Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason.
It’s been 11 days since I last talked to Asher and every hour feels like a year. I yearn to be in his embrace again. To be able to feel his lips against mine. To be able to feel the security of his arms again. Every day seems to be a little more difficult to deal with, even if it’s not been whole two weeks yet. Every second I just wish to run towards him.
School has not been easy to deal with and some of my teachers are really worried about my performance, which is another sword hanging over my head.
It has not been easy on the girls, either, but they try to hide their pain as best as they can. Blake is a whole new person now. He has not asked me to make a choice, instead, he talked it out with Chris and they agreed that he deserves a little break from all the revelations and that he needs a little time to see if he can continue this further.
I really wish that Amber and Wren could think of it a little bit like Blake. Although, I know how they can’t because Blake already knew about werewolves a long time ago and their actions are justified.
Right now, I’m sitting in biology alone and just thinking of all the times that I shared with Asher in this particular bench while the teacher went on about a topic I’m pretty sure I was supposed to finish 2 days ago. See? This is what this ‘break up’ has done to me!
“Ava!” The teacher called out, pulling me out of my daydream with a jerk.
“Uh yeah?” I asked, suddenly being brought back to reality.
“Where is your assignment?” He asked.
Assignment? What assignment? WE HAD AN ASSIGNMENT!?
I stared at him wide eyed.
“Well...?” He trailed off.
“I’m sorry, sir. I don’t have it.” I replied with my head hung low and my voice barely above a whisper. By this time, I have noticed that every pair of eyes in the class was on me.
“I would like you to stay after the class.” He said, and just so ironically the bell rang and everyone spilled out into the hallway within a moment while I made my way to the front of the class.
“Yes, sir?” I murmured.
“Ava, today was the last day to submit your assignment.” He said, worriedly and honestly, at this moment I would’ve been worried for me too.
Huh, really? I had no idea.
“I’m sorry, Mr. Walker but I promise it won’t happen again, ever.” I plead pathetically.
“This is not like you, Ava. You have us all worried in the moment. Is there anything you’d like to talk about? You know that I’m here if you face any problem.” He smiled at me, sympathetically but I just couldn’t make myself to return the gesture.
“It’s nothing, honestly. Is there anything I can do to get credits?” There is no point in ruining my career, the least I can do is try to make something right for me.
“Yes actually. There is an exhibition which two of the school students have go to and submit a report. Now I know what you may think, that this is supposed to be something to do with English, but it’s actually a science exhibition and the report is required for the school newspaper. The science department agreed to make me in charge of the students who will visit there. So, if you want to get credits, you can go there.” He said and I just stood there thinking. “Now, I don’t need an answer now but I expect you to respond by the end of the week and after that you can take more details from me if you want to go. I personally think that this could be beneficial for you because it would look good on your college application. So just think about it and let me know, ok?”
“Yeah, thank you.” I replied and smiled while making my way out.
I reached my locker but I couldn’t even focus on opening it because a certain someone’s was right next to mine.
It feels like he’s become that part of me which I can’t separate from myself even if I try.
Sighing, I kept the books I don’t require and pull out the material for my next class.
School is not fun anymore. Not that it ever was earlier but I still had something to look forward to. Right now, all I have to look at is the disappointed faces of my teachers. The disappointment directed towards me.
The boys have changed their classes again, I don’t even know how they do that. And now none of them share even one class with any of us.
I pulled myself out from the inside of my locker and made way to my next class when I was yanked into an empty classroom by my arm.
I was about to scream but a large, rough hand covered my mouth, muffling my screams. That’s when I realized that the hand was familiar and the hold on me was pretty light.
“Asher! What are you doing?” I whisper shouted when he removed his hand. He didn’t reply just looked at me with bliss written all over his face.
“Say it again.” He demanded, his hands holding mine in a tight grip.
“Say what?” I asked in confusion.
“My name. Say my name again, sugar.” He pleaded and I just couldn’t refuse.
“Asher, what do you think you’re doing?” I asked with a hint of smile which he matched with mine in the matter of seconds.
“Seeing my love. What does it look like I’m doing?” He asked, rhetorically. I just rolled my eyes.
“I told you we can’t be seen. If Amber and Wren catch me, then they’ll never talk to me again and I can’t have that.” I tried to explain.
“I know! But it’s been over a week and I need to see you, I need to touch you. I’m losing my mind. My best pack members can’t function properly and others think that now the pack is weak. And I should tell you my pack is anything but weak.” He pulled me closer to him, burying his head in the crook of my neck.
