Juliette could barely stand the thought of her brother and now knowing he could potentially be coming to get her brought a sick feeling to her stomach. She felt like maggots were crawling all over her body as she stared down at the clear water. She could distinctly hear her mother talking to her, though she just couldn’t bring herself to focus on what she was saying.
“Juliette, my precious baby girl.”
Tears streamed down both the females faces as Juliette once more remained trapped in her mind. She screamed as loud as she could but her lips refused to move. She just continued to stare at the water as her body continued to be washed. She could distinctly hear talking outside the bathroom and instantly knew it was her boys. She wished she could speak to them, they were her angels. The only two people who were able to hold her safely to the earth. She knew they would protect her and this child with every fiber in their body.
“Mom.” Sean stopped as he stood outside the bathroom with his brother. They didn’t want to frighten Juliette but they needed to know she was okay. “Boys, please stay out there. Have some clothes on the bed for her to get dressed in, though for god sakes please leave the room after that.” Her voice was firm though you could hear the motherly tone in it. They would follow simple orders without complaints.
Angelica turned her attention back to Juliette as she grabbed the shampoo. She missed bathing her daughter as she grabbed the comb as well. Juliette relaxed slightly under the care of the women she considered her mother. She knew she needed to not put up a fight when it came to her, this was her protector against everybody when needed. She could relax but she wouldn’t force herself to speak if it wasn’t necessary at the moment.
Sebastian looked through the closet as his brother sat on the bed. “How about this?” Sebastian stuck a hand out showing a long pink dress that had a deep plunge of a neckline. “No.” The hand was pulled away quickly as another outfit was pushed out, this time it was a black shirt and some leggings. “Something for her to be comfortable in.” Sean nodded his head as he stood up.
“Well come on, you heard what mom said.” Sebastian walked over to the bed as he sat the clothes down and followed closely behind Sean. Once out the door, Angelica proceeded to finish up with Juliette bath. Getting up she grabbed a towel and moved to began helping her out of the tub. “Come on love, let’s get you dressed.” Juliette submissively followed behind her mama.
Once out the bathroom, Angelica silently thanked God that the boys followed her simple request. She helped her into her undergarments before pulling the clothes onto her body. “Do you want to sleep first or do you want to get something to eat?” Juliette needed to have as much opinion in the things she did to continue to assure she was in control. “Could I sleep for a bit?” Angelica nodded her head as she assisted her into the bed.
She had hoped she would have chosen food, but that could wait for now. “Okay darling, I’ll be back when you awake. If you need anything please yell for me.” Juliette nodded her head as she turned on her side. She closed her eyes and willed herself to think of a happy memory. She heard the door close but she didn’t let her mind dwindled on it too much.
Instead, she allowed herself to get lost in the memory of her wedding day.
“Juliette.” Sean’s voice could be heard outside the door as she stared at herself in the mirror, a small smile formed on her lips.
“Sean you better not come in here!” Angelica yelled from the inside. Juliette couldn’t stop the laugh that flowed out softly. “You know I don’t believe in that stuff ma.” She said as she did a small twirl to the side. She looked absolutely beautiful in the dress both her and Angelica picked out. It was a pearl white dress that had semi-embroidered fabric that accentuated her thin waist and flared out a bit at the ends. There was a v-line that plunged straight down the middle showing a bit of cleavage.
This was something totally out of her comfort zone but she looked absolutely gorgeous in it, so she let it slide. She deserved to feel like the prettiest female on her wedding day. Her hair was pulled back into a bun, a couple of tendrils framing her face. She wore little makeup as the diamond earrings brought out her blue eyes. She turned towards Angelica and noticed the tears forming in her mother’s eyes.
“Aww please don’t cry, because you’ll make me cry.” Juliette could feel herself wanting to follow suit. “I’m sorry baby, you just look so beautiful.” Angelica stared at her as though she was an angel descending down from the heavens to be given to her boys. “Come now love, the ceremony will be starting soon and we wouldn’t want to keep them waiting.”
Angelica grabbed Juliette’s hand before pulling her along with her out the room, checking beforehand to make sure neither of the boys was waiting outside of the door. Walking down the hall to the double doors, the butterflies slowly crept up her spine as she stared at the closed entry that held her whole future behind them.
