For the next two weeks, I spent almost every day with Becks, I like Becks instead of Becca.
We hadn’t told her parents, she didn’t want to. She had to meet with a counselor to talk about whether she was sure she wanted to have an abortion or not.
Then there were the consent forms from her and for some reason from Carter. Although Carter wanted nothing to do with her or the baby he still had a say and as soon as we got outside I broke his jaw for the way he treated her. He couldn’t own up to anything and had left Becks all alone.
Lexie and Peyton knew now too and they were really supportive. I was glad Becca had Lexie to talk to, she really was scared.
Today is the day, I had Becca sleepover last night. She was really quiet yesterday so I kept checking to see if she was okay. Around midnight she came to my room.
I hear a small knock on my door and say to come in. In walks Becks, she looks really sad.
“You okay?” I ask walking over to her.
“I can’t sleep, I’m so scared Nate,” she said in something a bit bigger than a whisper.
I hug her.
“Talk to me, I’ll listen,” I say.
She rubs her belly and looks away sadly but I knew what she was thinking.
“Becks you’re doing the right thing. Its okay if you don’t want it, it’s your choice. And if you change your mind at the last minute, well I’ll help you” I say kind of surprising myself.
She shakes her head.
“It was my mistake for trusting Carter, it was my mistake for sleeping with him. I cant bring a baby into this world knowing his father hates him and I won’t let my dreams go down the drain because I choose to be a mother than to go to college. I won’t let my family hold it over my head. I won’t let you get sucked into this Nate, you’re a really good person. I don’t want this baby, but I feel like I won’t be a good person anymore” She says tears pouring out of her eyes.
I take her into my arms and kiss her forehead.
“You’re a good person and you still will be. This was not you’re fault Becks, one bad choice doesn’t get to ruin your life. We’re all here for you, me, Peyton and Lexie, it’s going to be okay. You can stay here forever if you want” I say and hear her giggle.
She wipes her tears and nods.
Today I woke up with Becks in my arms, she’d slept through the night and in my room. I bet Lexie was wondering where Becks was well probably not the way I heard her and Peyton giggling when we got in the car.
We drive up to the clinic and I feel Becks grip on my hand tighten. She really was scared. Lexie and Peyton in the back were making googly eyes at me and Becks. Those idiots choose now to behave this way.
We walk in and Becks gives her name. I squeeze her hand before a nurse takes her away along with Lexie who decided to go in for support. I’d read on the procedure and I wish I could be in there holding her hand but only one person was allowed in.
A few hours later
We’re back home, I lifted sleeping Becks from the car seat and carried her upstairs to my room. She didn’t say much after the procedure, Peyton and I hugged her when she came back with Lexie. I asked Lexie how it went she said it was successful but Becks went through some bad moments.
I lay her down in my bed and cover her with blankets. As I turn to leave I feel her tug on my shirt.
“Please stay with me?” she asks, almost begs me.
I smile at her and get into bed beside her, carefully holding her.
“You did great,” I tell her and she nods.
“Thank you, Nate, really thank you,” she says beginning to cry.
I held her as she cried, I really wanted to murder Carter right now but I needed to be here for her. I was also pissed at her parents and her brothers. Lesson or not they were messing with her life, they knew exactly how hard it would be for her plus it’s not like she did it on purpose.
She fell asleep in my arms and I left her sleeping in bed so I could go downstairs and we could decide on dinner.
I walk down and find thing one and thing two on the couch and as soon as I walked in the made creepy smiles at me.
“Dude say something,” says Peyton.
“She’s okay, really tired so I’m letting her sleep,” I say.
“In your bed? Again?” says Lexie a bit too excited.
“What do you guys want for dinner?” I ask walking away into the kitchen.
“Does she know?” asks Peyton.
“Know what?” I ask.
“She must know,” says Lexie.
“You think so?” Asks Peyton.
“What are you guys talking about? And quit making googly eyes at us” I say.
“Dude you like her, you definitely like her, I know that look you have when you’re around her. I’ve seen it before” says Peyton making me roll my eyes.
“The last time you saw that look it was a disaster, that’s nothing, I’m not looking for anything anyway,” I say looking for the frozen pizza in the fridge.
“Nothing? That’s nothing? The last time I went into your room you practically body slammed me. You let her sleep in your bed dude, that’s definitely something” says Peyton.
Lexie joins in now, arms crossed, staring me down. I find the pizza and throw it in the oven.
“No one says a word to her. She just had to give up her baby, not only that she’s in pain and who knows what else is going on in her mind. I don’t want her thinking about that, she’ll know when the time comes. For now, she sleeps” I say daring either of them to say anything else.
The pizza should be done by four giving me enough time to shower.
In the shower I think about Becks, I wasn’t sure if I liked her like that. There was definitely a connection between us but after three weeks I can say for sure that I like having her around. But I cant let my mind wander any further, it wasn’t the right time.
I get out of the shower and walk out with a towel wrapped around my waist. Becks was still asleep, she was mumbling in her sleep.
“The baby...the baby..” she kept saying and I felt bad.
