Chapter 9: Ex-bff
“Tessa? Why aren’t you up yet?”
“I don’t feel good, and I’m too tired to go. Can’t I just stay here mom?”
“No. If you don’t have a temperature then you’re going to school.”
I groaned holding my stomach, feeling the urge to throw up, but never actually doing so. I stood on my feet walking to the dresser and picking out an outfit, ultimately choosing a black knit half sweater and dark blue jeans, pairing it with adidas, throwing my hair in a bun, smiling in the mirror, “Today is going to be a great day, a day where you don’t feel sick, or get mad.” I tell myself.
“Here, drink this throughout the day it should calm your stomach, and stop going to bed so late, you won’t be so tired.” My dad said meeting me at the stairs handing me a 16 fl oz of Canada Dry ginger ale.
“Thank you dad.” I said giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
I grabbed my keys from the wall, and walk out of the house and into my car, but before pulling out of the drive way I look at my phone to make sure no one has texted me.
Sydney: Are you actually crzy?
Sydney: YOU BROKE UP WITH COLLIN?!
Sydney: TXT ME BACK YOU CRZY BTCH!
I put my phone in the cup holder and drove off to school, ignoring her texts and thinking about nothing. It was finally nice not having to drive her to school and her about how she hates people and so on.
I walked into the bathroom, and do a little bit of make up I couldn’t do at the house. I heard the outside bathroom door open, I didn’t really care to look since it’s a public restroom.
“Why are you ignoring my texts, Tessa!?” I head Sydney say from behind me.
“I’m not speaking to you either.”
“So you start dating this guy and suddenly I’m dirt to you! I’ve been here for you day in and day out, you come to me for advise and I gladly give it to you! What the hell is wrong?”
I blink at her and not say a word. As much as it kills me to not talk to her. I just feel so pissed off at her and I can’t explain the feeling.
“You’re being ridiculous and stupidly immature!” She stormed out and I breathed out. Shedding a quick tear but wiping it away I made up my mind and I only know it’s going to get harder from here.
I couldn’t stop thinking about last night with Collin, how I broke up with him, and leaving him there heart broken and confused.
Sydney told me that I’m being ridiculously stupid and immature; I don’t think she’s wrong, but I think Collin showing up scared me.
I had enough. I couldn’t take this anymore and I have to do something about it. In the middle of the lecture I grabbed my bag and walked out of class, “Tessa where do you think you are going?” The teacher yelled after me.
“I have a family emergency, my brother’s in the hospital.” I lied, running to my car. I don’t dare text my mom or dad that I’m going to Denver, and ditching school, who knows what kind of punishment they would give me. I guess I’ll find out when I get home.
I unlock my car and get in, starting it and driving off the campus to the freeway and head straight to Denver.
What the f*ck is wrong with me?
I look at my phone and go through the text messages on my phone to find his address, which thankfully was successful. I pull into a crowded parking lot and find a place to park, grabbing my stuff and getting out of the car.
I walked up 12 steps to get to his apartment, but by the time I got up there I oddly felt out of breath I didn’t think anything of it, it just puzzled me.
I knocked on his door, and his voice gave butterflies to my stomach when he yelled “Coming” through the door. I hear his door unlock and saw him twist the door knob, making me nervous. The door opened and there he was, a towel wrapped around his torso, and his hair, wet. I started biting my lip because he was making nervous, and I just wanted to jump all over him but it’s not why I was here.
“Tessa, what are you doing here?”
I fidget with my sleeve, and look at him in the eyes, “Honestly? I don’t know, I couldn’t stop thinking about you and how much I regret last night, I don’t know what’s going on I think it’s just PMS or something because I’m mad at everything, I thought I was going to cry again, I could feel the tears coming. You know the tingle you get in your nose and then the tears start coming out of the duck of your eyes, it feels like that.
“You broke up with me for no reason. I tried explaining to you but you made me realize that you are 16, and in high school, you don’t know what it’s like to have exams and test to finish my senior year of college. You have so much to learn, Tessa. I didn’t realize this until last night when you just went off and I think it’s best we do not see each other anymore.” He said as he shut the door.
Oh my God. I just got dumped, like I came to apologize, and then I get the door shut on me.
“Come on, baby, I want to do it with you again.” Anastasia said as she tugged down on my arm.
“We f*cked this morning. Twice. I have to get going and take a shower.”
“Fine. But I’m not leaving while you’re gone.”
“Yes you are.”
She huffed as I walked into the shower. I couldn’t get Tessa out of my mind. She’s not like other girls I’ve met who I f*ck and then leave, it’s simple. But with her, she stuck there, especially last night. I wasn’t expecting her to do that, Sydney warned me she was in a mood, but she didn’t tell me I was gonna get dumped, by a 16-year-old.
“hey babe, I’m not answering your door, and someone’s knocking.”
I sighed and put a towel around my torso, as I heard the knock again, I yelled “coming!” when I opened the door, my heart jumped out of my chest, it was Tessa. If she see’s Anastasia, I’m one dead and two she’ll never want to see me again I could never try and get back with her.
“Tessa, what are you doing here?”
She bites her lip and it makes me crazy, It’s not the only thing that’s going crazy. She opens her mouth and says “Honestly? I don’t know, I couldn’t stop thinking about you and how much I regret last night, I don’t know what’s going on I think it’s just PMS or something because I’m mad at everything.”
I had to think of a way that would get her to leave, but the only thing I could think of was going to kill me. “You broke up with me for no reason. I tried explaining to you, but you made me realize that you are 16, and in high school, you don’t know what it’s like to have exams and test to finish my senior year of college. You have so much to learn, Tessa. I didn’t realize this until last night when you just went off and I think it’s best we do not see each other anymore.”
I shut the door and slid down it, breaking down. How can I do that to her? She’s so young and naïve, and I think I was falling in love.
“Are you seriously crying, Collin?”
“Men cry. I just did something stupid and I’m going to do something about it but first you need to stay the f*ck away from me, you got it?”
“Whatever, I can get it elsewhere.” She said as she gathers her clothes. I get up from the door and open it making sure I don’t see her car so I let Anastasia leave.
I’ll let Tessa come back to me, I don’t think I could go crawling back to her because she might just kill me.