Song: Enough-Alex Roe
Emily and I didn’t speak while she wheeled me back to my room. I was capable of walking but the nurse, I think her name was Alex was worried I wouldn’t be stable enough. She pleaded with her ocean blue doe eyes and I couldn’t say no to her. I won’t lie and say he isn’t gorgeous and I wouldn’t be a guy if I didn’t feel some kind of attraction. Yet, my heart will never be given to another.
Whether or not Emily and I make things work between us, nothing will ever happen with anyone else. Besides, I saw the way she was ogling Dan. My mind is reeling of things I should say to Emily and how to say it. Dan is right though I do need to hear her out. I truly don’t have a reason to be upset with her since I didn’t give her the opportunity to tell me. Yet, I do wonder if she has told her family.
“Em, are you okay?” What Dan said about her ex really makes my blood boil and my protective instincts kick in. The dude should be rotting in a jail cell not making the mother of my child go into hiding.
“I’m fine, Day. How about you?”
“Well, to tell you the truth I feel like shit. I was so angry at you Emily and all I wanted was to forget everything about you. I thought if I didn’t read your letters or talk with you when Dan called then you would eventually fade away, but I was wrong. The more I pushed you away the stronger you consumed me.”
“We reached my room and she pushed my chair in. She hesitates when it comes to helping me back into bed.
“Would you like me to get the nurse or my parents to help?” I chuckle at her nervousness.
“No, Em, I can get in by myself.” She nods and her cheeks turn a shade of pink.
“If you could stay though, I may need some assistance.” I really didn’t but seeing that blush made me want to do things I shouldn’t want.”
“Okay.” I stand up and a wave of dizziness fills my head. I wait for a moment and hope it passes. It doesn’t but I don’t want her to know that. I take a step then another, my legs feel like jello but I keep moving. It seems like it’s been hours when I finally reach my bed. My head is pounding and my body feels heavy, I take another breath and psych myself up for the next task.
Em has been at my side but not touching me. She wants to help and I should let her but my foolish pride won’t let me give in. I think she’s finally given up watching me struggle when I feel her hand on my hip.
“Hold onto me, Damien. Stop being a stubborn old coot and let me help you.” Bossy Emily has come out but she doesn’t play around.
“Yes, ma’am.” I slide my arm around her waist and even in my state a feeling of euphoria runs up my spine and clouds my vision. All I see is the girl I love, the girl with chocolate hair and green eyes. The girl who holds my heart.
Suddenly, I’m scared she’ll leave me again so I move my other hand off the bed and wrap my it around her other hip. I’m wobbly but she keeps me grounded and stable. I press my forehead to hers and stare into her eyes. “I’m so sorry Emily! If I had listened to you that day when you wouldn’t have had to get involved with that loser and had to run.
“I’m so sorry I was such a dick and pushed you away when all you needed was my support. I shouldn’t have hidden from you and made you feel like you had to keep this secret. I won’t make excuses for my behavior or my actions but I’ve done things that would make up toddlers nightmares. My mind had convinced me I was a monster, I still feel like I am but I will work on it for you and for Michael. I’m here for both of you.”
By now Emily has tears filling her eyes and raining down her face. I wipe her them away and using her as the support I sit on the edge of the bed with her still locked within my arms. I knew I needed to lay down before the dizzy spell completely took over. So I lay my back down and flip my legs up. Then using what strength I have left I pull her up so her body is on top of me.
I lift my head and press my lips to hers. At first, she’s unsure of what to do but after I few seconds she kisses me back. I should stop but I’ve been deprived of Emily’s life-giving oxygen for too long and I need her to keep going. Without her to hold me up I will crumble and fall but with her, I can face anything.
I pull away and gather my thoughts. I need to tell her everything and she still needs to figure out how this is going to work. For now, though I just want to hold her and pretend our worldly problems don’t exist.
Please, don’t leave me.” Our eyes connect again and in hers’s I see the love and concern she has for me.
“I’m not going anywhere.
Sorry about the short chapter, the next one will be longer.