The Day Out With Family
"She's the type of girl that can be hurt so hurt but can still look at you and smile."
It's been...better, the last few days. I try and remember when my life was comfortable, content even, but it never was.
Lying with the person that I spend my days relentlessly thinking about, is complete tranquility. The silence of the room was peaceful, like the way a quiet classroom is while everyone is reading. All I could hear was the steady thump of Ace's heart through his chest, where my ear was laying. Curled up to his warmth was as if I was standing in front of a heater on a cold winters night.
My boyfriends rough hands gently combed through my hair, stopping at the bottom of my neck to rub the muscles there. A muffled moan escaped my throat when he pushed down harder on my neck. I could hear how his heart beat faster, almost as if he started to run a marathon. Lifting my head up with a hand wrapped around the hair at the nape of my neck, he raised my head to place a sloppy kiss on my lips. His blonde hair was getting longer, so it fell into his eyes. Suddenly saddened by not seeing his baby blue eyes, I made an impulse decision to push it out of his eyes and placed my hand upon his cheek. His head leaned into my hand with a content sigh.
"How are you my angel?" His deep voice awoken parts of my I never knew I had. Never had I felt like this before. His beautiful blue eyes were half open, almost as if he were in a daze. I could feel his eyes flow over my body, making my lower stomach clench.
"I'm perfect." I said breathlessly. "Are you ready for tomorrow?"
His eyes were now alert, his eyebrows furrowed. "I'm...ready as I'll ever be." He chucked a little and rolled his eyes. "As much as I love these gatherings, I hate going and telling them about my life. It seems as though none of us can do good enough, be good enough for our parents. I'm just glad I have you to be with me this year."
I give him a reassuring smile and look him in the eyes. "I'll always be with you Ace."
I hoped that wasn't too...committed? Is that the right word? I have this deep connection with him that I never want to lose. I'm falling for him, hard. It's like I'm falling down a rabbit hole and I can't stop, I don't want to stop.
The more I stare into his eyes, the more this...fire burns through my veins. His eyes burn like blue fire; it flows higher and higher and won't stop until it's put out. I feel like I am up on a roof of the highest building, just standing there; feeling as if I am on top of the word. I am completely and utterly consumed of this man in front of me, and I never want it to stop.
I love him.
I love Ace Jenson.
I love the way his eyes light up when he's happy. I love when he gets excited, he starts to talk super fast and his voice gets high pitched, but he plays it off as if nothing happened. I love the way he looks at me like I'm his whole world. I love the way he acts like he doesn't hold my entire heart in his hand. I love the way he cares about others as if they were his own blood and family.
I just love him.
With all of my nonexistent heart.
Apparently I've been staring too long when Ace taps on my nose a few times. I focus on the impatient man in front of me and smile at him. He immediately gives me a gigantic grin that shows off his perfect white teeth. I sit up and sling my leg over his waist so I'm straddling him; his hair that was in my hair loosened to the point where it loosely laid on the nape of my neck. I sat back and traced his taunt abs.
"What are you thinking about?" Ace asked, gently.
"Honestly?" He nodded. I took a deep breath and looked him in the eye. Weighing my options, I could tell him I loved him, but I don't want him to freak out and say he doesn't feel the same. But on the other hand, he would tell me her loved me back. We weren't particularly ready for that yet, so I'm keeping it to myself.
"I'm just stressed about your parents not liking me." Which was a partially true. I was thinking about being in love with him, which genuinely scared the shit out of me. But I was truly scared about his parents not liking me. I was completely worried about the siblings parents but I'd be nice if they liked me too.
How could his parents like me when my own mother didn't even want me? I have always had this feeling of immense...abandonment since I was young. Who wouldn't when your own mother, the one that gave birth to you, just up and left me on some step of a fucking orphanage.
"Hey." My love said sofly, sliding his other hand onto my cheek. "Of course they'll love you. They'll love you as much as I- as everyone else does."
