One year later...
"Lily, I'm telling you. You need to get Cooper to move to the city." Coopers sister Debbie said. "I love my house and the country." I said smiling. Over the last year my life has changed dramatically. Cooper and I have been very happy together. He is my world. In the beginning when we took our relationship to a different level. I struggle with it at first. I had so many mixed feelings, but eventually I got over it. My amnesia hasn't gotten any better. It's been a year and five months. Not that I've given up on trying to remember anything, but I just needed to move on with my life. Things actually have been going really good for me. Most of my anxiety has gone away. I still have a lot of problems with strangers, but it has gotten better.
Coopers sister Debbie showed up here about six months ago. From my understanding Cooper and his sister haven't been in contact with each other in years. They had some falling out and just stopped talking. Debbie lives on the other side of the country. Then one day out of the blue she and her husband and her daughter showed up here. I was on the porch when I saw their car pulling in. I got up and went inside and told Cooper about it. He went outside and after about an hour of talking with them and me watching from the window. They all came inside. At first I just went up to my room. Then Cooper talked with me and I came out to meet them. I've gotten used to Debbie and her and I have become friends. Debbie took some time because she is very loud and outgoing. Now she does nothing but make me laugh. Debbie and her family stayed with us for about a week before they headed home. Debbie has been trying her hardest to rebuild her and her brothers relationship. This time she has come back out here on her own.
Cooper and I are very close. The man is my hero. He does everything for me and I love him for that. He is however very protective of me. He is an incredible lover and a wonderful friend. Debbie and I were sitting on the porch, having some tea. It was beautiful out and the sun was shinning. We were giggling at Cooper and Hank playing around in the grass.
"I know you two love it out here, but I'd love it if Cooper was closer to me." Debbie said.
"He is not going to give up this home Deb. I know him." I said taking a sip of my drink. She just smiled and nodded her head at me.
"Maybe we can talk him into at least visiting us." She said. I felt the fear inside me when she said that. Truth was I wasn't sure if i'd be up for something like that. Debbie would be going back home in two days and I wasn't feeling to good the next morning. I moved out of my bedroom into Coopers room a while ago. This morning I woke up feeling sick. Normally Cooper was already up and working. This morning he was still fast asleep. Then I realized it was only five am. What the hell am I doing up so early? I asked myself. I sat up in bed fully prepared to get myself a drink of water. When my stomach had different plans. I felt the puke hit my throat and I ran to the bathroom. I swear everything I ate the day before came up. I didn't understand why I was all of a sudden so sick. Cooper came in behind me and placed his hand on my back.
"Are you okay sweetheart?" He asked me.
"I think so. I just woke up feeling sick and I had to run in here." I said.
"Maybe your getting a touch of the flu? We should take you in to see a doctor just to make sure." Cooper said. I agreed with him. Even though I felt a little better. My stomach was still a little queasy. I went to crawl back into bed and Cooper followed me. He pulled the covers up over me and leaned down to kiss my forehead.
"Are you happy here sweetheart?" He asked me.
"Why do you always ask me that Coop? You know I am." I said smiling at him. He took a deep breath.
"Because one day your going to remember your old life and your family is going to find you. I'm afraid I'll lose you then." Cooper said. This was the first time he shared how he felt with me. I reached out and touched his hand.
"Even if that happens. It's you that I love. I wont leave you." I said. He just smiled and looked over at me.
"What if your married to a man you love and you have a family? Then what? Then what happens?" He said to me. I didn't have an answer for him right away. He closed his eyes and laid his head down on the bed.
"I can't answer that for you Coop. Because I don't know how that would feel. I don't know what I would do, unless I was in that situation. No one has been looking for me. I would think that if I was that involved with someone. They would of found me right away and I still haven't wanted to look for them on my own. Let's just live in the now and worry about that if the time ever comes." I said rubbing his head. "Look at me Coop, I love you. Here and now." I said. Cooper reached over and kissed my lips.
"I'm going to get you some water."He said. I nodded at him. I laid there and though about his words. I didn't really have any memory's to think of, so I hoped that whoever was out there that had to do with me. Had just went ahead and moved on. I loved my life and I loved Cooper and Hank. I loved my hidden country home. I couldn't see myself anywhere else. My memory may not be coming back to me, but my fears are starting to leave and I'm getting stronger everyday. Cooper came walking back into the room with a glass of water and some toast.