“You look absolutely beautiful,” Charles said as he gained a whole of her. Blushing she stared at him, “Thank you.” She quietly muttered as she took his hand as well. “Aww my two favorite girls, I’m happy that you found happiness in our boys Juliette.” She nodded her head, acknowledging his words. “Well let’s get this started.” Not long after hearing those words she heard the beautiful piano begin to play her favorite song.
The doors opened as the opening to the song began.
‘Once, I was seven years old, my momma told me go make yourself some friends or you’ll be lonely.’
Juliette began her walk down the aisle in a slow pace as she kept her eyes on her boys who stood across from each other. She couldn’t help the love that bloomed in her chest from seeing them. All the memories from their childhood sprang forth through her mind from the time they first met to the time they shared baths. Jumping to the times they vowed to always protect her to them taking her on their first date.
‘Once, I was eleven years old, my daddy told me go get yourself a wife or you’ll be lonely.’
Once reaching them the tears formed at her eyes as she watched them began to cry. Reaching for each of their hand, they gently guided her to stand between them. They turned their attention to the pastor as the singing stopped and only the piano remained.
“Dear friends and family, we are gathered here today to witness and celebrate the union of Juliette Johnson, Sebastian and Sean Underwood in marriage. In the years they have been together, their love and understanding of each other have grown and matured, and now they have decided to live their lives together as husbands and wife.” He began as he stared at the three in front of him.
“Juliette, Sebastian, and Sean, today you are surrounded by your friends and family, all of whom have gathered here to witness your marriage and to share in the joy of this special occasion. Today, as you join yourselves in marriage, there is a vast and unknown future stretching out before you. The possibilities and potentials of your married life are great; and now falls upon your shoulders, the task of choosing your values and making real your dreams. Through your commitment to each other, may you grow and nurture a love that makes both of you better people. A love that continues to give you great joy, and also a passion for living that provides you with energy and patience to face the responsibilities of life.”
Juliette could feel the sharp stare from her boys as they focused all of their attention on her. She tried her best to look at the pastor instead of getting caught in the eyes of her loves.
“May you always need one another; not to fill an emptiness, but to help each other know your fullness. May you want one another; not out of lack, but to feel the warmth of their touch. May you embrace one another; not to encircle one another, but to give comfort. May you succeed in all important ways with each other, and not fail in the little graces. May you have happiness, and may you find it in making one another happy. May you have loved, and always find love, in the pursuit of loving one another.”
Juliette could hear the sniffles behind her as her friend and families sat behind them listening to the pastor’s words. “You may now read your vowels to one another.”
“Juliette.” Sean started off as he pulled out a folded piece of paper. Opening it quickly he stopped and looked at her. “You have been the one I was destined to be with since the beginning, you are the love of my life. When I met you I was just a kid living through the days, but when I laid eyes on you everything in my life brightened up like a light in a dark room, like the moon on a dark night.” Juliette sniffled as she let the tears run down her face.
“Sean,” She began. “You were the storm that took hold of my heart. I love the spark that is inside you, your eternal glowing lovely spirit, and I am so glad to be able to see that every day, warming my soul, forever.” Sean wiped the tears away from her eyes as he basked in the love that was so evident in her eyes.
“Juliette,” Sebastian said as he entered the bubble that surrounded the two. “It was an inexplicable force that brought us together - when I first saw you and saw how marvelous you were, I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I promise to always be your devoted husband and to feel that kind of love every day of our lives. As your husband, I am yours, I pledge my heart and soul to you and you alone.” Sebastian’s voice cracked slightly at the end as he stared at the love of his life.
“Sebastian,” She started. “I truly love all I know of you and long to learn more as we grow old together, falling for you a little more each day, being part of your life and connected in every way forever. I know I’m not perfect, but I love that you treat me like I am. I will love you today, tomorrow and until we die. If there is life after that, I will love you there too.” Juliette squeezed his hand as he took a deep breath in.
Juliette was pulled from the beautiful dream as it came to an end. She always knew how it played out so it wasn’t any reason to finish it to the end. She just focused on the beginning seeing as those were the key moments of her entire wedding. She loved playing back their vowels, something that will forever be ingrained in her memories.
Staring at the ceiling, she let out a long sigh as she laid her hand on her belly. She never felt such a strong connection to a child before as she did now. She loves her firstborn but the connection between mother and son was never there like she wished for. Everything was too tied up in the web she was stuck in involving Kai. She couldn’t help the fear that gently tapped on her heart at the thought of him being around her especially now that she was pregnant once more.
“What am I going to do?”