(Ch. 45) His Condition
“Are we gonna rest in one room?”
I questioned when Edan and I entered a room. Its walls were painted in grey color. A king size bed was placed in the center with lamps placed on each side table. The only lamps illuminating the room. A walk-in closet was present along with a small side mirror. It was a simple room but looked so elegant.
“Yeah.” He gave a simple answer.
“But-” I paused.
It’s not like I haven’t slept with him before but every time when I’m around him I just can’t stop the strange feelings. These feelings just set my whole body on fire and it makes me lose my mind whenever he’s around me.
“What? Are you afraid you can’t resist me?” He smirked as I rolled my eyes.
“Look who’s talking. Well, Mr. Wilton, you said earlier that YOU are the one who can’t resist me.” I pointed out with a victorious smile on my lips.
“Well, That’s absolutely right Miss James. And I may not be able to resist you tonight. And this dress is making it quite difficult for me.” He whispered in a husky voice as my body shivered.
What does he mean he can’t resist me tonight?
“Don’t worry Emma! I won’t do anything without your permission.” He assured seeing my feared expression, my body relaxed but I felt a little disappointed.
Because you want him...
Do I really?
But I am afraid from that night. I am not ready yet.
“Emma!” He came closer and held my cheek gently.
“I was just joking. I mean not the whole part. You do look gorgeous today and it’s really damn hard for me to resist you. But-” He inhaled.
“I’ll wait for you.” He planted a kiss on my forehead and my heart hinged in my rib cage as I could see the desire, the lust, the want in his eyes.
Does that mean he wants me? But I am not ready. I haven’t told him. I haven’t told him that I have never been in any sexual relationship. I was a virgin and I am afraid I’ll never be able to give what he wants from me. A part of me was still locked up in the dark pit of terror and I was still afraid. Every time when I thought of that night, it makes me tremble with fear.
But I was glad he loves me and I trust him. I believe in him. I believe that he won’t just give up on us.
I’ll wait for you.
His words... Does he really mean it?
“Edan! I may never be ready.” I averted my eyes stating the truth.
“So what? I’ll wait for you. If I have to wait for an eternity.” He held my cheeks and turned my face towards him. Our eyes staring at each other and there in his eyes, I could see that he meant each and every word. I tiptoed and connect my lips with his in a gentle kiss.
“Thank you.” I whispered parting slightly.
“Thank you for everything.” I repeated my words and I literally mean each of that.
Edan is the main reason behind my change. He had cracked the shell and pulled me out. He had made me that Emma who was lost somewhere, who died 4 years ago but he gave me a new life. He made me realize it. He became my reason to smile, he made me look forward into the future, to look forward to my life. I was really blessed to have him and I don’t want him to lose him now.
I drew back and headed towards the bed.
“Whose room is this?” I roamed my eyes around the room.
I feel so comfortable in this room as the mattress was so soft and bouncy and the room itself gave me a sense of peace.
“It was mine when I use to live here. I’m still surprised, they haven’t misplaced a single thing. It’s just like I had left yesterday.” He answered moving towards his closet. He looked through it and tossed a white button-up shirt towards me as I caught it.
“I’ll take some clothes from Lily. You don’t have to.” I took his shirt.
But you want to wear his shirt.
You know you want to.... Deep down...
“I know you can take her clothes. But-” He paused and coming close, sat on the bed. He came closer so that his breath was now fanning on my neck as I felt electric shocks throughout my body.
“You’re gonna wear it. Because-” He kissed my neck this time, trailing kisses down my bare shoulder.
“Because you look extremely sexy and hot with my shirt on. And besides-”
His kisses got intense this time as he continued planting wet kisses on my shoulder blade. My body was turned on and now the heat radiating through it. My cheeks flushed and I hold back a moan.
“Besides it just gives me a proof that you are MINE.”
He groaned and drew his head upward leaving me for more. In the next moment, his lips connected with mine as I fell on the bed by his force and Edan on top of me. He bit my lower lip to access my mouth and I gladly gave him that access. His tongue exploring every corner of my mouth. Our tongues dancing in unison but Edan being more experienced succeeded in gaining the upper hand. I grabbed his thick black locks and pulled them as my other hand on his back. He parted and trailed kisses along my jawline. His one hand rested on my thigh whilst other hand holding me by my waist. His hand trailed upward towards my inner thighs as his thumb drawing soothing circles on its way.
My breath hinged at the contact of his hand with my inner thigh and I was wet by now due to his touch. His touch creating a burning sensation throughout my body as his hands made its way near the hem of my dress, pushing it upwards exposing my thighs. His lips made its way to my right side of the neck and I inclined my neck to another side to give him a better access. I moaned his name.
