The whole night, I tossed and turned. I couldn’t get the kiss out of my head, the way his lips molded against mine. The feelings I felt - the butterflies in my stomach and my pounding heart - I couldn’t get it out of my head. I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I enjoyed it.
It seems, that even when I’m not around him, Kai has a way of invading my mind and thoughts.
I spent the whole of Sunday thinking about Kai and the kiss. And when I wasn’t thinking about the kiss, I was thinking about what tomorrow would be like in Drama. Would he acknowledge the kiss? Would he make some snide remark? Would he ignore me?
Ugh! I hate how Kai has complete control of my thoughts.
Due to this, I barely managed to get my homework done. I’m now going to have to make up an excuse for why my homework is awful.
Thanks, Kai, thanks.
“You’re so out of it today,” Sadie comments, eyeing me up and down.
I put my hand on my hip and give her a sassy reply. “I’m always out of it honey.”
Sadie rolls her eyes at my response. “Why do I associate myself with you?” I laugh at her question and walk around to her.
“Because how can you not?”
Sadie huffs and drops her arm over my shoulder. I can feel her eyes on me, analyzing me. “Wanna talk about what’s on your mind?”
I haven’t told Sadie about the kiss for two reasons. One, she will blow it out of proportion. Two, I don’t know whether it meant something serious or not. Kai never said anything about it, never told me if he was doing it to wind me up or not.
By telling Sadie, she would go ballistic and convince me that Kai has feelings for me. And there’s no way that’s true. Kai can’t like me like that, he just can’t. All of our conversations have been arguments. I know nothing about him, he knows nothing about me.
I was attracted to Micheal because the more I learned about him, the more amazing he seemed. When I first met him, he was shy and sweet. If only I had seen it sooner that he wasn’t what I thought. That his true self was hiding behind the curtain.
“Maybe later?” I suggest, removing Sadie’s arm from my shoulder.
She pinches her lips together and reluctantly nods her head. “Should we go to drama?”
No, can we not?
If I said that, Sadie would demand to know why I really didn’t want to go. She’d piece the two things together - my reluctance to go to drama and my unclear mind.
“Yes, let’s go,” I say with fake enthusiasm. Sadie gives me a suspicious look but I shrug it off. Together we head off to drama, with Sadie blabbering on about that blue-haired boy she met. Unlike most guys, I think she really likes this man. Is it lust or more? Maybe even love. However, if I ever mentioned the ‘L’ word, Sadie would freak out and avoid him. She basically has a phobia of love.
“So did you hook up with him?” I ask her, interested.
Sadie smirks, giving me my answer.
The first thing I see when we make it to our class is Kai leaning against the wall. He smirks when he sees me and pushes himself off of the wall. Butterflies fly around in my stomach; the memory of his lips against mine crosses my mind.
“Blondie,” Kai greets and I scowl. Got to keep up appearances.
“Arrogant asshole,” I greet back, satisfaction washing over me when his smirk deepens.
Sadie’s eyes dart between us. My heart thumps against my chest as I pray she doesn’t somehow work out we kissed. Fortunately for me, she doesn’t.
“I’ll leave you two alone,” she grins at me and then heads off to talk to Ben.
Kai keeps his eyes on me, causing my mind to have a mind blank. Goddammit, Kai.
“So do you want to talk about the elephant in the room?” He finally asks me.
Elephant? What elephant?” I pretend to play off confusion. A part of me is afraid that whatever is going on between us will end.
Gosh, talk about a complete change in thought. One minute I hate his existence and the next, I’m afraid he’s going to leave me alone. I can never make up my mind.
Kai rolls his eyes, “you know what I’m talking about.”
I do. That’s why I’m trying to avoid talking about it.
“I’m sorry, I’m suffering from temporary amnesia. I can’t remember anything that happened over the weekend.” I tell him. Does this make me a coward?
“Okay Ren, you’ve had your fun, you can stop this now.” I don’t know why, perhaps it's because he called me Ren instead of blondie, but I listen to him. Or maybe I was just fed up with acting clueless. I can’t put this off any longer.
“Fine,” I sigh. “Why did you kiss me?”
Kai puts his hands in his jean pockets. “I did it because I could.”
My mouth falls open at his answer. That’s what he says? Is he serious right now?
I cross my arms over my chest and arch an eyebrow. There has to be more to it. There simply has to be.
“You’re lying,” I state.
“I’m not going to explain myself. I only wanted to say that nothing is going to change between us and that you should expect more kisses from me.” What?!
What the hell is going on right now? I’m supposed to expect more kisses from him? He has to be kidding. This has to be a joke.
“You’re crazy,” I remark, in disbelief.
Kai steps closer to me. Unfortunately for my 5"7 height, my eyes end up staring directly at his pink, delicious lips. I can feel his hot breath fanning my face, which ultimately causes shivers of pleasure to run down my spine. I hate and love that he has an effect on me.
“No blondie, that’s you. You’re simply brushing off on me.” Kai whispers, huskily.
He then steps away, smirking, and leaves me.
I inhale sharply, trying to get oxygen back into my lungs. My mind is fuzzy, something that often happens to me when I’m around Kai.
After recovering, I head over to Ben and Sadie who are chatting quietly. Ben smiles at me when he sees me.
“Ren! My favorite person!” Ben says when I get to them.
I grin ear to ear. “Ben! Also my favorite person!”
Beside me, Sadie pouts. “I thought I was your favorite person.”
I step closer to her and wrap an arm around her shoulder. “You’re my second favorite person.”
She gives me a playful glare and Ben a real one. He knows she doesn’t mean anything bad by it though.
“Second is better anyways,” Sadie claims.
Ben frowns, “why is that?”
“Well you know, first is the worst, and second is the best.”
I laugh at her explanation whilst Ben’s frown deepens. That’s exactly how I would interpret it.
Almost like he can sense my laughter from across the room, Kai glances at me. I tune out of all the noise in the room and focus on him. He ignores the other classmate who is rambling to him and stares at me with a spark in his eyes.
For once, I don’t feel annoyed or irritated that he’s staring at me. I feel happy he is.
I smile genuinely at him. What took me by surprise is that he copies my action, with a twinkle in his eye.
Our moment is cut off by our strict teacher making his entrance.
But the memory lingers in my mind. Especially the image of Kai smiling at me like I was the most interesting girl in the world.