“Where are we going?” I asked Drew when we were driving for almost 20 minutes.
“You said it yourself. No one deserves to know about the break up over the phone.” He answered.
“Wait... What?! Don’t tell me that we’re going to Phoebe’s and Melanie’s hometown?”
“I want to be with you. I want to be able to tell my friends from the team and to the whole college, that I finally found a girl who occupied all of my thoughts. And that my girlfriend is the most stunning girl I’ve ever seen. I want them to envy me.”
“Drew... I want to be with you. But don’t you think that it’s cruel? You’re bringing me with you, showing us right to her face...”
“I want to be honest. Just like I should have been from the very beginning. What I said to you, it’s the truth. When I realized that you’re not the only hookup for me, that I want to be able to hold hands with you, to spend all of my free time with you, to kiss you in every hallway of our college... I was scared like hell. I never felt like that before.”
I reached to him and placed my hand on his thigh, squeezing it. He smiled at me. I wanted to hear what he was thinking.
“And there was Phoebe... She followed Mel everywhere, searching every opportunity to spend time with me or just to be near me. And I thought that maybe... Maybe with her help, I will be able to forget about you. Of course, it didn’t work, and when I saw how you were hurt because of me... How you couldn’t even look at me... Shit! I was so angry with myself! I got drunk as hell when we came to the winter break. I found the courage to tell her that I had feelings for you and that you’re the one with whom I want to be. I told her that, while I wasn’t wasted, so I remembered the whole thing in the morning... But she acted as if nothing happened. Like I never told her anything.”
Drew smiled at me. He wasn’t used to talking about his feelings. Mostly because there weren’t any situations like that before, it was my guess, but I was sure it was the deal. He confirmed this to me 1 minute after.
“This whole thing is so new to me, Rebecca. How did it even happen? This question circulated in my head, but I couldn’t find the answer. It just was like that. I don’t know what I thought when I let her kiss me in front of you. Hell, I even kissed her back. Seeing disgust in your eyes, when I wanted to talk to you after... Fuck, It was like the punch in a gut. But it helped me realize that I couldn’t stand it. I wanted you to look at me, as you were looking at me before this whole shit happened. How you looked at me when we were sitting in my car and talking about our studies or our similar tastes in music or movies... I finally admitted to myself that I want to be with you and only you. That’s why I sent you this text... Still, you didn’t answer and even didn’t see it. And then you decided to drive to my house with Logan. It made me furious with myself, and I also was angry at him.”
“I decided to drive here with Lily, not with Logan. And to have the opportunity to avoid you as long as I could.”
“Yeah, I figured this out as soon as we arrived at the lake. I heard him talking with Mel, he sounded happy, so I realized that I was worried over nothing... You don’t have any idea which images were flashing in my mind... Imagining you in his arms. Especially now, as I know for sure that you slept with him, I don’t want to think about it... It’s the past. It happened before you and me... Damn... But it’s hard... Mostly because I know the difference between Logan and me. He’s a perfect guy, and I am me... A womanizer and a man-whore... I knew all of my nicknames, and with all my honesty, I could tell that he will be a perfect boyfriend for you... But I guess I am just too selfish, that’s why I came to your room tonight.”
“You know, the outcome is pretty good, don’t you think?”
“Well... I talked things through with Logan... He was the one who suggested me to talk to Phoebe in person. He supported me... I knew that he cared about his relationship with Melanie, and still, I tried to destabilize him, to force him to admit his feelings for you, which he did by the way. Rebecca Dawson, you’re the first woman, who was able to get our attention at the same time. But I guess you know it yourself.”
I smiled. It was flattering; I can’t deny it. These two gorgeous guys, stars of our college’s football team, were head over heels for me. They also gave me the most marvelous orgasms in my life, because they both were experienced and very skillful. Even memories of it gave me goosebumps. Fuck, Rebecca, snap out of it.
“Drew... Are you okay with Logan and me? I mean that I slept with him...”
“I’m trying not to think about it. It happened in August a long time ago. I can’t say that I am okay with it. But he’s my best friend, and I trust him. If he said that you’re friends and nothing more, I believe him.”
Drew’s phone started to buzz. He glanced at the screen and frowned. He let the phone rang.
“Who was it?”
“Phoebe. We will be there in 20 minutes. I will call her back as soon as we reach the town.”
Drew placed his hand on mine, entwining our fingers together. I started to feel happy. Like I wasn’t in a couple of months for sure. Soon we started talking about everything and anything at the same time. We were so comfortable together like we were before. I think both of us missed our conversations. We came to the town and Drew parked his car near some shop. He took his phone and dialed.
“Hey, it’s me... Yeah, I was driving... I am good... Actually, where are you?... Yeah?... Look, Phoebe, I want to talk to you, and I am in your town... Yes, right now... Okay, I will be there.”
I suddenly felt nervous. I felt pity for Phoebe. No matter what I was thinking, what he was going to do was cruel.
“Drew? Maybe you could drop me off at some diner or in a big shopping center?”
“Why?” He started driving the car.
“Don’t you think it will be better?”
“No. She deserves to know the truth.”
“Becca, I said no.”
Okay, I guess I can’t change his mind. I fell silent, fiddling my fingers on my lap. Soon the car stopped before the small white house. Phoebe was already on the porch, as soon as she saw the car, she started walking. Drew stopped the car but didn’t have time to step out of it, as she opened my front door. Her smile disappeared; her eyes were full of confusion.
“What is she doing here?”
“Phoebe, please, sit in the car.”
“Only after you will tell me, what is this freshman bitch doing here?”
“Don’t you dare call her like that.” Now, this sounded like a threat. Just perfect.
Phoebe frowned and stared at him. Drew sighed.
“Listen, Phoebe, and I want to talk to you. Could you please sit in the car? I will drive us to some café or bar, so we could sit and talk?”
“Will she join us?” She pointed her finger at me. She knew my name, but she refused to call me by it.
“No, I will wait for Drew in the car. It’s just between you and him.” I didn’t let him answer.