Chapter 57. Sorry is not enough
"I stabbed him" I blurted out.
I dont even know why I said that, I just knew that he was mad as hell and I had to do or say something to distract him a bit.
He grabbed on to both my shoulders and shook me violently.
"Ugggghhhhh" he growled.
Then the nurse came and held on to his hand while trying her best to get him to stop shaking me.
"Dr. King remember the baby" she yelled at him.
And just as if she had found the magic words, he stopped.
"You're trying so hard to make me hurt you one day" he growled at me.
"I'm sorry Alando" I whispered
"I told you not to go looking for that man, why the fuck did you not turn around and come back here?"
I had no answer, I just stared at him with tears building up in my eyes. He looked at me disgusted.
"Tears are not going to work Nicole, take that fucking bloody and splintered shirt off" he ordered.
"Dr. King, clearly you're upset, I think its best that I look after your fiancee" the nurse said to him.
"My fiancee huh?" He said as he stared at me with his eyes still blazing. "I think you're right, you look after her as I can't stand to even look at her right now" he snapped at me and left the room.
When he left, I allowed the tears to run freely down my face
"I'm sorry thar you had to see that " I said to the nurse.
"Its okay, I know its only because he's upset"
"And I keep doing things to make him mad, I'm so stupid"
"Whatever the reason is, I believe you both will get through it" she said trying her best to reassure me.
She motioned for me to sit forward and she took my blouse off.
"Owwww" I hollered as the blouse touched a wound.
"Oh no, I'm so sorry, but you gotta prepare yourself for some pain as this is going to hurt" she told me frankly.
"So can't you give me something to numb the pain?" I squealed
She widened her eyes and looked at me funny.
"You're kidding right?"
Then I realised why she couldn't give me any drugs.
"Shit!" I exclaimed just then my mom came charging into the room
"Oh my God Nicky, Alando told me what happened " she blurted out as she came in. "Oh wow, what happened?" She asked.
"I got into a fight with Eyan" I told her
She knitted her eyebrows as she gave me a questioning look and I knew exactly what it meant.
I shook my head.
"What but I thought you made up your mind to do it?" she asked.
"Yes I did but unfortunately it did not happen as I had planned" I replied.
"So that means you messed up, you got it wrong" she blurted out again.
"Yes mom, I know.... I didn't get it right"
"So where's he?" She asked again.
"He's here" I told her softly
"What??!" She yelled
She didn't even give me a chance to explain she just spun on her heels and headed back through the door.
"Great, just what I need, one more person to be mad at me" I whispered to myself
"I can see that you're having an awful day" the nurse said
"Ugghh, tell me about it" I mumbled and then the nurse started asking me some random out of nowhere questions, which I thought was quite odd until I realised what she was doing. She was distracting me as she took the splinters out so I wouldn't focus on the pain. I was grateful as God knows I needed the distraction. I just wished she had a way to distract me from my whole life.
The door opened and Alando came in again, he was still livid. He looked at my back, hissed his teeth and sighed.
"The police will be taking your statement soon I'm just waiting on my dad to get here" he quipped and I nodded in agreement.
Just then he took a pair of gloves and a funny looking tool from his pocket and I knew he was going to assist the nurse with taking the splinters out.
When he touched me I felt the electricity that I used to feel when I just met him and I tensed.
"You okay?" The nurse asked
"She's fine" he snapped
I didn't even bother to respond.
He touched me again and suddenly I was in a dark room, by myself, sitting on a chair with my hands tied behind my back.
"Oh no, not again" I groaned as I realised that this was another foresight. These visions were beginning to wear me out as they happened anytime, anywhere and without warning.
"Hellooooo" I yelled
"No one's going to hear you" someone said from behind me and I froze as I recognized who the voice belonged to.
"You motherfucker!" I yelled at him "you're like a fucking plague that just won't leave"
"I told you that I was not leaving until I got you back" he reminded me menacingly.
