“You’re father’s money. When he died I got a check for it. He also left me some money. Left you some too.”
I look over at Ethan who shrugs in confusion.
“What do you mean he left me money?”
“$100,000 goes to you when you turn 25.”
“Why have you never told me this?”
“Because I was a selfish mother back then, Thea. Now, I’m not. I love you more than the air I breathe. I should have loved you like this a long time ago.”
Her words pull at my heartstrings and I sigh.
“You’re forgiven, mom. I forgave you the moment you jumped on a plane to get here for me. So what kind of place are you looking for?”
“Eh, nothing huge.” She shrugs as Ethan goes behind her to make coffee.
“You know, if you want, you can have this condo.” Ethan just casually mumbles before sipping coffee.
“Excuse me and where am I supposed to live?”
“In my place. Move-in with me. My place is bigger which will be great for both of us. We’re about to get married. We should live together. Your mom can just take over this condo. It’s completely paid for.”
I don’t have to think about anything because Ethan is completely right. We do need to have one place together and his place is way bigger than mine. My mom wouldn’t have to go through meeting perverted landlords like I did just to get some crappy apartment. She'd still be close enough to spend time with but far enough so she can have her own space since she is now in the dating pool. I don’t want to think about it, but my mom is a woman who has needs.
“What do you think, mom?”
“I mean, if it’s okay with the two of you then it’s fine with me. I’m kind of just going with the flow at this point. I appreciate all of this Ethan. You don’t have to give me this place.”
“It’s completely okay. I purchased it for Thea when I hired her and now that we’ll be moving in, it’s like she’s giving it to you. I would hate for the place to be unlived in. It’s no biggie at all.”
My mom looks at me in surprise.
“He bought this place specifically for you?”
“It was a job perk.” I smirk.
“Damn, can you hire me, Ethan?”
“I mean, I do have an opening for a secretary position on the 3rd floor in editing.”
“I’ll take it.” My mom jumps at the opportunity and Ethan realizes she’s dead serious.
“Oh, okay, well, I’ll call the office and let them know that I’ve found a replacement. You can come on Monday.” Ethan just smiles and walks off, leaving me and my mom in shock as how many things have happened in the last 3 minutes.
Only an hour into the day, I’ve already agreed to move in with Ethan, give my condo to my mom, and she got a job at the same company I work for. Talk about an eventful day. However, I feel so happy about all these amazing things happening so early in the day. It feels me with love and joy to know that things are falling into place for us. The only thing that kind of pokes at my joyous thoughts is Anna. I know she has her own life and whatnot, but I can’t help but feel like she’s getting left behind when it comes to great things happening. Ethan and I feel strongly about Anna and want her to live her best life too. Maybe, just maybe, I can take advantage of Ethan being in this amazing mood and talk him into giving Anna a promotion. She’s worked for him for years and it’s about time she came up in the corporate world.
As I’m getting ready for work, I get a text from Anna which isn’t surprising since she texts me every morning, however, it’s this morning’s texts that makes me smirk.
Is it bad that I dreamt about fucking you and Ethan last night? We should totally make that happen ;)
And my day just keeps getting better and better...