He sucked and nibbled my skin. His tongue creating an erotic sensation in my body. His hands doing unexplainable things to my body. His hands move upward and went to my stomach. The bare contact of his hand creating an electrifying spark throughout my burning body.
“You’re so beautiful.” He whispered kissing the crook of tmy neck as his tongue doing magical things to my body. His hand rested on my panties and my heart accelerated. My breath caught up in my throat and I need to stop this or else I’ll not be able to resist it.
I’m not ready yet.
I need to stop him, to stop me.
“Edan!” I breathed out.
“Ahan?” He continued kissing as his lips made it’s way to the valley of my chest and my eyes rolled back.
“I can’t.” I exhaled and he stopped as for a minute I regretted. His face came closer to mine. His eyes having disappointment in them but in a flash, it was replaced with care as he pecked my lips.
After saying those words, he went to the washroom and brought myself back. I was feeling guilty now. I know what he wants but I was afraid I may not be able to give him that. Moreover, I was not quite thrilled about myself. I don’t think so that I was that beautiful, I wasn’t even much fond of my own self. Sometimes it is just so hard to believe that Edan loves me. It is hard to believe where my fate had taken me.
I thought there wasn’t a single sign of love in my life and when I thought that I’ll spend the remaining life alone, I found him. I guess we were destined to meet on that day and I was destined to fall for him and to find love which once I thought I’ll never find. I just hope we remain as we are. I hope he will never leave me. I hope, we remain beside each other until the end or at least as long as this relationship goes.
I quickly changed into Edan’s shirt and button up. Edan came out in his pants, his muscular chest, his abs.
Oh my God!
I looked at his naked chest and towards his V line.
Damn Emma! Return to your senses. Would you?
It’s not like I haven’t seen him like this but during that time I had never noticed him in this way. But now I just can’t help but look how sexy and handsome he was. He was really every girl’s dream. And me... I was opposite of him. I was of no match to him.
Dropping my head down, I looked down at my hands. My almost black hair hiding my face in them as I thought of him and me. I believe our couple looked odd as I was of no match to him. I felt the bed dip beside me giving me an indication that Edan was just beside me.
“As I have already said. You look hot and sexy.” He brushed my hair out of my face and gently push them behind my ear as my cheeks reddened.
“Am I proud to know that this blush is due to me and I’m the reason behind it.” He chuckled and I blushed harder.
Damn you Edan!
He always knows how to swept me by his words, and how to make me blush. He knows how to make me laugh and how to make me smile. He held my chin gently so that I was looking in his eyes. I just love them. I just love him. I don’t know what just came over me but I wrapped my arms around his neck and dipped my head in the crook of his neck. He was taken aback by my sudden action and even for me, it was quite unusual and strange. I just want him to hold me.
“Emma? Are you alright?” His voice concerned.
I nodded in his neck.
“I just w-want y-you to-”
“To?” He questioned.
“To never let me go,” I whispered in his neck.
Oh, God! It feels like I’m desperate or something.
Idiot! Why just I said it!
But I don’t want him to let go of me. I will never survive without him. He had spoiled me and now I will never be able to live my life without him. He’s the reason behind my life. Edan encircled his arms around me and hugged me tighter.
“I promise. I’ll die but never leave you.” He kissed my head as tears started streaming down my eyes. I was happy. Beyond happy.
“Thank you,” I whispered.
“Thank you, Emma. Thank you for letting me love you.” He kissed my head and soothed my hair. We lay on the bed. Our legs entangled whilst my head placed on his bare chest and I could hear the rhythmic beating of his heart. With his one hand, he was playing with my hair and other wrapped around me.
“I got admission in NYU.”
I told him. I know I have to tell him sooner or later. Moreover, I have only one month left before my classes start.
“Congratulations.” He whispered and kissed my head as I gather up my courage and said the next lines.
“I’ll not work for you. I’ll quit.” His caress stops and his body stilled as I looked up to see his face, his jawline stiffened.
“What do you mean by that?”
I could tell he was getting a little frustrated now but I have to tell him.
“I-” I breathed out.
“I want to fully concentrate on my studies. I don’t think I’ll be able to manage both my job and my studies. So I will quit. According to that contract, I can’t quit. So could you issue me my resign?” I continued as his eyes looking past me. For at least 5 minutes he didn’t reply and my anxiety raised up.
“On one condition.” He finally answered.
Before I could ask, he gave me that condition as my eyes got wide open.
“Move in with me.”