(Ch. 46) Crazy for My Emma
“Move in with me.”
My eyes widen as I sat up and so did Edan. His head resting on the headboard of the bed while I was looking at my joined hand, wondering what he said was true or just a joke.
Move in? With him?
This was his condition.
How can I?
No. Not at all. Never.
“Emma! You are and you will move in with me. I’m not hearing a no from you.” He stated calmly leaving no place for me to argue. I don’t know how to refuse him now. He was a pure distraction and I don’t know whether I’ll be able to concentrate on my studies or not while having him around.
Do you want to Emma? Do you want to move in?
No. I don’t want to.
Yes. You want to.
You liar. You want it deep down...
Urgh!!! Why is my inner voice always against me? Why can’t we just agree on one thing?
Because you keep on denying that you want him. You want to spend each second, each hour, each day of your life with him but you don’t let yourself to admit it. You keep on fighting, you keep on denying, you keep on battling. You are a coward! Stop it. Stop it for once Emma! Just stop.
Again my conscience was right and I hate the fact that it is always right.
“Edan. I can’t.” I averted my eyes.
“Why? Don’t you trust me? Don’t you love me?” He turned my face towards him and I sighed.
I do trust him. I do love him.
“You don’t love me. Do you?” He questioned again making me shook my head.
I do love you.
“Edan! It’s not that!” I whispered, looking down. I don’t know what excuse should I make.
“Emma! You love me or not?” He demanded and I let out a deep breath, he was so demanding.
“Yes. I do.” I stated in a whisper.
“You do what?”
Damn it Edan!!!
“I do love you. But-”
“But what?” He frowned.
“Look! I want to fully concentrate on my studies. And being with you. I don’t know. I just... I mean it will be difficult for me.” I rambled.
“You mean I’m a distraction for you?” He smirked as I rolled my eyes at his cockiness.
Of course, you are!!!
I bit my lower lip. It was so damn true. Whenever he’s around me I can’t function normally. I can’t think properly. Whenever I’m with him its just electrified sparks and butterflies invading my stomach. His touch, his sweet words, his caressing, his teasing, his kisses, his love. All of this just made me lose my mind.
“Edan! What I’m trying to say is. I’ll always remain in contact with you. We can hang out on weekends. We will see each other often. I was even thinking to reside the same apartment as your sister’s.”
I thought about it and then I thought it would be great to live with Lily. I liked her. She’s so full of energy and fun. I loved her company and it’s only been just a day with her.
“Nope. I’m not hearing anything else. That’s final, I want you to stay with me and besides its only half an hour drive from my house. I’ll drop you and pick you up.”
This arrogant, stubborn man!!!
“What? Seriously? Are you my daddy or something? Or am I a little girl?” I rolled my eyes at his possessive behavior.
“No, I’m not your daddy, sweetheart! But...I am your boyfriend.” He sat straight and came closer.
“And this boyfriend of yours is 100 times more stubborn than you. So I’m not taking a no.” He had left no room for my excuses as I groaned.
“Because Emma! I just can’t live a day without you. Hell! I can’t live a minute without you. You are always on my mind. The first thing when I walk up and the last thing when I go to sleep.” He held my face in his warm hands as he caressed my cheek with his thumb creating an electrifying sensation throughout my body.
“I don’t want you to leave me. I’m afraid.... Afraid of losing you. I am afraid that once you are gone you’ll never return. So...” He breathed in.
“I want you to be by my side always. I want to see you the first thing I woke up and the last thing when I go to sleep. And not just in my dreams but in reality. I want you in my arms when I go to sleep. I want to kiss you every time I get home, to hold you whenever I can, to make sure that this is not just a dream and that you’ll not leave me. I want you so badly Emma!”
My heart hammering in my ribcage and my body warm by his every word and his touch. My eyes fighting the tears in them as my mind trying to digest what he just said. The revelation I came across made my heart ache. It made it ache from love by Edan. I just don’t believe my fate. How I just get someone like Edan? How my cursed fate let him enter in my life?
He was so caring, sweet and loving. He’s so protective and possessive. But I like his possessiveness. I like the way he treats me, the way he show’s his love, the way he kept on striving. No matter how hard I try to still refuse his condition I just can’t. I knew that I want the same thing deep down and this time I’m gonna go with it.
I traced his jawline and then his nose and lips. He held my hand and kissed my fingertips and then my palm.
“Okay. I’ll move in with you.” His eyes shot up and in the next moment, he showered my face with kisses as he claimed my lips in a lingering kiss.
“Thanks. I guess my emotional blackmailing really had an effect on you.” He smirked.
What? Emotional blackmailing?
He’s is really impossible.
I rolled my eyes.
“Really? So that was all a drama of yours?”
“Oh, no baby! I’m just kidding. I truly meant my every word.” He chuckled and laid on the bed with me in his arms. His head buried in the crook of my neck as he kissed there.
“Now go to sleep sweetheart.” He entangled our legs and tightened his arms around me.
I felt my eyes drop heavy and I was sleepy all of a sudden.
“You are a crazy man,” I mumbled in my half sleep as he planted a kiss on my earlobe.
“Yes. I am. Crazy for my Emma!” I heard those words before I went to sleep. A smile on my face.