I won’t give up on us,
Even when the skies are rough.
I could feel the rage burning through his body, don’t ask me how. I just know it.
His shoulders tensed even more as I rest my hand on it. He faced the wall, not even trying to make eye contact but avoiding it, purposely.
We stood there for one minute. Two minutes. Three minutes. Honestly, I don’t even know how much time passed as we stood there in that same position. As long as it sounded it was mere seconds that passed making the tension in the room thicken.
I wanted to say so much. Everything that I planned on telling him today. That I liked him. That I am ready to give us a chance. That is, if he still wanted me.
I wanted to speak, to break this awkward silence between us. Everything I wanted to say was on the tip of my tongue but I couldn’t even make myself to open my mouth.
It might’ve been a few minutes when he started taking deep breaths to speak. “You should go, Ava. It’s not healthy for you to stay.” His voice was rasped and I could tell that his wolf was on the edge, seeing how his eyes started turning golden, earlier. But he tried his best to make his voice come out as calm as possible.
I sighed and removed my hand from his shoulder, seeing him relax a bit. I was a bit hurt that my touch made him tense but keeping these thoughts aside I walked in front of him, my back facing the wall and I was right.
His eyes had turned to a beautiful color of golden with his teeth growing from the corners. He wanted me to leave because he was about to shift, not that I haven’t seen a person shift into a wolf, but I could feel his shifting bones in his body.
I did the sanest thing I could think of at that moment. I hugged him, my arms wrapping around his waist, my head on his chest and my eyes closed. He stiffened but eventually relaxed a bit, not moving his arms.
On instinct I hugged him tighter and I felt him holding my waist. I smiled in his chest, feeling tingles spreading through my spine where his fingers lightly caressed the tail bone.
After a little while I felt his chin resting on my head. My smile widened and I buried myself deeper in his chest. We remained like that for a long time and I felt like this was the right time to break the silence.
“I want to try this.” As the words left my mouth, I felt him stiffen again for the 10th time today.
“Try what?” He asked slowly in a whisper.
I broke the hug and looked at him. His eyes held a bit of hope and very little, but present, worry. I took a step back from him, letting his arms fall from around my waist. Hurt flashed in his eyes and hope died a little.
“This,” I motioned between the two of us, “us.” As I said those words a big, and when I say big, I mean a real big smile spread across his face and he scooped me in his arms spinning me around and all I was doing was looking at his face while smiling like an idiot.
He stopped and put me down. I felt my brain going fuzzy and my knees getting weak but he held me, not loosening his grip on me.
“Are you serious?” He asked while smiling so hard I think he snapped his jaw in two.
I giggled and nodded my head lightly, still feeling a bit dizzy.
He pulled me closer to him, too close that our breaths were mingling and I think this is the closest I have been to him, well except if you count the time in my house when we were about to kiss but Blake interrupted us. Wait! Is this it? This the moment of our kiss? Our first kiss?
Edward started to lean in, his eyes flickering between my eyes and lips as if to check if this is what I want. Is it? Is this that I want? Do I really want this?
Without thinking anything else, I started to lean in too. My eyes closing slowly as our noses touched slightly.
And I don’t know what happened. We were leaning in slowly but when our lips touched all of the patience went down the window. The slight touch of lips changed into a passionate connection as if, if we were ever to separate, we might die. His lips were demanding the moment they met mine and as much as I wanted to take control, I gave into him. The tingles started from my lips and to my whole body.
I couldn’t think clearly, I couldn’t stand straight. In that moment I only knew that we both existed and no one else mattered. He held me more tightly as my hands moved to his hair, tugging at the roots. Our tongues mingled for a minute until he pushed his way into my mouth, exploring every corner, as if remembering me as whole. His hands roamed around my waist for a while until they reached down to grab the back of my thighs and hoisting me up.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as I felt my back getting rested against a cold wall. Feeling the heat emanating from him, I tugged harder on his roots to which he let out a groan. And might I say, never have I ever heard a voice sexier than that in my life.
We were running out of breath, but I never wanted to let this feeling go away. He tasted so sweet, as sweet as Nutella and his cologne drove me crazy.
Much to my dismay, I was out of air, so I pulled away. But the spark didn’t die even a bit. If possible, it only seemed to turn into fire, flames even, burning with the passion between us.
I rested my forehead on his, my legs still wrapped around his waist and my hands still fisted in his hair. Panting heavily, trying to consume as much air as possible just to resume the moment again.
It felt so right, so perfect. Almost as if this was meant to happen for our survival.
His rapid breathing didn’t go unnoticed, but the silence was very comfortable and neither of us wanted to break that.
We stayed like that, glued together, until Edward decided to break that silence.
“That was,” He tried to say something which was stuck in his throat, but I completed it for him.
“A mistake,” I said, pulling my serious face on while getting down on my feet, which was not so easy because I wasn’t able to stand properly.
“What?” Shock was evident on his face like day, “but I thought you wanted that!”
“I did. But I didn’t feel that it would go this way.” I told him, dead serious.
“But what went wrong? That moment was perfect.” He complained, and I decided to put him out of his misery by laughing hard. Like holding your stomach and falling to the ground laughing.
“Oh, my god!” I continued laughing on the floor. One look at his devastated face and I was lying down on the floor.
I laughed so hard that I ran out of air. But eventually I tried to calm myself down. How does breathing work again? Oh yeah. In. Out. In. Out. Yes, now I’m calm.
