Zara tried in vain to swallow the moan bubbling in the back of her throat. She couldn’t think. Couldn’t speak. And she didn’t fucking want to. She only wanted to feel. And God, did she.
They had reached Nathaniel’s dorm room about a half hour ago. Matt was with Susan since the two were looking after Amy for the evening. They had been talking about Zara’s favorite movies over a cup of coffee when she realized Nathaniel had gone silent. She had looked up from her cup and found him staring at her mouth. Then he had leaned in slowly and taken her cup away placing both on the table nearby.
“I’m going to kiss you.“, he had said, his face devoid of any expression except hot hunger. That’s what Zara saw.
He had cupped her face in his palms and kissed her forehead first, his lips lingering on her skin as he breathed in her scent. She tried to stay still. She really did. But then he had bent his head and had licked her lips. Twice. And just like that her control had crumbled to dust.
She had pushed him back with her palms on his shoulders and had literally attacked his mouth, pressing her lips to his so hard she knew she had probably bruised them. Nathaniel had groaned, a low guttural groan and for a second she even thought she felt him smile against her mouth. Then he began kissing her back and she stopped thinking.
He had lifted her up in his arms so easily, as though she hardly weighed a thing and had placed her on his lap, her legs on either side of his hips. Gripping the back of her head with his palm, he had tilted his own and ravaged her mouth. He had licked, kissed and nibbled her flesh almost ferociously.
And it was fucking incredible.
Now Zara moaned out loud, her cry dissolving into soft whimpers as Nathaniel’s hot mouth kissed down her throat, his hands planted firmly on her waist. She wanted him to touch her. To grab her between her legs and stroke her to orgasm. She needed it and the intensity of it scared her.
This was not what was supposed to happen on a first date.
Fucking hell, it was supposed to be just a chaste kiss. With maybe just a bit of tongue.
But they had just crossed that line. Or atleast she thought they did.
She gripped the back of his head, her fingers weaving through the thick strands again and again. They were soft and straight and she knew she was probably causing his scalp to sting by the strength of her tugging.
“You moan a lot.“, Nathaniel growled, lifting his head from her neck and biting her earlobe.
On cue, Zara gasped out a sound of pure pleasure, her cheeks feeling as though they were on fire.
“I love it.“, he growled again, kissing the side of her face. And yet, his hands remained on her waist. Not moving an inch.
She was drenched. Soaked. And she thought she could smell her arousal in the air.
She clamped her legs together.
Nathaniel claimed her mouth once more. He drew her bottom lip in his mouth, nipping at the centre. The sharp tug made her sit up straight only for a second before her hands wrapped around his neck and she crushed her chest to his.
Fuck. Why was she behaving like a horny teenager?
Nathaniel slanted his mouth over hers and then gave her his tongue. Without conscious thought, Zara began rocking against him, his erection cradled between her legs. That’s when he gave a muffled curse and flipped her on her back, towering over her, his weight supported by his forearms.
Zara’s eyes popped open and she stared at the sight before her.
Nathaniel was breathing hard. Short, ragged breaths. His pupils were dilated, his hair messed up and he looked like he was struggling with himself.
Embarrassment at her wanton behavior made her flush and she began to sit up.
“What? Did I do something wrong?”
He didn’t answer but continued to stare at her, his gaze alternating between her eyes, her lips and her chest.
Another wave of heat had her clamping her legs down more forcefully.
“Do you have any idea how badly I want you?“, he hissed out in a gravelly whisper.
Zara stilled, her eyes widening even as her lower abdomen pulsed and she felt herself get slicker. She shifted her legs trying to tamp down her arousal.
Nathaniel suddenly grabbed her thighs and pushed them apart, settling himself between them. They were now facing each other, his mouth inches away from her own.
“I bet you didn’t think I’d go this far on our first date.“, he sounded bitter.
Zara frowned. Was he blaming himself?
She scooted over even closer to him, brushing her lips over his in the process. She saw his eyes close momentarily and when he opened them they were even darker than before.
She visibly gulped.
“I want you too.“, she said softly, placing her palm against his stomach, needing to make physical contact. The thought confused her. How exactly was she supposed to control herself around him when all her body wanted was to be fused to him like a fucking tattoo.
Nathaniel stayed quiet. Mustering her courage, Zara looked straight at him.
“I’m sorry if I made you feel like you were pushing me. It’s truly the other way round.“, she tried to give him a wan smile and failed. Under her fingers she felt him suck in a breath.
A finger below her chin made her raise her head.
“I do not have honorable intentions when it comes to you, Zara.“, he breathed against her cheek. “And the knowledge that I’ve hurt you before, makes it even worse.”
He ran his fingers up her arm. Once. Twice. Then he settled his palm just below her breast. She stopped breathing.
Nathaniel kissed her mouth softly.
“We should go.“, he said in a low voice.
“Before I damage what we can have.“, he looked away from her and began to let her go.
Zara felt her heart lurch and she grabbed his arm.
