I thought a lot about what Alec had said last night. How the baby was not his. Which meant if there was a baby, then it could only mean that it was Brian's.
Despite our sort of complicated past, considering we were now friends again, I didn't think it would be such a bad idea if I gave him a heads up.
I felt like I was in the wrong for doing so but I also felt that if Sarah was attempting to give up her baby that Brian should know about it. Of course I couldn't be certain he was the father, because I had no idea how many men Sarah had slept with.
So as I sit across from Brian at our usual burger place, I hesitate on telling him. Sitting my cup down I sink back into the metal chair and contemplate exactly how many ways this could go wrong. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.
I chew nervously on my bottom lip and twiddle my fingers beneath the table.
Startled, I glanced up, away from the half eaten food I'd been staring at for the past five minutes and met Brian's curious look.
Tongue tied I shrugged, "Nothing" I managed to spit out.
Brian narrowed his eyes at me, "Yeah right. Somethings bothering you, I can tell" he said setting down his burger on the square piece of decorated foil. He stretched his arms up before settling back into his seat "I'm all ears. You can tell me anything" he grinned wiggling his eyes brows.
I half scowled half smiled at him. He was always so playful. "I don't know if I can tell you this"
"Again, you can tell me anything. I won't judge"
I know you won't because it's not about me. I wanted to say it out loud but I didn't instead I took a large breath but it wouldn't be so bad. "Brian... I was at my appointment the other day and-"
"Oh my gosh!" I nearly jumped out of my seat. I looked up at the intruder. A woman who could be no older than twenty five with dark red hair and intense brown eyes smiled wide at Brian. She stood a few inches away from our table, I hadn't even realized she'd walked up to us.
Brian glanced up at her, he didn't seem to recognize her but she sure recognized him. "You don't remember me? Brian Holtz right?" Her smile began to drop as she seemed to question herself on whether or not she had the right person.
Brian continued to stare at her before he looked at me. Help, clearly written in his eyes. I suppressed a smile, it was kind of funny. I'd never seen him in this type of situation before.
"Who are you?" I spoke up, coming to save the day.
The woman looked down at me, surprised as if she hadn't realized I was sitting here this whole time. "Um..." her eyes shifted to glance at Brian before looking slightly uncomfortable as she cleared her throat and tucked a strand of dark red hair behind her ear "Christy Yates"
Brian's eyes widened and he scrambled from his seat, a look of disbelief, wonder and fear lingering across his face. "Christy? Is it really you?" He asked.
She smiled again, a full wide smile and nodded "Its me! I can't believe it's you!" She exclaimed before throwing herself at him. Brian caught her and hugged her tight a little awkwardly.
I watched them, unsure of what to do. I felt completely out of place.
Her name sounded familiar.
Then I realize, she was Brian's high school sweetheart. I can't help but stare at her. She's just as beautiful as she had been in high school. They had always been the it couple.
"You look... absolutely amazing. How have you been?" Brian asked pulling back from the hug.
A shy blush stole its way into her cheeks and she chuckled lightly, "Thank you and I've been good. I actually just got back into town. I'm heading over to my parents house for the holidays, you know thanksgiving and all..." she trailed off as the words spilled quickly from her mouth. I could tell she was anxious.
Brian nodded and his eyes cut from her to me, then back to her "Thats great Christy. Here take a seat. Cassandra and I were just having lunch before we head back to work"
She glanced at me and a new light entered her eyes, "Oh you're co workers?" She asked taking a seat after Brian.
I nodded and took a sip of my drink. If I was being honest, I felt like a gremlin compared to this woman. She was bright, full of happiness and just downright beautiful.
"Yeah we work for my mom at the flower shop"
I watched as a series of emotions played across Christys face, the main one being grief. She reached out and touched Brian's hand with one of her own, giving it a squeeze "I'm so sorry about your brother. I think about him a lot. He was always following us around, wanting to tag along. I wish I could have been there for his funeral but I just... I couldn't bring myself to go"
He gave her a small forced smile, "It's ok" he didn't say anything else and I wanted to reach across and comfort him, I didn't because I didn't want her getting the wrong impression. Brian cleared his throat, "So... where have you been?"