I hugged him back just as tight, not wanting to let go. “I know, baby. It will be fine, I promise.” Just as these words left my mouth, I realized what I said and my eyes widened.
He chuckled and pulled his head out to face me properly with amusement twinkling in his eyes.
“What did you just say?” He asked, trying and failing to control his laughter.
“That everything will be ok.” I said trying to sound neutral but my burning cheeks said otherwise. I tried to pull my hands from around his waist and bury my face in them but he held them in a tight grip, making me blush even harder.
“No, no, no. What was it before that?” He breathed out.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I mumbled but who am I kidding. He’ll still make me say that anyway. “Ok fine! I didn’t mean it. It was a slip.” I let out.
“I like it. Keep calling me that.” He smiled and leaned towards me, kissing my cheek.
“Ok.” I smiled at him.
“Ok... What?” He is so doing this to get a rise out of me.
“Ok baby. Happy?”
“Very.” Saying this, he captured my lips in his and I responded without any hesitation.
His hands travelled to fist my hair while mine went around his neck, griping the ends of his long roots. Our tongues fought for dominance, battling until he gave in making me take control. He knew what I needed, some control over decisions in my life, even if this is not exactly how I want it, I’ll still take it. We kissed viciously and I don’t know when I lost control over myself and he grabbed that moment to pin me to the door, taking the lead that he wanted.
Grabbing my thighs, he pulled them up and I wrapped my legs around his waist, clutching his shoulders tightly so that I wouldn’t fall. All this happened and none of us could break out of it until someone, or much rather something, thought that this was enough. That something being the warning bell to the next class and we finally broke off of each other.
“I’m late for class.” I whined and honestly, I don’t wanna leave him either.
“Hmm, can’t you skip?” He asks and I scoffed.
“As if. My teachers are already at my throats.” I said while climbing down from him and fixing my hair and re-applying my lip gloss, “the biology teacher asked me to go away on some science exhibition with one other student and I have to go because I failed to turn in an assignment I didn’t even know we had and in order to earn the credit I have to do that.”
When I was finally satisfied with my look, I turned towards Asher raising my eyebrows at him as if asking ‘how do I look?’
“Gorgeous, as always. Maybe mess up the hair and the lip gloss a bit so that people would know what happened. That way I wouldn’t have to worry about the boys starring.” I laughed at this.
“You wish. And now I have to run to class before I disappoint any of my teachers one more time.” I said whilst reaching for the door. When Asher called out to me making me turn around once more. “Yeah?”
“Take it. The exhibition. It’ll help you, I’m sure of it.” He told me and gave me that drop dead gorgeous smile that I love.
“Ok. I will tell him that.” I said matching his smile.
“One more thing.” He stepped between me and the door, joining our lips once again in a soft touch and said “I love you.”
“I love you more.” I said smiling and finally opening the door to see all the students rushing towards their classes.
“Doubt that.” He mumbled but I chose to ignore it or else I wouldn’t be able to leave this room for the rest of the day.
Before I know it, it was lunch time and I’m happy to admit that the rest of my classes weren’t so dreadful. I listened to what was being taught and I felt like this day could be a little more bearable. Just because of a small moment shared with a boy I love.
The girls and I were sitting at our table and it didn’t take me long to notice how gloomy they are.
“What’s wrong?” I asked in a worry. Have they both got their periods together or something?
“It’s nothing, forget about it.” Amber waved off and I decided not to push it. They need some time and I understand that. It has not been easy but they’ll know soon what I meant about that feeling of emptiness.
Mid way our meal, both their gazes were fixed at a particular spot and I turned my head towards it, seeing that Ryder and Adam both have girls leaning on them while Asher is trying his hardest to get them off the other two are just sitting there doing nothing. Chris is looking at his phone intently, probably waiting on Blake.
Blake said that he didn’t feel right so he won’t be attending the school today so that explains Chris’s worry but not the ay Ryder and Adam are acting. This is so not helping the ‘bring them their mates’ campaign.
I’m pretty sure that they feel our stares on them and they chose to ignore it. I pulled out my phone and texted Asher, whose back was to me so he couldn’t see what I wanted to tell him.
Me:What do you think your friends are doing?
Me:Exactly! They are doing NOTHING. Ask the girls to back off. Amber and Wren are staring at them and this is really not making them convinced to run into their arms! GET THEM OFF!
Asher:Geez, fine woman! You don’t gotta shout at me.
Within a matter of seconds, the girls were off and running along to the other side of the room. This helped the girls to be back here and we continued our conversation like nothing happened.
So now they were hurt to see them with other girls. Good progress, now in no time it’ll be back to happy endings for all of us. I wish.