Ace clears his throat and looks away for a split second, but then looks back at me. He gives me a small smile. "Trust me Angel, they'll adore you. You're the most amazing person in the whole world."
My head throws back as I laugh. "Please! I am not the most amazing person in the world."
He gives me a cheeky smile and runs his thumb across my cheekbone. "You are to me."
I laugh quietly, so my body does this weird shake thing. I quickly go back to tracing his abs with my fingers, dipping through every creavis and dip. This man...he is the most gorgeous man I've ever seen.
"Whatcha thinkin' so hard about up there baby?"
I give him a tiny smile. "Nothing important."
He rolled his eyes. "Everything about you is important, silly girl."
Now I roll my eyes. "Bullshit."
Ace slowly raises his right eyebrow and licks his lips. "Oh really?"
I pull my bottom lip into my teeth and hum. "Mhm."
His hand, at the bottom of my neck, tightens; just so it's to the point that the pain is there, but not enough that hurts. To be honest, the little bit of pain is pleasurable. The hand that was on my cheek slowly moved downwards, and stopped on the end of my neck. Both of his big hands were on my neck now, which I was waiting for them to firmly wrap around; the thought almost brought me over the edge.
I could feel every part of our bodies touching; the way I sat on his lap brought me closer to his length, which I could feel was growing by the second. My breathing picked up, to the point where I was almost panting, as he raised himself up and brushed his lips against mine. His teeth nibbled on my bottom lip for a few seconds before he-
"Aphrodite! Ace! Unhook your tongues and meet me in the living room!"
I groaned. "Fucking Miya."
Even Ace looked throughly annoyed at Miya. I wouldn't doubt him since she constantly seems to do it. It's like she has a radar about when we're going to...have fun.
Ace sighed and ran his hands from my neck to my waist and squeezed. "Let's to see what she wants."
"A pumpkin patch?"
For the millionth time, Miya rolled her eyes at the 'stupid question'. I honestly couldn't believe she called Ace and I out of my bedroom, just to tell us that we're all going to hunt for some pumpkins downtown. Honestly, it sounded fun, but I still want to go and finish what Ace and I started. Ace seemed to agree with me as he couldn't keep his hands off me.
"Yes, for the thousandth time, a pumpkin patch." Miya said with heavy exaggeration. Why would she be annoyed when she's the one that interrupted everyones day?
"But why?" Ace whined beside me on the couch.
Miya sighed. "Because we need to all hang out. My secret is out, hence why Harriet and Winter are here and coming with us."
They actually were here, sitting on either side of Miya, holding her hands. Once Ace and I got dressed in appropriate clothing, we walked into the living room and we weren't particularly prepared to see everyone in the room. Mason and Fancy were both sitting on the floor, with Mason in between Fancy's spread legs. I can say for myself that I almost pissed myself when I saw that Fancy had on some black jeans and a tight black tshirt.
"We all need to spend time with each other," Miya continued. "We've all been busy with each other and school that I think we all need a break. And picking out pumpkins seems like a good thing to do!"
Truth be told, she was right. Most of us didn't have class today, or we already had it and it was a good day to spend some time together since we all had to leave for this dinner tomorrow. I could tell that that subject was something we all weren't prepared to talk about just yet. We're all afraid of different things that have to do with tomorrow, but we all have one thing in common: acceptance. All of us we're afraid that we wouldn't be accepted by them.
Which was utter bullshit, but what can we do about it?
"I'm in...but do you realize that it's September, right?" I said, with a smile aimed at Miya. I knew that this meant a lot to her because of everything going on about her relationship with Winter and Harriet. I need to get her alone later talk to her about that.
"Yes, yes I know. But, they have small ones that we can paint." Miya squealed. Harriet and Winter rolled their eyes, but I could see they weren't annoyed by the smiles that played on both of their faces.
"You just have to fuel the fire, don't you?" Ace whispered in my ear. His warm breath fanned the side of my face, and I suppressed a shiver.
"Of course, that's just what I do." He chuckled and placed a kiss on the side of my neck.