I was standing on my feet again trying not laugh at the poor boy again, making up my mind that I won’t.
I looked at his face, and never have I ever seen a man so scared in his life. He still hasn’t caught on! And I laughed again, but this time I was pinned to the wall with two strong hands pushing my arms back with his well-built frame hovering my small one. Talk about a rock and a hard place.
“You think it’s funny?” He asks, looking angry.
“It’s a little funny.” I said, giggling in the end.
“Well, guess what? It’s not!” He growled in my face.
“Hey chill!” I tried to sooth him which kinda worked as his eyes softened a bit.
“Although, I was serious when I said that it wasn’t perfect to me.” And the hurt crossed his face again. “Because what I felt was beyond what a mere word in the dictionary can describe.”
His face immediately lit up like a kid in the candy shop. He smiled an infectious smile that made me want to do unwanted things if those led me to this type of smile. His happiness was so contagious that I couldn’t stop myself from mirroring his expression.
But, a moment later his expression turned sad again. I don’t know what happened.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” I asked, worried. I brought my hand up to his face cupping his cheek.
“You kissed someone else. Was it because you still have feelings for him?” He asked backing away from me and it hurt.
I had to make this right. We have just started coming out to each other not even 20 minutes ago and here we have our first problem in our hands.
“I didn’t want to.” I said looking him straight in the eye. “Promise me that when I speak you won’t interrupt me and will try to understand.” He seemed hesitant but nodded anyway.
“3 years back, my freshman year I met Adrian. We had an instant connection and I always felt safe around him.” I stopped to take in his expression which was blank, but I continued. “It took me a while to come out with what I feel towards him and he was patient. He waited for me from the start. The girls would always be around him but he never gave them a second glance. He used to say that they are not worth his time.” I chuckled lightly.
“We started off on good notes. Even mom liked him. My first relationship and my mom approved, what else could I have wanted? He was perfect. But it all changed the day he told me about his secret. About him being a werewolf. My world collapsed and it took me around 4 weeks to recover from the shock when I realized that I needed him.” I might be crying by now, considering the blurry vision.
I moved away from him to sit down on a bench and asked him to do the same, before continuing.
“The day he told me about him, showed me what he is, I ran. I was scared to tell mom because if Adrian got to know that someone else knows about his secret, he will hurt them. So, I told Blake. He didn’t take me seriously at first but later he believed me. I don’t know what happened but he did. Adrian would try to contact me only for me to never answer but I did come around. And I did find out that he was as miserable as I was, more even. So yeah, we got back together and things were going fine. He only wouldn’t mark me saying that he needs me to be sure before he marks me and I don’t even know what is so bad about marking your mate!
“But at that time, I didn’t question him much, thinking that we were meant to be together and all of that. Until one day he just rejected me and the whole pack disappeared into thin air within the next few days. I was miserable again and this time I swore to myself to have the most normal life that doesn’t include Werewolves, mates and selfish people. I thought this would be a good start until you came along and I think you know the rest.” I finished, fidgeting with my hands.
He didn’t miss a beat and asked me, “So, why did you meet with him today?”
I sighed. This day has turned longer than I expected. But I am willing to get through it, if it means a pleasant tomorrow.
“Today he wanted to tell me the reason as to why he left me. Apparently, there were some rogues threatening the pack and to keep me safe he had to let me go. He wanted me back and I always thought that if he ever wanted me back, I would go rushing into his arms and forget all about what happened in the past. But today when I saw him, things were different.
“I didn’t feel the spark that we had years ago and it didn’t feel right. It hurt a bit that my first love was not my true love but I was kind of... Relieved? I think. The kiss that happened was to confirm the closure of us. A promise that it was finally done and nothing can go back like before.” I said, all of it and it was relieving. Like a heavy box has been lifted off my chest.
“So, that means that there won’t be more of that pup roaming around you?” He asks, trying to lighten the heavy mood which helped as I chuckled.
“Yeah. I can assure that to you.” I said as I stood up. Ready to leave.
Edward stood up as well, standing close to me. He came closer and I thought that he would kiss me again but he pulled me in a tight hug, to which I clutched the sides of his t-shirt into my palms, closing my eyes and feeling his heart beat.
I pulled away and realized something that we have been neglecting all along.
“Do you know what I think?” I asked.
“That we should start working on that Psychology project. We need the grades.” Don’t judge me! Even amidst all this drama in my life I need my grades.
He laughed clearly not expecting such type of an answer, but I think he didn’t expect anything more.
“Well, what I think is that we should go upstairs and tell everyone about the new couple staying in the house.” He said back. I frowned, clearly confused as to whom he meant.
“What couple?” I asked shaking my head.
“Us!” He exclaimed and started pulling me towards the house.
Everyone was there. And everyone included the boys and Blake.
“So, pa- people...” He trailed off looking at the horrified expression of Chris and then I remembered that Blake still doesn’t know about the reality of them being werewolves and Edward was about to say something about them being a pack and my own eyes widened.
“...well, there will be a new couple staying with us from now on.” He said enthusiastically. And my eyes widened again.
“What new couple?” Asked Ryder with a hint of amusement and it was not a secret that he knew something was going in.
I was pulled to the front of a well-built body with warmth wrapped around my stomach as Edward went in for another hug.
“Well, us of course. Who else?” He said and oh, god damn. I swear Blake’s eyes popped out of their sockets as I blushed uncontrollably.