To My Love

It's raining today.

It's raining like the sky pouring out all its heart. Like it's sad, dealing with dark clouds and crazy wind. Wait? This sounds somewhat furious, right? Or perhaps, it's both sad and furious at the same time. The sky wants to rip the earth apart today. Just like your tears, whenever you cry because you are mad and sad at the same time but can't help the situation. And, you are probably doing the same thing right now. I hate seeing you cry, you know? Those ugly water drops drive me crazy when I see them.

But look at the irony! I am watching the same water drops at the moment, only they are not the ones on your beautiful blue eyes. They are not making me crazy but rather nostalgic. It's like just yesterday when I was holding an umbrella over our head, protecting us from the drizzle. My head was on your shoulder while I was looking at you, mesmerized by your beautiful smiling face. I wonder who are you? An angel, perhaps? Um... no, you are not an angel. You would have stayed in heaven if you were one. But you were there with me. I could touch you, feel you, love you. So, you are not an angel, my darling. Then who are you? How could you make me sleepless, breathless, empty and whole at the same time, even now, when you are not with me? I know, I'm not supposed to feel this way. But I guess when comes to you, it's okay to be senseless. Damn, God! What have you done to this fearsome ruthless businessman, huh, my sweet Reina?

Hey, look, your name sounds like rain. Well, it's true though. You are my rain in those dark cloudy days, you are my peace in the chaos, you are my brightest star shining in the night. What more definitions do you want, my love? I'll never get tired of telling you how much you mean to me. And, maybe that's why you'll always have to be in my definitions only. I can't help but sigh at the thought. Today, I can't hold you anymore, I can't breathe in your soothing scent, I can't find my peace because you are not here. You know very well that you are in every inch of my existence yet you are not with me. This is so unfair.

All is just because of one night. One night of our last date before our marriage, one night of holding hands, looking deep into the eyes with longing. It was that one night with a bright red car, one night of scream and cries, one night of a crash. It was one night full of promises, of not letting go of each other. Just one rainy night and... I'm far, far away from you.

But worry not my love. I will always be there for you.

Because a true man's love never dies, never.