30 minutes after, Tyler knocked on my front door. I know what women had been seen in him. He was gorgeous, with all that bad-boy aura. But I wasn’t charmed by him, never in my life. He was too much for my liking. I despised him for too long, so I should have been happy to see him suffer. But the truth was, that I wasn’t. I felt sorry for him.
This guy in designer’s clothes and with beautiful features was standing before me with slumped shoulders. Sadness was visible in his blue eyes. Moreover, he was confused. He hadn’t had any idea, what he was doing here. But still, he came. That was matters. She was matter to him.
“You know, I’m almost praying now silently, that I am doing the right thing.” Tyler stared at me, hiding his hands in his jeans’ pockets.
“Come inside. We need to talk.” I gestured for him to come and he did. He knew when to do something without asking questions. Another good point in his defense.
He followed me to the living room and sat on the couch. I took one stool and sat before him, my elbows on my knees, looking him straight in the eyes. I don’t know, what I was looking for. I took a deep breath and told him everything. Starting from the very beginning, from our high school years. He was patient and silent. I was grateful to him for that. Tyler Douglas was a good listener, he paid attention to my words. Everything, that I was telling him, sank deeper and deeper. I saw him tensing and relaxing and back. I told him the purest truth. That my best friend never stopped loving him. She loved him then and she loves him now. She couldn’t stay with Nate and she decided to be only friends with him. He was confused, ashamed and sad. All these emotions were written all over his face. When I finished, he was staring at his feet.
“Tyler, I am going to ask you only one question and only once. And dear God will help you if you will lie to me. What do you want from Vera?”
“What do I want?”
“Okay. The wrong choice of words. Do you love her?”
“Loved. Love and will be. These years without her I felt emptiness. But I was reasoning with myself, that not having me in her life, it’s for her own good. She deserves so much better than me! Seeing her at that party... Damn! I was happy and jealous when I realized the nature of her relationship with Nate. So I acted like an asshole... But as soon as she started to open up to me again, it was too hard for me to stay away from her. Tasha, I told her horrible things, when she called to confide in me... I regretted it immediately, but I couldn’t do anything about it.”
“Yeah... She told me about your conversation...”
“I apologized before her and was ready to do so over and over again, but she told me that she needed time. Imagine my surprise, when she walked to my party with Nate, holding hands. I wanted to rip her away from him, but she seemed happy. I acted on my emotions, dragged her with me, and forced myself on her. She stayed impassive, telling me that she didn’t feel anything for me... And I believed her... Especially when I saw her and Nate together yesterday... Only if she would have told me the truth that she wasn’t with him... Fuck! I wanted to forget, so I decided to let it go and spent the night with that girl, which approached me... For me, it didn’t even matter with whom to spend the night...”
“Uh huh. She woke up in the middle of the night, listening to your attempts to forget. She instantly knew that it was you in bed with her roomie.”
“Fuck! When I saw her in the morning, I was terrified. What was she doing here? Then I remembered, that Chloe said something about her roommate not being at home. Bingo! But it was too late to do anything... She ran away from the apartment before I even put my clothes on. How could I even look her in the eyes now?”
“She doesn’t blame you... She said it was her fault that it happened. She should have told you about herself and Nate, she should have told Chloe who you were...”
“How could she not blame me? I remember myself when I came to the room and found out that she slept with Kith. I was the reason why she had done it and still, I was blaming her. I was hurt by it.”
“Tyler, don’t make me regret my decision to ask you to come here. I figured this a long time ago, that behind this exterior of yours, you were a coward...”
“Yeah, you acted all cool, so full of yourself. Telling her about your girls and still coming and coming back to her. You were a coward, who was afraid to admit the simplest truth. The only girl you wanted, was Vera. She knew from high school, that you were the one for her. While you continued to hurt her over and over again. She started to deny her feelings for you, refusing herself to be happy. Because she was afraid of another heartbreak.”
“Where is she?”
“She’s sleeping. You could wait for her to wake up. I gave her a pill and I think she will sleep till the evening. She was exhausted, when she came...”
“Where I could stay? In this room?” He stood up and looked at me with hope in his eyes.
“No. Come with me.” I stood up and beckoned him to follow me. 5 minutes after, I closed the door to this room and silently walked back to the living room. I took my phone and dialed Jake.
“Hey. Can we go to the movie?”
“Yeah. I will come to your work in an hour.”
“Weird, but okay. I was going to go back home at lunch.”
“No, you can’t go home.”
“What is the meaning of this?”
“I will tell you when I will see you. Bye!”
I ended the call, took my jacket with my purse and walked out of the house. I hope, I did everything right and this decision won’t blow out to my face.
When I woke up the room already was dim, I guess I slept for too long. I laid with my eyes closed, stretching a little until my hand didn’t cross something. Someone to be exact. Slowly, I turned around and stared in disbelief at Tyler. I didn’t expect him to be here. Maybe it’s a dream? No, I was sure it was him and I wasn’t sleeping anymore. The only explanation, it was Tasha’s doing. She called him to come. He fell asleep on the bed near me, keeping his distance.
I didn’t stand up from the bed, I just stared at him. Remembering every line and angle of his face. His long lashes, they now were even darker. His chiseled cheeks with a little stubble. His hair disheveled in a total mess. His full and so kissable lips. God! I’ve missed him so much!
I don’t know for how long I was observing him when I noticed his eyelashes flutter a little. The next second his eyes opened and he bore his gaze at me. I smiled at him, because I was very happy, that he was here. He smiled back at me.