"Debbie was in the kitchen bright and early having some coffee. I told her your stomach was upset. She told me to give you some toast." He said, as he sat it down next to me. I thanked him and he got ready and left for work. I ate my toast and drank my water and laid back down. The next thing I knew Debbie was waking me up.
"Hey you need to get up. It's after eleven and Coop is taking you to the doctor in an hour." She said. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I couldn't believe it was after eleven. I got up and jumped into the shower. Debbie came with us to the doctors office. She stayed out in the waiting room. My doctor and I were very familiar with each other. I've been seeing her for a while now. Sometimes once a week because of my brain injury. Cooper is always on top of everything that goes down.
"So Lily, your not feeling to good today?" She asked me.
"Actually, I feel great now. I only felt like crap this morning, but after I threw up I felt better." I said. She studied me for a moment. She turned and opened a cupboard and pulled out a little cup.
"I want you to pee in this and then I want to get some blood." She said.
"Okay." I said and took the cup from her. I walked out and went into the bathroom. and did my business and then returned to the room.
"Your not running a fever or anything. I'm going to do some test and then I will give you guys a call later on this evening." She said. We thanked her and headed home.
"You really feel okay?" Cooper asked me.
"Yeah, I feel great actually." I said. Debbie was sitting in the back seat with a smile on her face. "Why are you smiling?" I asked her.
"Maybe your pregnant." She said. Cooper just shook his head. I on the other hand just stopped to think. I started to do period math. Crap, I was late. Could that be whats wrong with me? Am I pregnant. No, it can't be. Cooper and I are always so careful. Shit, I said to myself. Cooper looked over at me and just rolled his eyes. I smiled back at him. Trying to maintain my composer. We pulled up in front of the house and all got out of the car.
"Wouldn't that be great if you were?" Debbie said running over to my side. Cooper just laughed and went inside the house. I took a seat on the porch swing and Debbie sat with me. "Whats wrong Lily?" She asked me.
"I was just thinking is all." I said.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. I just thought it was funny." She said.
"You didn't. I was just thinking is all." I said.
"Can I ask you a question Lily?" Debbie asked. I nodded at her. "Have you been remembering anything about your old life?" She said.
"Sometimes I have these little feelings like I recognize something or I feel like I've seen something before, but as far as actually remembering something accurate. That hasn't happened." I said.
"I wonder if you will ever remember anything?" She said.
"I don't know, but my therapist tells me it's nothing to worry about. I'm either going to start remembering or I won't. I'm not to worried about it myself." I said. Debbie nodded at me. We spent the next hour sitting on the porch and just talking. Cooper stuck his head out the door to let us know dinner was ready. As Debbie and I took our seats at the table and Cooper went to feed Hank. Coopers cell phone went off. Cooper walked back into the kitchen and answered it.
"Hello? Yes doctor she is here. Hold on one second." He handed me the phone.
"Hello Lily, how are you feeling?"
"I'm feeling good, thank you."
"So, I'm calling to tell you about your test results. We didn't find anything wrong. No flu or virus. We did however find a little something. I happy to say that your pregnant."
I didn't know what to say. My mouth fell open and I dropped the phone to my side. Cooper ran over and picked up the phone. I walked into the living room and took a seat. Debbie came running in asking me what was wrong. That's when Cooper came walking in.
"Sweetheart, are you okay?" He asked me. I slowly turned to face him. I didn't say anything. I just looked at him. He smiled at me. I think because he could see the fear on my face. He walked over to me and kneeled down next to me. "This is all going to be okay." He said holding my hand.
"Can someone please tell me what's going on?" Debbie hollered out. I still didn't say anything.
"Lily's pregnant." Cooper said. Debbie's mouth fell open and she sat back down. Cooper looked back at me.
"I've got a baby inside of me." I said, Cooper smiled at me.
"Yes love, you do. How do you feel about that?" He asked me. “I don't really know yet. How do you feel about this?" I asked him. His smile went large.
"I couldn't be happier." He said.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes Lily, how could I not be. Your my whole world and I love you so very much." He said. I jumped into his arms and he swung me around. Our lips met and he kissed me deeply. "Thank you." He said in my ear.
"For what?" I asked him.
"For falling in love with me." He said.