"Well, you better kill me and take my dead body because I am not coming with you alive"
"Well either way is fine with me, but I will have you one way or the other" he replied
Then his eyes got dark and I saw that he had made a decision. But somehow I wasn't sad, I was tired of him and I needed this shit to be over. So if by killing me it meant that he would go away and stop being a pain in my family's life then so be it.
"Let's get it over with then" I told him and then the dark room began to fade and I was back into reality.
"Nurse Tompkins can you give us a moment please?" I heard Alando saying to the nurse
"Sure" she replied and walked out.
"What did you see?" He asked?
I paused to recollect my memories.
"Umm, I was in a dark room, tied to a chair and Eyan was there"....... I paused.
"And what happened?" He asked again
"He Uhhh, he told me that he wasn't leaving until he got me back, dead or alive, one way or the other and I told him he would have to kill me" I whispered
"So did he?"
"No.... well I'm not sure because the vision ended"
He sighed and I yelled out in pain as he removed another piece of glass from my skin.
"Son of a bitch, I should just find what room he's in a kill him right now" I shouted and Alando chuckled
"I'm just so tired of his bullshit"
"Aren't we all, he almost cost me my family" he replied softly and I spun around to look at him.
"You know I'm genuinely sorry about that right?"
"You know what Nicole, there comes a time in life when being sorry wont be enough, when it is not enough" he said harshly
Oh no, he was still mad at me, as a matter of fact, I've never seen him this angry before.
"What do you want me to say Alando?" I asked.
"What do I want you to say? So you think that I want you to say anything? Words dont mean shit to me if your actions say something completely different"
I stared at him as he spoke with the vein in his forehead looking like it was about to explode
"I specifically told you not to go to this man, I begged you to turn around and come back, but you insisted on continuing on this sick pathetic journey"
"Its not pathetic, I was trying to protect you" I said in my own defense.
"Oh so now you were protecting me?..... yeah right!"
"But in the vision I....."
"Oh fuck your visions....." he blurted out and cutting me off "what good is your vision if you almost fucking died?"
"But I didn't die"
"Your so called vision led you into a situation where you barely escaped with your life" he yelled again.
"It showed me clearly what I had to do, it's just that I didn't do it"
"What did it show you?, please do tell me" He asked
"I saw that I was to kill him" I whispered.
"What the fuck?!"
"Yes, I saw it clearly, it was either I kill him or he would definitely kill you and I'm sorry, but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anything happened to you" I told him
"Oh, okay you wouldn't be able to live without me but then go and put yourself at risk, so I'm guessing that I'm supposed to be okay with living without you and my child then huh?"
"I didn't say that"
"Maybe not with your mouth but your actions did"
I was about to apologize again but quickly decided against it as I knew it would only make him more angry.
"I can't do this anymore Nicole!" I heard him say and threw the silver thing he had in his hand on the table beside the bed.
"You can't do what anymore?"
"This.....Us, I just can't do it anymore"
I felt like my heart stopped, I had so many things I needed to say, so many questions that I wanted to ask him but my tongue stood motionless in my mouth.
"But I love you Alando" I finally said "and you said that you loved me too, we're having a baby, we're also getting married, you just bought a house for heavens sake" I said as I started to panic.
"Yes I do love you, more than anything or anyone else in this world but it's obvious that you do not love me" he said softly.
"Nooo, how the hell can you say that, don't say that" I shouted.
"I have to say it because it's the truth, you don't love someone and then act the way you do"
"But I do love you, you have to believe me" I replied through my tears.
"No you don't!" He yelled "there's no way you can love someone and hurt them by constantly putting your life and the life of an unborn child at risk like this"
I sprang from the bed and quickly went to bar him from going through the door.
"Please please please, I'm begging you, do not leave me, I need you to stay, tell me you'll stay" I begged again.
And with tears in his eyes, he looked straight at me and said