They all agreed, of course. It didn't take us all long to get ready, since Mason, Fancy, Winter, and Harriet were ready go. So that left Miya, Ace, and I to get ready.
Ace wore a tight fitting black sweater with some black jeans while Miya and I put on simple tshirt and jeans. But Miya had to be extra, so she put on some a scarf and black leather boots.
Nonetheless, we were out the door in about 15 minutes. Ace and I went into his car while the rest went with their significant other/others. It wasn't as cold as it was yesterday, since it was in the high sixties.
It took about a half hour to get the the pumpkin patch the next town over. It really depends on who grows their pumpkins first and if there's frost during that time, but there are some little pumpkins that grow faster. The big ones won't come till the beginning of October, at least, they won't sell them till then.
With the windows rolled down in Ace's car, the wind whooshed through my hair, probably making me look like a wild animal. The car was blasting Bad Bitch by Bebe Rexha, per my request; I didn't think Ace minded since he told me to pick whatever I wanted, and he also screamed the lyrics out with me. My man is one of a kind.
Thinking back on how it all started, me falling into his arms, I wouldn't change a thing. I was so scared about coming to this college and starting over, that I didn't even really think about actually being in love with someone. I thought about it, but I never anticipated it would happen. I've always been quite self conscious of myself, since Irina would always make fun of me for whatever I did and how I looked. But I'm not going to let the things she said effect me now, I'm going to love Ace Jenson with all my heart until he doesn't want me anymore.
The whole ride consistsed of vast areas of land until our cars rolled into a long driveway surrounded by cornfields on either side; the first one in sight. The drive down the patched driveway was long, almost five minutes until we reached the big farm house. There was was a big pasture of cows, horses, donkeys, everything. The big farm house was absolutely huge, with a wrap around porch and a few swings around, flowers planted every which way.
As soon as we had parked, Miya rand out of Harriets car. "Yay! Let's go get our pumpkins!" She squealed.
You could see Harriets shoulders shaking as he got out of the car. Winter got out of the back seat behind him, rolling her eyes at their girlfriend. She smiled at Harriet, her eyebrow piercing flashing in the sun. She squeezed his arm and ran after Miya that was talking to an older man with a farmers hat on. Winter wrapped her arms around Miyas waist and smiled at the man in front of them. I couldn't hear what they were saying because we were so far away, but I could tell they were all happy by the smiles on their faces.
"What do you think they're talking about?" Fancy asked, coming up behind us while holding hands.
Ace shrugged. "Probably just to see if it's okay to get some pumpkins."
"Actually we already called him on the way here, Miya just wanted to see how his daughter was." Harriet said, coming beside us. We were all standing in a line, staring at the group of three people talking on the porch.
I practicality hear the frown in Fancys voice. "She knew is daughter? Who is she?"
Harriet shrugged. "They were friends in school apparently. She supposedly dropped out because of something, but I'm not sure. They haven't seen each other since then so I guess she wanted to see her. They used to live in the city, around your guys school, but I guess they moved here after they dropped out."
"Shit," Fancy cursed. "I know who that is. Her name is Livia. Her and Miya used to be inseparable, but it was rumored that she for pregnant and moved."
Mason snorted. "Do you actually believe rumors Alexander?"
"You know I don't baby."
"Hey guys, let's go get out pumpkins!" Winter called to us. They stopped talking, so Winter and Miya stood side by side while the man walked inside. They started walking towards us with forlorn expressions.
Harriet rushed over to them and took Maya's face in his hands, with her hand still in Winters. "Are you okay Miya?"
I couldn't hear what Miya said but Harriet's face feel and he brought Winter and Miya in his arms and hugged them tight. Mason and Fancy started walking to the pumpkin patch behind the house while Ace and I stood there and stared at the land.
"Would you like something like this?" Ace said thoughtfully, wrapping his hands around my waist and put his face in my neck.
I leaned into him and smiled. "More than anything"
I could feel his smile against my neck. "Then you shall receive, my queen."