Chapter 8: Words can hurt
I make my way down the street, trying to remember his address. I know it's this street but which house is it?
As if on cue Jackson steps onto his front porch along with his friend Ashton.
I ball my fists and make my way for him.
He looks over at me, confused. "What are you doing here." he asks
"Stay away from Dawn" I practically hiss.
"Nah, I'm good." he responds nonchalantly.
"I swear to god Jackson if you hurt her you will have to deal with me."
"She doesn't even like me, stop getting your panties in a twist." he rolls his eyes at me.
"She does, No fucking clue why but she really likes you. She's a really sweet girl and I will not let you ruin her." I yell.
"Is that a challenge Miss Tia?" He laughs
I take a step forward, planting my finger on his chest. "Stay away from her."
He swipes my hand away. "Oh look, a message. 'Hey Jackson what are you doing tonight -Dw' hm lets see, 'how about hanging out with you, meet me at our spot" He shoots a devilish smile directed at me before walking away with Ashton.
I need to warn her but how? She's just gonna think I'm being a bitch. If only she knew.
I was dating him when we met. Or I thought we were dating but he just used me and cheated on me. I even told her about him but I didn't use his name. I can't tell her, she'd hate me.
I pull out my phone and text Dawn. "Please hangout with me me and my mum had a fight and I need you. -Tia"
A little lie wont hurt, I just need to keep them away from each other.
"I actually made plans, but we can sleep at my house tonight? -Dw"
Sighing I agree and put my phone away. at least I tried.
"Lillian, Try and get Dawn to hangout with you please? I can't explain but trust me. -Tia"
"Can't, babysitting. -Lil"
Damn. Hopefully Dawn will realize how horrible he is before it's too late.
Someone sent me a link to this website, about a burn book?
Clicking it I start looking at it's posts, noticing how a lot of them are about me...
"Did you see Dawn yesterday? such a try hard slut, her outfit wasn't even cute"
"LOL she's so fat too, why Does Tia hangout with her?"
"Did you notice Jackson taking an interest in her? He wont even have to try hard. pity though he's so hot and she's not."
It just kept going on about me, hurtful things. It's all anonymous too.
All these strangers probably don't even know me why are they saying this shit?
I keep scrolling, reading all the awful things.
"Such a waste of space, wish she would kill herself"
I stare in disbelief. Am I really that horrible?
I close the tab, seeing my reflection on the compute screen, my cheeks were soaked with tears.
I pull out my phone cancelling on both Tia and Jackson, Suddenly not having energy to do anything.
Crawling into bed, I pull a pillow over my face letting the tears fall. How can so many people say mean things about me when they don't even know me. I did nothing to deserve this.
I hear my phone go off a couple times but decide to ignore it. I don't want to deal with anyone right now. I just can't.
I've never felt so bad before, like yeah I don't like my looks and I do think I'm fat but seeing a site dedicated to putting me down hurts a lot.
Hearing Tia say it was different too. But being called a slut and being told to harm myself? That's not right.
It's not right at all. How would they feel if it was about them? Do they not care about the damage they're causing?
Like I thought they stopped gossiping about me, Well in school they did at least but that site...
"Dawn you have a visitor" My mum calls out.
I groan before getting out of bed, Quickly wiping my face, leaving no trace of the tears that were just there, besides in my tired, pain filled eyes.
"Coming." I shout back, making my way downstairs.
When I get to the living room I see my mum and sister sitting across the room with Jackson on the opposite couch.
"What are you doing here?" I burt out, Surprised to see him.
"Dawn, I like your friend he's funny" Gracie squeals as she runs up to me, capturing me in a hug.
"He is funny isn't he kiddo?" I smile at her.
"Can we keep him, please?" she asks, making the cutest puppy dog face.
"Well, He is a person so we can't technically keep him and I'm sure he wouldn't appreciate that."
"How about if it's okay with Mrs. Winters we can take you to a park sometime?" Jackson adds in.
I look at him wide eyed with caution. "Why would I trust someone I barely know around my little sister? I ask, It coming out harsher then I meant it. I can't help it, she's my world.
"Protective sister, got it" He laughs, easing the tension.
"I don't see why that would be a problem, just let me know when so I don't go crazy looking for the rugrat" My mum says.
"Okay, hear that Kiddo? Mum says we can hangout with him sometime" i ruffle her hair.
"Don't do that Dawnie." She whines "It has to happen tomorrow because Mr.Whiskers has a date the next day." she adds
"Sounds good to me" Jackson smiles.
Gracie squeals before running up the stairs.
"Well that was fun." I say.
"I'm gonna go to Anne's, Remember, no boys in your room" My mum states
"Mum, come on, really? I know better but you don't have to announce it to the world every time a guy comes over."
"I just love seeing your cheeks get all red" She jokes, Making my blush harder. "Yeah like that." Quickly she scurries off, leaving me alone with Jackson.
"Well this is awkward." I state.
"Only if you make it awkward." he chuckles.
"I thought I told you I couldn't make it?"
"You did, so I decided to come to you and see what was holding you up. What was stopping you?" He asks
The comments on the sight rush back into my head, causing me to look down, trying to stop the tears that were threatening to escape. "I just didn't feel like hanging out."
"You were the one who wanted to in the first place." he pauses. "but since you don't want me around, I'll just leave." He says as he stands up.
"Wait." I say, looking at him. "I'm sorry, I just.." I pause, looking for the right words. "The forest right?"
"Yeah." He looks at me, but doesn't try to push the subject further.
"Lets go." I say as I start walking towards the door.
I just have to ignore what people are saying, I won't let them get to me.