I wasn’t sure if Becks would’ve kept the baby without having Carter around but I knew she cared for it. At the parlor, she covered her tummy when that girl was making fun of her as if to protect it. She had grown an attachment to it and I could never understand her pain. I threw another blanket over her and went downstairs.
I took the pizza out of the oven and went outside for a bit. I took my bike and went for a ride, I needed to clear my head.
Nate went out for a ride earlier, I think he needed some space after today. I know he’s worried about Becca, we all are, none of us knew how to deal with something like this. For me, all I kept thinking is that if Lexie was pregnant we’d keep the baby. I wouldn’t run away from it and deny my own child. Carter was such an ass for that, good thing the broken jaw he got from Nate meant he’d be off the team for the rest of the season, which was almost over anyway.
Lexie went to go check on Becca, I’m glad she’s there for her, she really needs a friend right now. I call Ms.Leins to check on Haylie.
“Hello, Peyton, Haylie is fine,” she says making me chuckle.
“Has she been behaving?” I ask concerned, I know Haylie has a temper.
“Oh, she’s been a doll, she’s been helping out with the garden out back. She and Mr.Tinnie are getting along splendidly, stop worrying or you’ll get grey hairs” she told me making me laugh.
“That sounds good and you know I can’t help it. I’m going to stop by and visit tomorrow, is that alright?” I ask.
“Yes, that’s fine, I’ll let her know,” she says.
Lexie walks back into the room and she looks sad.
“What’s wrong?” I ask.
“Becca’s locked herself in the bathroom, she won’t come out but I can hear her crying, I’m worried,” she says.
“I’m going to text Nate, he’ll talk to her. Don’t worry we’re going to help her get through this” I say taking my phone to text Nate.
“Dude, Becca’s in the bathroom crying, come home soon, she needs you” I wrote Nate
I was dying to send a winky face at the end of my text but I knew now wasn’t the time for that.
I rode my bike for a while and found a nice tree to sit under.
I lay back against the tree fold my arms behind my head and let out a breath. How long had I been holding in that one?
Becca’s back home probably still sleeping, I’m so worried about her. She looked so like lost when she came back with Lexie. I needed her to talk to me. I wish she wasn’t going through this alone but her family was no help, I’m so angry at them for almost putting her through that. It was such a terrible thing to do.
Becks is so weak and timid, I know she’d make a great mother but now was not the time and there was no way she could do it alone. I don’t get what made me so worried about her id only met her once before. I barely knew anything about her too, just that she was pregnant and Lexie’s friend.
But I guess I didn’t need to know more. There’s something in me that wants to protect her, something that wants to keep her smiling. Shes only 19 and was going to take on a child by herself I couldn't let her do that. I couldn't do that at 19 now that I think about it.
I'm 22, so I don't know what got into me when I told Becca shed have my help if she chose to keep the baby. But I know id help her in any way that I could.
I swore off girls after my ex, whenever I think about relationships I think about the beach and how all my hard work went to waste that night. Relationships make me apprehensive so I tend not to think about them much. That’s why this is all so weird to me.
I stay there thinking, watching the clouds and let time fly by until I get a text from Peyton. I need to get home. I get on my bike and race home, Becks needs me.
I get home and run upstairs to my room. I walk to the bathroom and hear soft cries.
“Becks, it’s me Nate, please talk to me,” I say worried.
“I feel sick Nate,” she says.
“Do you need any meds?, The doctor gave me some just in case” I say.
She opens the door slowly and I see her red bloodshot eyes.
“Not that kind of sick Nate,” she says barely getting out my name.
She was shaking, her shirt was drenched in tears and she looks so pale. I pull her into my arms and sit with her on the bathroom floor. She looked so frail.
“It’s okay, cry” was all I could get out.
Becca cried and cried. When she finally calmed down a bit I lifted her up and set her on the toilet. She looked so drained.
“Do you want to shower?” I asked her, she nodded.
I went into the closet and brought her back a towel. She kind of looked at it for a while. I ran her a bath and she thanked me. I sat on the outside of the door until she came out. As she dressed I turned my back to her and looked at the medicine instructions, one of them said it’d make her drowsy. Clearly, that one had worked.
She taps my shoulder as I’m making a schedule for when to take the pills. I turn around and she hugs me. Her head only hits my shoulder, her arms barely went around my waist.
“I’m sorry about that,” she says looking a bit embarrassed.
“Becks,” I say.
She looks up at me curiously.
“There’s pizza downstairs, um we can eat here if you want,” I say.
She smiles at me and nods. I kiss her forehead before going downstairs to get pizza for us. I almost kissed her but changed my mind about it.
I grab a few slices, two cans of soda and head back upstairs. Becks is by the window looking out arms wrapped around herself. I place the food down on the dressed and walk over to her. She didn’t hear me walk in, she’s so focused on looking at the moon.
I place my arms around her and pull her into me when I see she doesn’t mind.
“Becks, talk to me please,” I say.
“You know normally id be telling you that my brothers might kill you right about now, but it’s not like they care anymore. Nobody does” she says.
I place my hand on hers rubbing the back of it with my thumb when she takes my hand in hers.
“We should eat,” she says.
She was keeping her word about eating more.
