sette // he must think i'm a creep
I couldn’t believe this.
Valentino, who is going to be my partner for the job, is the guy that I have been bumping to everywhere.
Is this fate? God, are you testing me right now? Because I’m telling you, I’m going to fail.
After the shock from both our parts had subsided, Georgia had explained that this would be both women and men’s campaign. She was showcasing a big collection this year.
I have never worked with a male model before, so you can say that I’m pretty nervous. I hope that I don’t make a fool out of myself.
On the bright side, I kind of know the guy. We are bickering and fighting almost all of the time but, since we’re both professionals I think we can make it work.
At least, I hope so.
God, I really can’t believe this guy is real and that I’ll be working with him. His face is nearly perfect. I know I can’t stand him but that doesn’t mean that I can’t appreciate beauty when it’s right in front of me. I feel like I’m zoning out way too much when I’m with him. He must be starting to think I’m a creep.
“Hey, can you stop staring at me? I’m getting pretty uncomfortable here.” He mutters loud enough for me to hear it without interrupting Georgia.
Oh God, he looks pissed off.
This is so embarrassing I could feel my cheeks turning hot already. He must think I’m obsessed with him, which I’m not by the way. I need to stop staring at him because if this is just with a meeting, I can’t imagine how I’ll react when we start to do the photo shoots and he makes physical contact with me. God, I pray I don’t make things awkward with him.
That’s what happens when you have been single for a long time. Get yourself together Emma!
“Is everything okay between you two? Tell me now because I don’t want any conflict later when we start shooting everything.” Georgia said with an unimpressed look in her face.
“No, it’s all okay. No problem at all.” I assured her and left my attention on her.
“Okay, so now that is settled we can start with the project next week. Is that okay with both of you?” Georgia asked us.
“Yeah, it’s okay with me.” Valentino muttered and I could barely hear him. What’s with him and speaking so low?
“Same here, a week should give me enough time to arrange something with my boss.” I replied and hoped that I won’t be asking for too much when I talked to my boss because I really didn’t want to lose my job.
“If none of you have a question or comments then this meeting is finished. You both can leave.” Georgia said waving us off and went to her office desk.
As I was making my way out I felt someone take me by the arm and pull me to a secluded corner. No need to guess who it was because Georgia doesn’t seem like the type to treat someone like that.
“Stop touching me! Who gave you the right to grab me like that?” I said trying to get Valentino’s hands off me.
“Why do you keep following me and appearing everywhere I go? I don’t like it!” He said almost screaming at me.
“First, calm down and don’t speak to me like that. And second, don’t flatter yourself. I’m not here because of you. I didn’t even know you were going to be here. I came here to work. I’m a model if you didn’t know.” I told him pushing him away so that there was more space between us.
“Why I don’t believe you?” He said getting all up on my space again and glaring at me.
“Whoa, buddy, for someone who seems to be all closed off and a recluse you sure like to invade all my personal space.” I retorted just to make him mad. I’m a masochist like that I know. But I really want some space right now. All this proximity is making me nervous.
“Whatever.” He said with his hands going through his hair a clear sign of frustration.
“Look, can we please be civil with each other while working together. I cannot fail this and no offense but I’m not going to let some guy I barely know ruin it for me.” I almost begged him. But I have to be the bigger person and end this before it conflicts with our job.
“Sure, whatever you say.” He muttered and left.
Was he even serious about that? I didn’t get to catch the tone he said it. Ugh, I guess I’ll found out next week.
“Emma, darling I haven’t heard from you in a while. How you’ve been?”
It’s true; I haven’t talked to my mother since I last called her a few weeks ago. I just wasn’t ready to call her again since I hadn’t found a good modeling gig. I felt bad for the sacrifices that my parents had made and I still haven’t accomplished anything worthy of them. But I feel like that’s going to change with this new job and I couldn’t be more excited.
“I know mom, I’ve just been very busy with something. So, how are you guys? How’s everyone doing?” I had thought of telling my mom the news right away but listening to her voice had made me miss home and my family.
It’s been a while since I last visited my family. I think I should go home for a few days and surprise them. Maybe I’ll plan something for after I finish this job.
“Oh honey, everyone’s doing fine like always. Your dad’s very happy about how the restaurant’s doing. Mason recently started doing soccer and Nora’s made some new friends which I’m a bit skeptical about but you know nothing I can’t handle. But enough about us. Tell me about yourself, what’s new in your life?” She kind of rushed the bit about Nora and her friends and changed the subject but I need to know more about that. My siblings are very important to me and if something is happening to them I need to know asap so that I can help them.
“I’m still not sure. I don’t want to be judgemental but they seem a bit sketchy. I don’t want to jump to any conclusion so let’s leave it at that.”
“Okay, but if anything happens please tell me.”
“Sure honey. Now tell me, what did you call me for?” She asks with curiosity laced in her voice.
“Okay, so mom I have some news.” I said the excitement clear in my voice. “I finally found a job!” I think I’m tearing up right now. Like, the actual situation is settling in and I think I’m crying right now. I finally found a job that can jump-start my modeling career. “Like, an actual modeling job. I’ll be working with Georgia Smith.” I bet I look like a crazy person right now, crying in the middle of the street.
“Oh my God, Emma! That’s amazing!” My mom said sounding very happy. “I’m so happy for you. This is a great opportunity. I wish we could all celebrate together. We really miss you.” She said tearing up. Right now this feels so bittersweet. Even though she’s happy for me I can hear the sadness in her voice and it makes me feel sad too.
In moments like this, I wish I was back home. The homesickness couldn’t have hit me harder.
“I know mom, I miss you all too. I wish I was there with you guys. Even though I have Ava here I sometimes feel very lonely without you all.”
Sometimes, I wonder if I made the right choice by leaving my family, and moving all alone to New York.
“Oh honey, you just need a boyfriend that’s all. I bet if you had one you wouldn't feel all that lonely.” She says in a suggestive tone and suddenly the mood is lifted again.
“Mom you know I don’t have any time for a boyfriend right now. I just want to focus on my career. I promise if I ever get one you’ll be the first to know.” I said with fake frustration because I know that she’s not all that serious. She jokes around with that topic but she’s not the kind of mother that will force her daughter to get a boyfriend so that she feels accomplished.
That’s what I love about my parents, that they are very chill and laid-back about this whole parenting thing. They are caring and supportive of our dreams and they don’t force us to do things that we don’t like.
“I'm just kidding Emma.” She says with a laugh. “Anyways, I have to go now. But I just want you to know that we're very proud of you and I hope everything goes perfectly with your new job. Love you, honey. See you soon.”
“Bye mom, love you too.” I reply as I hang up the phone with a sigh.
Right now I don’t see my family very often but I hope that changes soon.