Warning: sexual content is present in this chapter.
My experience with love isn't the best.
My parents have never shown me any kind of love. True love.
My first boyfriend was a complete douche who dumped me because I was too 'immature'.
And now the boy I love thinks I'm making everything up.
Kai and I have had a few bumps but I've come to realize that despite this, he's shown me something new. He's shown me what it's like to truly love someone.
Kai has driven me around the bend, he's made me want to scream and cry yet, he's made me laugh and enjoy the simple things. Sure, we argue most of the time but it's not toxic. We do it because we're both scared of our feelings. Love has been thrown in our face by life, who has malevolently twisted it in front of us. It's taken people we love away from us. It's laughed about it.
Well, that's all about to change. I'm going to take some control now and get the guy I love.
"Kai, I love you," I announce, wholeheartedly meaning it.
Kai looks taken aback. He stares directly into my eyes, searching for any deceit. When he finds none, he takes a hesitant step closer. Slowly, his hand begins to reach for my face. I remain frozen, watching him watching me.
When his hand comes into contact with my face, it feels like a parade has gone off in my stomach. I feel elated and alive. God, it's like a breath of fresh air in my lungs.
His hand caresses my cheeks lightly, his warm hands lighting up my face. I lean into his touch and place my hand over his, all the while keeping my eyes on him. Hope and love flashes through his eyes making me smile.
"I'm so sorry I've been like an enigma. I guess you really do discover who important the people you've lost are. Kai, I've been in love with you for a while but I've just been misreading the signs. I--"
"Not now," Kai cuts me off. He steps closer and flickers his eyes to my lips. Oh, how I want his lips on mine, devouring me.
Knowing he wants to kiss me, I waste no time in smashing my lips to his. An explosion of passion and pleasure hits me, hard. I moan into his mouth and run a hand through his soft hair. One of his hands is now on my waist whilst another is holding my neck. I fist a chunk full of his shirt into my hand and kiss him like it's the last time I'll ever kiss him.
I don't pay attention when Kai lifts me up or when I wrap my legs around his waist. I also fail to notice when I'm lying on the bed with him on top of me.
Kai removes his top and chucks it over the edge of the bed. I stare at him with hunger in my eyes, hunger for him and him only. He's absolutely beautiful, with a glorious six-pack and smooth, tanned skin.
I want. I want him so badly. I want him to touch me, to make love to me.
Kai looks at me like I'm the most beautiful girl in the world like I'm the center of his world. I've never had someone look at me like that before. It's a feeling I will never forget.
"You're beautiful," I mutter, running my hands over his shoulder blades.
"So are you," He replies, lowering his head to mine. Our lips brush against each other but do not press into each other. He has more to say, I can just feel it in my body. And no, it's not the hormones making me go crazy. "I love you, Ren. I think I have from the moment I got to know you."
Overwhelmed. That's how I feel. An hour ago, I was preparing an apology speech and now we're here, on Kai's bed, with his top off, possibly about to have sex.
He then slams his lips to me. His tongue tries to go into my mouth but I deny him, wanting him to play my game. But Kai has other ideas.
His lips move from mine and begin to trail down my chin, to my neck. Swiftly, he tears my thin shirt apart and starts to kiss me. His lips travel down the middle of my boobs and to my belly button. I clench my nails into his back at the sensations I feel.
He makes me feel things I've never felt before.
He stops before the top of my jeans and glances at me. "Are you sure?"
I smile, genuinely and reply, "I've never been surer in my life."
And that is how I end up having the best time of my life with Kai.
"That was amazing," I mumble, later, to Kai.
We're lying in his bed, his sheets wrapped around both of us with me curled up into him.
"I know," He replies and kisses the crown of my head. "You've made me feel so many new things Ren and I love it. You're special and so beautiful."
My heart soars at his words. How can I not love this guy? This boy who annoys me constantly has captured my heart and I don't think he plans on giving it up anytime soon.
"There's no need to thank me, I'm only stating facts," He retorts.
I peek up at him through my long lashes and give him a grin. "Have I ever told you that I love you?"
Kai smirks and feigns being deep in thought. "Hmm, I don't think you have. I think I need to hear it again."
I roll my eyes. Typical Kai.
"In that case, I don't think you do," I reply and leap out of the bed, with the sheets still wrapped around me. I run through his apartment, without a clue as to where I'm going. Kai's footsteps sound close behind me as he chases after me.
I squeal when he wraps his strong arms around me and lifts me into the air. Laughter spills through my lips as he spins me around. Kai chuckles but doesn't stop.
Eventually, he stops but doesn't put me down. I can feel his stare on me, his eyes wandering over my face. Sometimes I wonder what he thinks. Like right now. I wish I could know what he's thinking.
"What are you thinking about?" He asks after a while, his breath tickling my exposed neck.
"I was thinking about what you were thinking about."
Kai laughs and spins me around in his arms, without letting my drop to the ground. He rests his forehead onto mine and gazes into my eyes.
"You only just noticed that?" I query, arching an eyebrow. A grin slides onto his face at my witty response.
"No," He says. "I've known it for a while now."
I smile, "Then why are you telling me it now?"
A secretive look sparkles in his eyes. I cock my head to the side, curiously.
"What? What is it?" I question him, confused and wary.
Kai shakes his head, "Don't worry. I was only thinking that I'm in love with a crazy girl."
And ladies and gentleman, that is how we end up going again for round two.