“Hey, I have an idea,” I say
She looks at me curiously
“let’s go for a ride?” I ask and she nods.
I put our food in a small picnic basket and we walk outside to my bike. She looks a bit nervous at first but less as I fasten her helmet on. She sits behind me wrapping her arms around my waist and I start my bike up. Pretty soon we’re headed towards where I was earlier today. I stop the bike and we get off and walk over to the tree I was sitting at.
I sit and she follows.
“are we going to stare at children again?” she asks and I laugh.
I notice her shiver and give her my jacket. She smiles at me thankfully. We eat and I watch her look at the sky. I could tell she liked it. She lays her head on my shoulder after a while. I smile at her and she catches me.
“What?” she asks shyly.
I shake my head and look away then catch her looking at me.
“What?” I ask her and she giggles.
“Close your eyes,” she tells me and I shake my head.
“What why not?” she asks pretending to be mad at me.
“On the count of three, we’ll close our eyes together, deal?” I ask.
This was going to be my chance.
“One, two, three,” we say together and I lean in and kiss her.
I think she caught onto my plan because she hadn’t shut her eyes but after a few seconds she did. When we broke the kiss, she blushed really hard but then she looked away. I knew exactly what was on her mind at that moment.
“Becks, I’m not Carter, I won’t leave you, I won’t keep you a secret,” I said and saw her eyes water.
“Nate, you’re great, it’s just that I’m not. My family practically abandoned me, I just had an- I have issues and it’s like you’re so great and I don’t deserve you” she said placing her head on her knees.
“Kiss me,” I said.
“Huh?” she said looking up at me.
“Kiss me and tell me you don’t deserve me,” I said.
She looked at me sadly and I knew the expression on her face matched mine. She reached up wrapped her arms around my neck as she kissed me. I kissed her and kissed her until we were both out of breath and laying on the ground.
“You deserve the world,” I say taking her into my arms.
“Promise me you won’t leave,” she says.
“I promise, we don't have to be anything yet. I know you're trying to hold on right now. I'm here for you” I say.
I hold her for a bit more rubbing her back because I knew she still had some demons to fight and today was hard on her. I look at the time and decide we should be getting home. Before we get on my bike I kiss her one more time. Then I laugh at the blush spreading across her face.
When we get back to my place I take her hand in mine and walk in and almost die at the look Peyton was giving us. It was like the Grinch when he smiled. Becks blushed and looked at the ground mostly. I sent daggers at Peyton but he was enjoying it too much.
We walk upstairs still holding hands and before I can close the door to my room I hear Peyton yell out “yeah man” and Lexie scolding him.
Note to self I think, tie him to a tree when he’s sleeping.
Two Weeks Later
Becks has practically moved in with us and we love having her here. Nobody loves it more than Nate though, I’ve never seen him this happy.He’s been teaching Becks how to cook in fact they’re in the kitchen right now trying to make a lasagna. The word being trying because there’s more giggling being done than cooking.
I hear a knock on the door and walk over to answer it. We aren’t expecting anybody so it’s kind of odd. Peyton is taking a nap on the couch they have 3 more games until the final one and he needs his rest. Mason even came by threatening me to let him sleep as if I’m the issue.
I open the door and see a man I’ve never seen before but I recognized his eyes.
“Can I help you, sir?” I ask.
“Yes, um is my Becca living here?” he asks and I nod.
The poor man looked as if he hadn’t slept in weeks. I call Becca over and Nate follows. The man looked like he might start crying when he sees her but then he looks sad when he looks at her belly. Becca hides behind Nate and he asks the man to speak with him outside. The man nods and they step outside.
In case you’re wondering yes, we ran to the window to see what was going on although it’d be better if they spoke a bit louder.
A man who I assume to be Becks dad comes to my place and I take him outside to speak.
I kind of felt bad he looked really tired he didn’t know where Becks was all this time. She didn’t tell them when she left.
“Are you Becks father?” I ask
“Yes, are you the one who you know?” he asks me.
“Got her pregnant? No. But you’ll be happy to know I broke his jaw” I say.
“What happened to her? I mean she was a lot bigger when I last saw her” he says sadly.
“She’s not carrying a child anymore sir, she wasn’t ready for a child, she was terrified, she couldn’t take care of it alone, you left her alone” I start and end up yelling.
I didn’t know that I was so angry at her family until now.
“Did you p-pay for?” he asks.
“Yes, and I’d do it again,” I say.
“Thank you,” he says surprising me.
“Wait I thought you wanted her to keep it?” I ask confused.
“Her mother, that women, I have no backbone when it comes to talking to her. She decided it, I couldn’t bear to look at Becks, she looked miserable. Thank you, thank you so much” he says his eyes getting watery.
“I’ll take care of her,” I say and he nods.
“I know you will son, thank you. Please tell her I love her” he says.
Becks dad leaves and Lexie, Becks and now an awake Peyton are looking at me for answers.
“Becks your dad says he loves you and he’s sorry,” I say knowing he was sorry for not standing up to his wife.
She smiles and walks over and hugs me. I wrap my arms around her and kiss her forehead.
I’m never leaving this girl, I told her father id take care of her.