I can’t tell you if I did the right thing in breaking up with Cole, but it seemed the right thing at the time. I know deep in my heart he was telling the truth about the picture but not being with him is for the best.
I have dragged him into my own personal hell and he doesn’t need it. Cole is a beautiful person with such a giving heart and I’m only going to bring him down with me.
He has so much going for him and I don’t want to stop him. I get to the room I’ve been sharing with Erin. I looked around and told myself it was time to leave here too. I had put so much responsibility on her and her family.
I brought danger into their home and that was not okay. I could have gotten Erin killed today and that thought shattered my heart beyond repair.
I walk over to the closet and grab my bag. I start throwing all my stuff in it. Erin walks in while in the process, she frowns and her green eyes fill with tears when she sees her best friend packing her bags.
“Willow, you don’t have to leave, you are safe here,” she reassures through sobs.
I don’t stop packing. “I have to, Erin. You and your parents have done so much for me and Josh but it’s time for us to go. I can’t stay here anymore. What if he comes back and succeeds?”
Erin walks over and takes the bag from me. “Let’s talk about this before you make any decisions."I nod and follow her over to sit on the bed.We spent the next few minutes discussing my options and decide the safest place to be is here.
Then she asks me the most dreaded question. “Why did you break up with Cole?” I honestly didn’t really know the reason but I decided to lay it all out for her.
“Cole and I had…well, you know, last night!” I blurted out. She gasped and covered her mouth. I thought I would see anger but all I saw was concern.
“Well, I can’t say I’m surprised. The way you two were acting it was almost inevitable for it to happen.” Her eyes locked with me. “Is that why you ended it?”
I wiped away the tears and responded, “I don’t know, at the time it seemed the best thing to do when I saw the picture of him and Ashley. I just lost it. He tried to explain it to me and I believe him but I just can’t get the thought of the two of them out of my head. I’m also just going to drag him down if he stays with me. He’s better off without me.”
Erin shakes her head and looks upset. “Willow that is the lamest excuse I have ever heard. If you had thought about this before you slept with him then things would have been different, but you love him and you are just scared. You broke his heart. You know what he said when he walked out of here?”
“He said he just lost his only reason for breathing. He’s crushed but I will support you if this is what you really want to do. I only ask one thing of you.”
“What is that?” I ask.
“You need to talk to him, you need to figure it out and be honest with him. I think he deserves that.”
“Okay, I just need some time,” I tell her.
“I get that,” she comforted me. “Are you going to be okay?”
I shake my head no and start sobbing. She pulls me in and wraps me in a hug. I spent the remainder of the evening crying and fell asleep with the heartbroken look on Cole’s face in my mind.