The whole drive home Trevor’s words kept running through my head. What could he possibly need to tell me? Everything was so crazy, I pulled up to my house and I could not believe who was waiting for me. Standing on my front steps was non-other than Jason.
I was not going to let him get to me, I wanted him to think that I was over him. I held my phone in my hand and stepped out. I only made it a few feet before he was standing in front of me.
“Sky,” he whispered pushing a strand of hair from my face. I stood still not having the courage to look up into his eyes.
The knew the agony I would see, and I couldn’t let myself go there with him.
“The kiss was not what you think. I had too many drinks and Lexi caught me off guard. I’m not making excuses for my behavior, I fucked up! I just want you to know that I never meant to hurt you, you were the only good thing in my life. Have you ever thought about why I never touched you not even to hold your hand?” He pleaded with me.
I had always wondered about that, never had he touched me, kissed me. My heart was about to beat out of my chest thinking about what he was about to say. Then I said the word that I knew would complicate everything for me, but I had to know, I wanted to know.
“Why,” I said looking up into his beautiful eyes.
“You are the most beautiful most loving girl I have ever met, you are everything that’s good. Me not so much. I was so afraid of losing you that I was not willing to take the chance that I would make a wrong move. I didn’t want you to feel pressured because I was older. You were the only light in all my darkness.” He said leaning down and kissing my forehead.
My mind was racing, and my emotions were all over the place. He looked so lost and it hurt me to see him like that. I just couldn’t go there with him again. I was still so hurt because of what he had done. I needed to leave him and all my feeling for him behind. I stepped back and took the breath that I knew I needed to calm me down enough to walk away.
“I can’t do this Jason, I don’t hate you, but I will never get back with you. Please try to move on, I will do the same.”
“I can’t let you go, not know not ever. I’m going to fight for you and one day you’re going to forgive me. When I said I loved you Sky, I meant it.” He said walking to his car.
“I’ll see you at school tomorrow beautiful,” he said smiling. Only I knew that he wouldn’t, not for a long time.
I walked up to my room in tears, why did this have to be so hard? Why did my heart refuse to stop loving him? My feeling for him were just as strong as they had always been, but I knew that I could never get past his betrayal.
I packed the things that I planned on taking with me, all my other clothes would be sent by mail. I laid in bed praying for sleep to come. So many things were running through my head, what if’s didn’t matter they would change nothing. My last thought before I drifted off to sleep were Trevor’s ocean blue eyes.
It had been a week since I come to stay with my grandma. Jason had called and text me nonstop. Finally I just had to change my number, I closed my face book twitter and Instagram. Only Raven knew my new number. She was not to give it to anyone, not even Trevor.
*9 months later*
I only had 2 weeks of school left when I got the phone call. Raven had been in an accident and was barley holding on. I dropped the phone sobbing uncontrollably, this could not be happening. She was just here a few months ago for spring break. I needed to get home, I dialed my mom back and asked her to buy me a ticket home. I quickly packed all that I could into a bag and kissed my grandma goodbye. My cousin Amanda would be here next week to take over, all I could think of was getting home to be with Raven.
The flight home was long, my mom was waiting for me at the gate seeing her made me smile. Oh how I loved that women. She was the kind of mother who always had your back no matter what. That women would go to war for me if she had too. I wrapped my arms around her and she held me close. The tears started welling up in my eyes and before I could stop them they were running down my face.
“Mom, I need to go see Raven,” I sobbed trying to hold it together. ” I know baby, we are going straight there.” She said tears in her eyes.
“Does anyone know I’m coming?”
“No, I didn’t think that you wanted me telling anyone.” She said putting my bag in the car.
I knew that I needed all the courage I could muster up to walk into that hospital knowing that my best friend may not be waking up.
As soon as the car stopped I got off and ran inside, Raven was not going to die on me. She couldn’t we still had so much to accomplish so many places to see. I opened the door to the waiting room that I knew all her family would be and walked in.
The first one to see me was Mrs. Clark she was across the room and pulling me into a hug before I could say anything. “How is she? ” I asked pulling away from her tears forming in my eyes.
“She’s still in surgery. It’s bad Sky.” She said tears falling from her face. Mr. Clark came to stand behind her and laid his hand on her shoulder.
There’s room for you to sit over by Trevor she said pointing across the room. “Trevor make room for sky please.”
Two things that I noticed once I had calmed down enough to really pay attention was that both Trevor and Jason were staring at me. I didn’t miss the fact that there were two girls hanging all over them.
I could do this I was over Jason and as far as Trevor was concerned he was just my best friends brother. I walked over and smiled the best I could, considering what was happening I knew I looked like hell. I had put on a pair of joggers and Fsu shirt my hair was a sloppy mess on the top of my head and I knew that my eyes were swollen and red from all the crying I had been doing.
“Sky,” Trevor said getting up and pulling me into a hug. “I’m glad you’re here, Raven needs to see you when she wakes up.” He said holding me so tight.
Someone clearing their throat got my attention, Trevor let me go and sat back in his seat.
“Sky this is Destiny,” He said pointing to the blonde-haired girl. She was pretty, she just didn’t seem to care for me despite just meeting me.
“I’m his girlfriend, “the girl said looking me up and down. I was not going to let this girl, or any other girl get to me. I would be nice and keep a smile on my face.
“Nice to meet you Destiny,” I said smiling at her. I went and sat in the empty seat next to Trevor and pulled my phone out. In all the commotion I had forgotten to turn it back on, I knew that my mom would be waiting to hear from me.
“So you’re the famous Sky,” the girl sitting next to Jason said frowning. “You’re not all that,” She said smirking at me.
What the hell was wrong with this chick? I tried my best to just keep my mouth shut but in the end I couldn’t.
“Yes, I guess I ’am the famous Sky, as far as being all that I’m sure some people would disagree with you. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I’m all that, but I do know I’m better than you.” I said staring right at her.
“I must really be important to you because you know of me, but I have no idea who you are.”
She got up like she was going to do something, and I just smiled at her. Let her come and try me. I was not the same girl I was when I left. I was done being nice, people were about to get a rude awakening.
“Jason sit your barbie down, before I sit her down. This is not the time and place for her jealous tantrums. I’m assuming she’s your girlfriend.” I said smiling.
“FYI barbie, I don’t want your man, he’s all yours.” I said getting up.
This girl was going to sit down, or I was going to lay her on her ass, how dare she make a big scene when my best friend was fighting for her life. Trevor got up and blocked the barbie from my eyesight.
“Sky, she’s not worth it, you shine next to her and she knows it.” He said loud enough for her to hear him. Destiny frowned at his words, but she said nothing.
He was right, this girl was beneath me. I was here for Raven and I was not going to let this insecure girl rile me up.
I sat back down and looked over at Jason trying to get the barbie under control. He had not changed he was still as handsome as he had always been. It was actually nice to see him, I was happy that he had moved on. I knew what I was about to do was going to make the barbie mad but who cared, not me.
“So Jason how have you been?” I asked a smile on my face.