Christy pulled her hand back, settling it beneath the table, "After high school I traveled a bit, then I ended up at my aunts in Wyoming and found myself enrolling in college. When i left this town, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do but I actually fell in love with fashion"
"Fashion?" Brian questioned.
She nodded, "Yes, I'm working towards being a fashion designer. I want to have my own clothing line"
"I don't ever remember you being into fashion" he said.
I watched Brian, I could see the love he still had for his high school sweetheart but I could also see a certain caution he seemed to keep around him. I couldn't remember when they'd broken up, or how. Maybe she had broken his heart.
She shrugged, "I am now"
"Well congrats Christy"
"Thank you. So what about you, what are you doing?"
Brian opened his mouth and I knew he was going to down play it. To say that he was simply working at his moms shop. I felt as if Christy was slightly shoving it in his face that she found her dream job, all while Brian still sat in the same small town she'd left behind. So I spoke before he could "Actually Brian is heading back to college in December. He's working towards becoming a doctor."
Christy looked at me before glancing back at Brian, "Really?"
Brian gave me a look, I couldn't tell if he was angry or if he was just in disbelief. The glance was quick before he turned his attention back to his high school sweetheart "Yes"
"Well that's great!" She beamed as her cellphone chimed. We both watched as she dug into her small purse and pulled out her phone.
It was then that I felt a slight push against the inside of my stomach. It wasn't painful, but it felt odd. I froze, my hand hovering over the spot. Suddenly, I felt another push as a small quarter size portion of my stomach pushed out. My baby was finally moving, I could finally feel it move!
My lips trembled and I kept my hand hovered protectively over my stomach. I wish Alec had been here for it but it would only be the first of many.
Christy jumped from her seat, "I'm so sorry Brian but I have to run. My parents are still waiting for me, but we should catch up!" She called out as she ran from the restaurant.
Brian watched her leave, a frown on his face before looking over at me. I lifted my teary eyes to his and watched as his widened with panic. "What's wrong? Is the baby alright?" He asked making quick movements to rise from his seat.
My nose burned as I tried desperately to hold back the happy tears that threatened to fall, "Everything's fine. I felt it... I felt the baby" I whispered still in awe.
Brian stilled and glanced at my stomach before smiling. "You had me worried"
"Sorry" I muttered.
He fell back into his seat, "Don't be." He seemed lost in thought for some time after that. We finished eating and cleaned our table before heading out.
As we were driving back to work, I contemplated once again telling him about Sarah. Then I thought back to Christy. His life was becoming as exciting as mine.
He stared hard at the road as we turned onto the street that led us back to the shop, "Hm?"
I watched the red, orange and yellow trees pass by. Autumn was here, thanksgiving was around the corner. This was my favorite time of year, especially the holidays that were included. "Are you going to get together with Christy some time?" I asked.
"I don't think so"
His brows furrowed and his thumb drummed lightly on the steering wheel "Because... her and I... we're over. There's a lot that happened between us in high school and a lot of it isn't good. We fought a lot, way more than any normal couple should. Despite her looking like Mrs. perfect, she can say some wicked mean things and I don't want to go through that again."
I wondered what she'd said to him in the past that was so bad he didn't want to even be friends with her.
"Brian" I said again as we pulled into the parking lot.
He rolled his eyes and pulled into his usual spot, "Cassandra, can we just drop it? I don't want to talk about it."
I huffed, "I wasn't even going to say anything about that"
Brian laughed, "well then what do you want?"
I had to tell him about Sarah. He deserved to know. He deserved to know that there was a possibility that she may be getting rid of his baby.
I unbuckled my seat belt and turned towards him, resting my leg on the seat. His eyes were fixed on me, waiting for me to drop the giant bomb I was withholding.
"Well" He implored, "What is it?"
I took a deep breath, my hands fiddled in my lap "Brian I have a confession to make, Alec and I went to my appointment the other day and we overheard Sarah in the other room... talking to a nurse." Brian looked confused, so I went on "Brian... I'm pretty sure Sarah's pregnant and I think it's your baby. I'm also almost certain she was there trying to get rid of it"