The song in my head for this chapter is called "I love you goodbye." by Celine Dion. It's a tear jerkier. check it out.
Cooper walked up and put his arms around me. "How are you doing sweetheart?" He asked me.Cooper was aware of everything that had been going on here in the last month. The only thing he was in the dark about was Hunter and myself. This was killing me, but I had to do it.
"Coop, why don't you give Sam to my mother and meet me out back on the porch. We need to talk." I said. He looked at me a little confused, but smiled and headed inside. I walked out to the back porch and took a seat. A few minutes later I heard the back door open. I took a deep breath as Cooper sat down beside me.
"Is everything okay" He asked me. I turned to face him and I took his hands into mine.
"No Cooper, It's not."I said. I knew this was going to be hard, but I thought I could at least hold my tears back long enough to speak.
"Just come out and say it sweetheart." He said. I took a deep breath and wiped my tears away.
"Cooper, I love you. You have been my guardian angel. I will always love you, but I can't keep lying to myself or anyone else. My heart belongs to Hunter and it always has. At first I thought because of our son that I needed to be with you, but that was wrong. I need you to know that I do love you, but I'm in love with Hunter. I'm so sorry Cooper, I never wanted to hurt you or anyone. I feel complete with him. Every time I'm close to him. I can't help it." I said That's when I felt Cooper's arms go around me. I was crying so hard and I felt broken.
"Shh, sweetheart. It's okay." He said. I looked up into his eyes that were full of tears. "I knew this day would come. I just wasn't sure when. Maybe I was being selfish and holding on to you for as long as I could. Till you realized the truth. I knew this could of happened even before you got your memory's back." He said. I could see the sadness all over his face.
"Please don't hate me." I said softly. He pushed some of my hair away from my face.
"I could never hate you. I may not own your heart, but you own mine. I fell in love with you the day I pulled you from that car. Even now with you confessing the truth to me. I still love you and will always be here for you. Your a good woman Chloe and the only thing you did wrong here was lie to yourself about your true feelings." He said. I just shook my head as the tears poured out even more.
"I don't understand you Coop. How can you be so good to me after what I just told you?" I asked him.
"Chloe, how can you even blame yourself for any of this? I came into your life to late is all. You already loved him. How can I be angry with that?" He said. "I knew the minute I saw you and him together. I knew what he meant to you. I was the one being selfish. I was the one trying to hold on to you when I knew you loved him. When you came home to me I knew in the back of my heart it was wrong. That you came home to me for all the wrong reasons, but I just wanted to keep you for as long as I could. I knew you would leave someday." he said with tears falling down his face. I've never seen Cooper cry and it was killing me.
"Cooper, I'm so sorry." I said. He held me tightly in his arms.
"Shh, just let me hold you for a few more minutes." He said. I wrapped my arms around him and we stayed there in each others arms. None of us saying a word. I looked up at him and he was looking down at me. Our lips met for one last time and I held on to it for as long as he let me. I did love him and this was killing me, but in the back of my mind I knew I was doing the right thing. I needed to let him go and find his life without me in it. He pulled away from me. "Can I take Sam home with me tonight?" He asked me.
"Of course you can." I said. He reached out and touched my face one more time and then he disappeared into the house. I stood up and ran out to the water and stood there and watched the ocean. I didn't know how long I was out there, but I felt the presence of someone walk up. I turned to see my mother. She had a sad expression on her face but she didn't say a word. She just stood next to me and stayed quiet as the tears rolled down my face. "He was so understanding, as I broke his heart." I said quietly.
"Oh baby, sometimes life just isn't fare. This was going to happen. He is a good man and a good man will stay good until the end." She said to me. I just stood there still watching the waves of water crashing. "Is there anything that I can do?' She asked me.
"No mama, I'm just going to stay here for awhile." I said. She reached out and put her hand on my shoulder. Then she walked away. I sat down in the sand and just watched the water. My head was so full of so many thoughts, but the one thing I was completely sure about was Hunter. He is my home, but a piece of my heart will always be with Cooper. My mind was sad and so was my heart. I kept telling myself that I did the right thing. I don;t know if I was so upset about him being so understanding or if I was upset that he didn't yell or fight. After a while of nothing but the sounds of the ocean. I could hear someone coming out to me. I turned to see my beautiful smiling looking back at me. Hunter came over and took a seat in the sand next to me. He just sat here and stayed quiet. I watched him and studied him as he kept his eyes on the water and his mouth closed. "Hello." I said.
"Hello bubbles."He said. I smiled at him as I could hear the uncertainty in his voice.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked him.
"You." He said still looking at the water.
"What about me?" I asked him.
"How much I love you." He said.
"I love you too Hunter." I said and he looked over at me. "When do you want me to move in?" I asked him. I saw the light in his eyes get brighter.
"Really?" He said to me.
"It's always been you Hunter. I'll will always find my way back to you. Please don't ever dough that." I said. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
"Now I have peace." He said. I smiled and laid my head on his shoulders. We sat out by the water for a long time. Just holding each other and watching the waves. I now know what he means by peace. We stayed out there for a little while longer and then we stood up and headed back to my mothers house. "Come on, let's go home." Hunter said. I grabbed my things and we all headed back home. I looked out the window of Hunters truck and I had Cooper on my mind. I was glad that he took Sam home with him. I knew he needed someone and he had his son. Sam loved Cooper so very much and I would never keep them apart.
"Are you going to live with us now?" Tim asked from the back seat.
"Would you like that?" I asked him.
"Yes." He said.
"Then yes Tim, I'm going to live with you and your dad," I said. Tim hollered, yay! Both Hunter and I just smiled at each other. We pulled up in front of our home an I took a deep breath as we all got out of the truck. I really did love this home. It was clear that when Hunter got this house he had me on his mind. It was everything I had always wanted in a home. Hunter came over to my side and took my hand and and we walked together inside.