He let out an exasperated breath and looked back at her. She tried not to look away in embarrassment at the words she was about to utter.
“I want you to touch me.”
She saw his breath catch and he went rigid. But the bulge in his pants didn’t go away. She flushed when she noticed.
“You are the first girl I’ve known who blushes so much.“, he said softly, as if in awe.
She shook her head.
“Stop trying to change the subject.“, she tried to sound severe. Nathaniel chuckled and leaned even closer to her.
“I should probably let Matt beat me up for what happens next.”
“You said you have feelings for me.“, she said slowly.
His eyebrows furrowed and he nodded. “Yes, I did.”
She moved an inch back, away from the temptation to grab the collar of his shirt and kiss him. Nathaniel noticed it and she saw his eyes narrow.
“What kind of feelings?“, she asked, hoping her voice didn’t betray the trembling in her limbs.
Nathaniel didn’t move for a second neither did he answer her. Zara stared at his face. She saw the tightening of his jaw. The pull of the skin over his cheekbones as he gave her a severe look that was so in contrast to his words that she didn’t know how to react.
“The kind of feelings that make me want to strip you bare and feast my eyes on your naked skin, flushed with my attention.“, he growled out softly, moving closer to her. “The kind that makes me want to pleasure you, again and again, till you’re hoarse with screaming my name. The kind that make me want to fuck you so fucking well that you’ll still feel me between your legs when you wake up in the morning.“, his voice dropped one octave lower. “The ones that make me want to make love to you in every possible way, spank your butt and then soothe the flesh with just my tongue.” he stopped. “Have I scared you enough?“, he growled, pushing himself against her.
Zara’s mouth hung open, figuratively. She couldn’t believe her ears. But she answered him.
He glared at her and then pulled her down so that he was on top, his weight almost crushing her.
“I want to know everything about you, Zara. I want to be the one that gets inside your head, underneath your skin, the one you don’t hide anything from and the one you trust the most. I want to know what you feel like when I’m inside you, when I flick my tongue on your pussy and make you come. The kind of feelings that made me want to punch Finn in the face only because he was the lucky bastard that got to see you smile.”
She felt her body respond to his words and she felt herself flood with wetness.
Nathaniel bent low and placed his forehead in the valley between her breasts.
“Do you fear me enough now?“, he asked softly.
Zara lay still for a second, her arms trapped beneath him.
“Not even close.“, she responded.
His head jerked up and he stared at her in naked surprise.
Zara lifted her hands and wrapped them around his head. “You have very intense feelings.“, she tried to tease him. The way he glared back at her shut her up but not without a smile.
“So I’m still your boyfriend?“, he asked hesitantly.
Zara almost laughed at the uncertainty on his face. “Maybe..”
He sat up hurriedly, a scowl on his face. “What the fuck do you mean by maybe?”
She chuckled, “I mean you still haven’t done what I asked you to.”
She saw his shoulders relax beneath his shirt before he leaned forward to kiss her.
But Zara evaded his mouth with a soft sound of denial. Before she could lose her nerve, she made her demand, “I want you to make me come.”
She went red when she saw his eyes widen momentarily in surprise and she dropped her gaze. But he wasn’t having it. He bumped her forehead with his and made her look at him. Then he was leaning down on her, his firm body pressed to hers.
“How?“, he said in a husky voice.
Zara turned even redder. She opened her mouth and then shut it, her cheeks aflame.
Nathaniel didn’t laugh nor did he look away. “Tell me how, Zara. Show me.”
Oh sweet heavens. Why was this so fucking hot?
She took his hand and placed it on the spot below her abdomen.
“Like this.“, she said softly.
She saw his eyes drop to their joined hands and then he looked up at her with a hunger so raw that it scared her for just a second before it vanished as he slid his hand inside her dress. There was no seduction. No cajoling. It was primal. And fucking sexy.
He kept his eyes on hers as he cupped her mound, his thumb rubbing her through her underwear. Zara’s eyes shut in ecstasy and he growled in denial.
“Look at me.“, he bit out.
She did. Then without waiting for his permission, Zara slipped her hand inside his jeans and cupped his hard cock in her hand. Nathaniel groaned and dropped his head to her neck. The pressure of his thumb increased on her sensitive spot. Then he lifted his head and crushed his mouth to hers. Zara moaned when he slipped his hand inside her underwear and gripped her bare skin. Her back arched off the couch and her hand around his shaft tightened. Nathaniel found her clit with his thumb and then he pressed down making her scream as her body coiled into a ball of pleasure and then she suddenly unwound as waves of bright light cascaded through her, bliss at its peak and she fell apart, dimly aware that in her hand Nathaniel had grown impossibly hard. Only two seconds later did she feel his groan erupt from his chest and then he came, hot spurts of cum coating her palm even as he gripped her tight helping her ride out her orgasm. And when it was over, he lifted his mouth to her forehead. He kissed her gently before he moved his lips to her eyes. He kissed her there, then kissed her cheek and finally her lips.
And then she knew.
She was in danger of giving her heart to him along with her body.