The decision to kiss for the first time,
Is the most crucial in any love story.
Did that really happen? Was that really a moment that happened? Like, in reality? Did we really just share one of the most intimate moments?
I can’t believe it. She likes me. She really likes me! And we kissed! Oh, my God! I can’t believe this is all true.
Well, it is true. Mate really loves us! My wolf said.
It is true and she did say she has feelings for us but she never said she loved us. I said to Jax, my wolf.
And suddenly Jax retreated to the back of my mind but I could feel the sadness enveloping him. Honestly, I felt bad for him, but the strong feeling that still lingered on my lips overpowered everything else that I felt.
Right now, I feel bad that I didn’t wait for her to share my first kiss with, even when I knew who my mate was for years. I so badly want to tell her who I am but I have to make her fall for me not the kid she met when she was 5 years old. There is a huge difference between both of us. The soul that I left behind was an innocent mind which now does not exist anymore.
She needs to know the real me. Then why am I sitting in this room. I should go and talk to her!
You’re sitting here because it’s the middle of the night and mate is probably sleeping. Out of nowhere Jax said.
So now you aren’t sad anymore? I questioned him jokingly.
He just scoffed in my mind and told me to see if Ava was awake or not, so I went out of my room and within seconds I was in front of hers.
Not wanting to disturb her sleep I listened to her heartbeat through the door, which was uneven that means she was awake.
I tried to open the door lightly but it was locked. Of course, it’s locked you fool. Mate is not stupid like you! Jax said. He has talking more nowadays I don’t know what changed but I think it’s a good thing. He’s opening up.
Of course, I know she’s not stupid! I said to him to which he scoffed again.
I lightly knocked on her door and listened to the light footsteps coming towards the door. I stepped back and waited for her to open the door with a smile on my face.
Within seconds the door open and her cute face came into my view. She seemed flushed for some reason but I didn’t pay any mind to it, she was finally close to me, what else could I possibly want.
“Hey. What are you doing here?” Ava said a little worry in her voice. I frowned at this.
“Why? Were you expecting someone else?” I asked, and listening to this Jax rose on all fours in my mind, suddenly cautious.
“No. Why would I?” She seemed distracted. Something’s not right here.
“Can I come in.” I stated and pushed the door open and entered in her room and suddenly I was in heaven. Her smell lived in the room and if I could I would live here forever if it’s gonna smell the same.
“So, any reason for your visit?” She asked me as she closes her door.
“No, I just wanted to see you.” I said with a smile to which she broke into a smile and came close to me, encircling her hands around my waist.
It feels so right. To be in her arms, to be in her presence. Oh, Moon Goddess, I love this woman so much. Help me. If only she could say the same.
She looked up at me and we just stared at each other and in that moment I felt complete. Complete like this is all I want for the rest of my life. Just me and her. Forever.
Just as I started to lean down, she brought her face closer to mine simultaneously closing our eyes. Our lips touched for the second time today. The fireworks that I thought only existed in movies came to life as we moved together in sync, drawing as close to each other as humanely possible with no space between us. But I still didn’t feel satisfied so in bent down picked her up and instinctively she wrapped her legs around my waist.
The sweet kiss now became passionate and full of need. I nibbled on her lower lip asking for entrance which she granted happily and my tongue started to explore her mouth. Trying to remember her. All of her, so that I could get to know what I’d been missing all these years.
In the heat of the moment, I didn’t even realize when I backed her up against the wall deepening the kiss further. This was the moment I never wanted to leave. Right now, breathing didn’t really hold much importance. All I wanted was her. All of her. One day I might get it but for now I want to focus on her. How her hands are roaming in my hair, tugging at the ends and how my hands pressed against her back, exploring her flawless skin through the little crop top she wears at night.
Just when I thought nothing could be more perfect, she broke the kiss and I whimpered audibly at the loss of contact. Quickly she moved out of my hold and stood on her legs. I felt her struggling for a bit as her knees buckled but instead of helping her stand, I just stood there staring at her.
She looked at me and moved to open her door. Why was she opening the door? Peeking slightly, she opened it completely and let a guy in.
What the hell is a guy doing in my mate’s room? That too at this time?
All I am seeing is red and just the moment he entered I held him by his throat against the door which slammed shut due to the pressure I’m putting on the guy.
But when I see the scared face of the person, I’m shocked to the core.
“Gamma Dallas, what are you doing in my mate’s room at this hour?” Spoke Jax, taking complete control of me.
“Edward, put him down! I can explain.” The voice of my frightened mate entered my ears. But being filled with rage, Jax doesn’t listen and just presses further onto his throat, choking the life out of him.
“Edward please!” The hand on my shoulder made me drop him onto the floor, and he gained his balance quickly, bowing his head in respect while rubbing hands on his neck.
“What the hell are you doing here, Adam!” I demand.
“He just came here to get some help from me.” Ava said, as she moved next to Adam and rubbed his back while he was coughing profusely.
“Really now?” I let out through gritted teeth. “And what might that help be?”
There was a bit of hesitation, but since Adam was in no state of explaining anything, my mate started to speak.
“He needs help with setting up a date for Wren. I was just helping him.” Said Ava with raised voice.
“At this hour? Why do you think I would believe this crap?” I am beyond angry to think straight.
“Adam, we’ll talk later, okay? Just go for now.” My mate said to the pathetic pup I call my Gamma. He just nodded and hurriedly walked out of the room.
“Why can’t you just stay calm? It’s not that big of a deal.” She said the moment the door closed behind him.
“Not that big of a deal? There was another man in my mate’s room in the middle of the night! How can you say it’s not that big of a bloody deal!” I shouted, and I won’t be surprised if the whole house was up and searching for the source of sound that woke them up.
“You don’t get it! He wanted my help.”
“Who asks for help in the middle of the night?” I shouted again.
She seemed to have had enough of me because she turned her face away, her back facing me, while her hand rubbed her forehead.
“You’re not thinking straight, okay? Wren is almost always with me at school and so Adam and I decided that since I’m not able to sleep much, why not plan the date. He wants it to be a surprise for her.” She said in a defeated voice. “You have to stop making big deals out of everything.” She turns around to face me and, in her eyes, I saw how tired she felt.
“Why aren’t you able to sleep?” I asked, moving closer to her, holding her hands in my own.
“I don’t know. I try but sleep just doesn’t get to me until 3 in the morning, so I just stare at the wall.” She says in a soft voice.
An idea struck in my head and maybe, just maybe it might work.
“You wanna sleep now?” I asked, to which she just nodded her head lightly.
I started pulling her hands and dragging her to the bed, making her lie down on one end.
“What are you trying to do?” She asked, skeptically.
“Trying to get you to sleep.” I said and lay down next to her, hooking my arms through her waist.
It’s weird how this felt so normal. How I felt at home. She is my home and I would do anything to get back to her in this way.
“You think this would work?” She asked. And I know that she also feels the same because she didn’t mind us sleeping together in one bed. And god, do I feel so good.
“It should. Or else I won’t get a reason to be with you this way.” I said but the only response I got was a murmur.
I looked at her to find her head on my chest, her arm wrapped around me. Her face so peaceful, you could just fall in love.
Kissing her forehead, I closed my eyes, her smell filling my senses, and in that moment nothing else mattered. In that moment all I knew was that I was with the girl I love.