I spent another two days with my parents and Kate. She and I went to see a new movie, and after it, I went to play bowling with her. Chase joined us at the last minute. I didn’t laugh that hard in days. My parents and I had dinner with Kate’s family the night before we were leaving for college. I had so much fun at this dinner like it never was before. Mostly it was because Kate tried to cheer me up.
I was hoping for Drew to call me, no, I even was sure, that he would call me. He didn’t, and I felt disappointed. This time I didn’t call or write messages to Logan. I tried to relax, and with support from my parents, Kate, and even Chase by my side, I was good at it. I made a decision, though. When I come back to the campus, I was going to find Drew and to talk to him. I couldn’t continue to go on like this. I wanted to be sure of my relationship. If he says that he changed his mind and didn’t want to be with me, okay, I will cope with it. But I needed closure, not this mess.
On the morning of our departure to the college, I tucked my bag to my trunk, and Kate tossed hers and few boxes inside. Our parents hugged us and wished us all luck. Chase came to say goodbye too. He gave me a small box. A silver necklace with a small swallow on it was inside. Immediately I asked him to help me to put it. His fingers lingered on my neck a little. He stepped back from me, and when I turned to look at him, he was smiling. I hugged him tight and kissed his lips, just pressing mine to his. He hugged me back, and we stayed like that for some time.
It was really surprising. When I walked to this bar that night, when we met for the third time in our life, I never thought that Chase would become my friend. I liked him and was very grateful to fate, that it brought him to my life. After I stepped back from him and turned to my car, I saw my mom with pursed lips. I could say that she didn’t approve of my closeness to Chase. But I honestly didn’t give a damn about it. He was kind to me, and it was enough for me.
Kate and I sat in the car, and I started the engine, driving us off to the college. We listened to Shawn Mendes’s songs and sang along with him. My mood was very high until I saw Kate glancing in my direction.
“What is it?” I made the sound quieter.
“It’s a lovely necklace. Chase likes you.”
“Yeah, it is.” I placed my fingers on the little swallow. “Chase’s dear to me. I am lucky to have a friend like him in my life.”
“Only a friend? You kissed him...”
“Kate. It was a goodbye kiss, nothing more. I won’t see him for a while. And yes, if you want to know, he’s my friend. I have a boyfriend, and Chase knows about it. Or I had a boyfriend... I don’t know, but in any case, Chase’s leaving for New York. He’s a grown-up man, and he has his needs... So the long-distance relationship with 18-years old girl like me, obviously won’t work.”
“Maybe... Still no signs of Drew?” She looked at me with concern. I had a feeling she was afraid that I would start crying at any moment. Which I wasn’t, no matter what. If our story with Drew ended, so be it. I won’t be begging him to stay with me or cry because of him.
“Nope. But it’s okay. Will you go to see Tim?”
“I will go with you. I will find Drew and talk with this arrogant jerk. I am tired of this and want to deal with it before our classes start.”
“Do you want to break up with him?”
“No. But if he wants this, then okay. More reasons for me to dive deeper into my studies.”
We fell silent after this, but soon enough, we arrived in our dorm. We took our bags and went to our rooms. Lily’s belongings were already here. When I checked my phone, I saw a message from her. She went to see Rob. I could tell she was missing him terribly. I put my clothes in the wardrobe, fixed my makeup, and let down my hair. I was wearing my favorite skinny jeans and a jean shirt. I wore a black leather jacket and sneakers. With it, I left the room.
Kate was waiting for me beside her door. Nina wasn’t here yet. She was going to come in the late evening. I was hoping to see her tomorrow at the college. I missed this girl, even if we talked with her from time to time while being on the winter break.
“So, where is Tim?” I asked Kate when we exited the dorm.
“At the fraternity house. They arrived not long ago.”
“What will you do if Drew won’t be in his room?”
“Or won’t be alone.”
“What? It’s possible.”
“So, what will you do?”
“I will tell him that we need to talk about us. It’s simple.”
“You look calm. Are you sure you’re okay?”
“I want this to end. To stop worrying, doubting. Is it that bad?”
“Of course not! What did Logan tell you about Drew? Why didn’t he contact you?”
“I didn’t ask him. I didn’t call Logan.”
“Why? He’s his best friend. He should know something, anything!”
“I don’t want to involve him. It’s between Drew and me. Logan did more than enough already.”
“If you say so.”
We came to the fraternity house, and I felt anxiety the first time in the whole day. Kate looked at me, and I nodded at her, she opened the door and walked inside first. I followed her. She went to the living room, and I heard her laughing soon after, when I looked inside, I saw her in Tim’s arms. I waved at him, and he smiled at me. I turned to the stairs, took a huge breath, and started climbing.
With my head held high, I walked to Drew’s room. On my way here, I heard my name, and I turned around. Logan was standing before his door. He was wearing his bomber jacket, and he was going to go to his room when he noticed me. I turned around and went to him. Without second thoughts, I stood on my tiptoes and kissed him on the cheek. When I stepped back and looked at him, he was grinning from ear to ear.
“Why hello to you too, beautiful. What are you doing here?”
“You know, as a hell of a grown-up woman, I decided that I will go there and will finally ask Drew, looking him straight in the eyes, what the hell is going on between us.”
“Wait. What are you talking about? Hadn’t he talked with you?”
“No. No calls, no messages. Zero.”
“Motherfucker!” Logan leaned his back on the wall and looked at me sideways. “Becca, I am sorry. I was sure as hell that he would call you...”
“Why are you apologizing for him? It’s not your fault that he didn’t dare to tell me that he doesn’t want to be with me.”
“Becca, I am certain that here you’re wrong. I think he scared to admit that he needs you.”
“Ha! I will believe in it, only when I hear it. Now? I highly doubt it.”
“He’s not in his room if you were looking for him. We left the house together, but then we went different ways. He said something about the grocery store, but I am not so sure.”
“May I wait for him in his room?”
“You could keep me company in mine.”
“No, definitely not. Too tempting. Where is your girlfriend?”
“She will be at the campus around 6 pm. I will meet with her then.”
“Everything is good?”
“For now, yes. We didn’t see each other for almost a week, only talked, but I am sure that she misses me.”
“Tricky question. And I think it will be against our rules.”
I stared at him. What did he mean by that? Too complicated. I needed to deal with Drew. It was my priority. I smiled at Logan and turned around.
“See you, Logan.”
“See you, Rebecca.”
I heard him opening and closing his door as I stood before Drew’s room. Well, to hell with that! I am exhausted, and I want answers. I placed my hand on the doorknob, opened the door, and walked inside.