I then started to feel his arms go around me. It felt so natural to be in his arms. He laid his head on my shoulder. I could feel his breath on my neck. He then started to cry. I don't think I have ever seen Spencer cry. I just held onto him. "Josh's wife is pregnant and now she is all alone," Spencer said.
"I'm so sorry Spencer. I promise I'm going to do whatever it takes to find out what happened." I said. All of a sudden Spencer pushed himself back from me.
"I know what happened, Page. Richard did this. He did this because of you."
"What? Because of me? What does that even mean?"
"He threatened to take me or anyone else down that tried to get to you. I told him I wanted you back and I was going to do whatever it takes and now Josh is dead." He snapped. I took a deep breath.
"Spencer, I know you're in a lot of pain right now, but please hear me out for a moment. You know the Baileys more then I do. Remember that. Why would Richard go after Josh and not just go to you?" I asked him.
"To hurt me. To leave me a message to stay the fuck away from you." He spits out. His words hurt. He was in so much pain. "It's not going to work this time. I'm going to take that family apart piece by piece."
"Spencer you can't do that they will kill you first. You are no match for them."
"I don't need to be Page. I have bigger resources then Bailey has ever had." He said. I knew what he was talking about. I also knew that it was true, but I had to stop him. I had to say something to calm him down, but what the hell do you say to someone in Spencer's position? How can I convince him of Richards innocents, when Richard is the enemy in Spencer's life right now?
"You need to think about what your doing Spencer. Pull your head out of your ass and think about things. Something is not adding up here."
"Why are you here Page? Are you just here to protect your special Baileys?" He said. That's where I got angry.
"First of all, Your the one who left me with these people. You're the one who took off and made them my family. You claimed you loved me so much that you believed in your heart you were leaving me with good people, So you need to think about that before you believe what your thinking." I snapped. He just looked at me. "And, I'm here for you,"
"Why? After everything that I've done. Why do you even care?"
"Becuase I do," I said. "I can't help it. I can't help how I feel. Before everything in my life. Before my friends and the Baileys. Before school and my life. Back when I was stuck with my mother. There was you. I can't help how I feel about you. You were everything to me. Of course, I'm here." I said and I felt sad at that moment.
"But I have abandoned you twice now. I have never been the right man for you." He said. "You have such a beautiful heart and all I know how to do is step on it."
"I'm going to fix this Spencer,"
"Page, I don't want you to get involved."
"Well, that's not really your choice, now is it?" I said. He just shook his head at me.
"I understand what your saying Page, but the evidence doesn't lie. His fingerprints were all over the gun. A gun that was left with Josh's body."
"Okay, but if someone was framing him," I said. Spencer just looked at me. "Why would he leave behind a gun?" I asked. "You knew these people, they're not sloppy with their work. That doesn't make any sense." I said. I knew I was getting Spencer's wheels turning in his head.
"He could have left the gun as a message to me." He said. This is going to be harder then I thought. I just needed to cool Spencer down long enough to figure this out on my own.
"Please Spencer, just give me time,"
"Page, I'm not letting you get involved. I've done enough of turning my back on you. I won't ever do that again." He said. He looked back down to the ground and his shoulders slumped forward. I moved closer to him again and tried to comfort him.
"I'm here Spencer. Let me help you." I said softly, trying not to upset him more. His arms went around my waist and he pulled me into him. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He then lifted me into his lap and I didn't stop him. All he was doing was holding me and I felt so comfortable in his arms. It was just so familiar to be here with him. Like this was home. He lifted his head up to look at me and we didn't say a word. I don't know what took over, but I pressed my lips to his.
Like if things between us had never changed. We were both lost in the moment and I forgot how to breathe. This wasn't intense and sexual. This was soft and loving. Spencer's hands went into my hair and he pulled my face even closer to his. "I miss you so much. I'm so sorry Page. " He whispered and then went back to my lips. I had forgiven Spencer a long time ago. I had let it all go when I took control of my life. I had let all my anger and pain, free. He didn't have to apologize to me anymore. I blamed him for nothing. In fact, I didn't blame anyone for anything.
The people I cared about were now fighting with each other and I needed to stop it. They have all done so much for me and I felt I needed to give something back. I had no idea how I was going to do this, but I was going to try. Someone out there is fucking with the people I love and I intended to find out who. I pulled away from Spencer and he laid his had on my chest. "I know you care about Vincent." He said. what? I said to myself.
"How the hell do you know about that?" I asked him. He just looked at me. "Right, Richard," I said. "That's over, I do care about him, but right now it's the last thing on my mind," I said. Spencer smiled at me. That damn smile I love so much. I ran my fingers through his dark hair. He smelt of alcohol and he needed sleep. "Come with me," I said as I got off his lap and reach my hand out to his. He followed me to his room where I went into the bathroom and started his shower.
"Are you trying to say I stink?" He asked me. I came to the doorway and nodded my head at him. He gave in and got up and went into the shower. I closed the door and started to clean up his room. I found sheets and changed his bed. He finally came out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel. Keep your thoughts to yourself Page. I said to myself. He walked into his closet and then came back out in some lose fitted bottoms. I pulled his blankets back and he came over to me at once. He laid in his bed and I covered him up. I sat down on the side of the bed next to him. He looked so tired. "Will you stay with me until I fall asleep?" He asked. I had never seen him so vulnerable before. Spencer is a very independent person. Very much in control at all times, but at this very moment, he needed me. I crawled into the bed beside him and laid my head on his chest. I felt his fingers in my hair and then they settled down. I knew he had fallen asleep when I heard his soft snores.
There was no way I was going to move and risk waking him up. I laid there with my thoughts and felt lost. How was I going to fix this? I had no idea where to even start. Spencer was so broken and the Bailey's would be completely lost without Richard. I knew in my heart that Richard was innocent of this, but getting Spencer to believe that was going to be tough. I knew I was going to need someone's help to figure this all out, but who? I felt tired and sad. I felt the tears start to come out. My heart was breaking for everyone I cared about and this time it wasn't me that was in trouble.