Chapter 100 Fear
Chapter 100 Fear
Elizabeth walks out of the Doctors office taking a seat on the bench outside, just sitting there in shock.
“How could this be? Oh god, is it Brian’s? ..........Or Ethan's?” Elizabeth says to herself with a panic inside her. Feeling more queasy then ever.
All she can think about is the rape, did Ethan do this? If so she would be stuck with him for another 18 years. He would have to be in their lives, wanting to see this child.
They lived in different states that would cause more problems. Ethan wanting to take the child to Wisconsin, and her living in NJ. The child moving back and forth and always in the middle of them. It wouldn’t be raised like her others if nothing else they had a stable environment. Both parents together for them. This child would have them fighting and pulling it in all directions! It was the reason Elizabeth stayed with Ethan for all those years, so the other children didn’t have to go through this.
She also thought this would kill the relationship with Brian on so many levels. First, would he ever be able to raise Ethan’s child? Would he hate her and resent the child? All these thoughts ran through her mind, taking over. She hated the thought of having another child with Ethan. She was free of him, this would set everything back and mess up everyone’s life. Brian paying the most, having to deal with another man's child. And the problems he didn't create.
Then she thought if it was Brians it would nice to raise a child with him, giving him something she thought she never would be able to. Just at the same time, feeling she was over having babies and it was time for her and her career. How would she do it now no matter who the father was? Just at least if it was Brian’s she didn't mind, they would figure it out.
Then there was another thought that killed her, to be in this situation of not knowing her baby's father. That was something she never ever thought would happen to her. Yet, thanks to Ethan and his games, here she was. Yet, again he was taking something from her. Putting her in this position that was beyond awful.
She just sat there not knowing how to tell Brian, what he would think. If he even wanted a child. They were not even married, did this mean now she would have to marry him? Just to make things legit? Her nerves just take over inside her making her stomach feel even worse. Jumping to all kinds of conclusions.
She calls a cab to take her home. Just texting Brian, she was on her way home. Not going into any details. Not really able to bring herself to say it. She also knew he had a big meeting. She didn't want to throw this out him now. She just went home going straight up to bed. Feeling completely lost.
This was supposed to be a happy moment, a life growing inside of her. Hopefully a piece of her and Brian. Instead, it was terror inside of her, thinking so many thoughts that would take over her and take any good thoughts away. She knew she had to wait until the ultrasound to know.
If she was four months and over she knew it would be Brians. If she was only a month or a few weeks. It was Brians. If it was two and a half months she was screwed, that would mean it could be either or. She knew Ethan didn't use anything, his rage took over and no one was thinking about that. Just her trying to get away. Which now was a bigger reminder she wasn’t good enough to. Bringing that night and all the memories back to her.
For Brian, she knew there were times in the new house they didn't use anything, like the time he got her in the kitchen. It just happened and it was too close to Ethan’s rape to know who the father would be. If that was the case they would have to wait till the baby was born. All she could think about is Brian. Would he stick this out? Would he tell her to go to hell? Nine or so months is a long time for imagination to take over for thoughts to invade his mind like its doing to her now. Would she lose him? The thought hurt her deeply.
Knowing she had no control over what was happening. Just when she thought she was done with Ethan, he found his way back in.