“Hey man” I greeted Andrew when I got to our usual lunch table.
“Yo, sup ma dude?!” he cheered as I sat down with Gabrielle right at my heels.
I fist bumped him and dug into my lunch.
“Okay guys” Diane said, coming to sit next to her boyfriend. “There’s a huge party tonight at the frat house just outside of town”.
“Oh my god really?” Gabrielle squeaked. “Babe, we’re going! Right?” she said turning to look at me.
“On a school night?” I asked.
“Holy crap!” Andrew chuckled. “You? Caring about a school night? What’s happened to you?”
“Yeah, I know right? You’ve been acting weird all day” Gabrielle said.
Goddammit. I knew I had been acting weird because I’ve had a lot on my mind. I just didn’t think she’ll notice. Hoping to get her mind off it, I kissed her deeply and she immediately relaxed.
“I don’t know man, it’s just school’s been stressing me out lately” I replied.
“Yeah, Ms. Whatshername been bugging you? You gotta study hard bro” he said making me pale.
“How did you hear about that?”
“Uh, my dad’s the principal? Keep up!” he laughed and I rolled my eyes.
“So?” Diane asked. “You coming?”
“Sure. Count us in” I said, looking anywhere but at them. My eyes landed on Kyle’s usual table where he sat with that faggot waste... Oh... Sorry. I mean, Niall. Not faggot. Fuck, I really needed to stop doing that. It was wrong and I needed to accept people for who they were.
Ah, but why was it so difficult?
Kyle and Niall weren’t there. Did he not come to school? I took my phone out of my pocket and texted him, ignoring the texts from my mom.
Just as I typed the text, I remembered what he did and deleted it as fast as I could. I was angry with him.
Thinking of him, my mind immediately went to Brian. I felt tingles shoot up my spine. He was really nice to me yesterday, even after all I’d said about gay people and all.
He sounded so mature and caring when we talked. I loved the way he held me too. However, it made me wonder why he didn’t say anything about my scars. I subconsciously pulled down my jacket sleeves to cover them up even more.
“Babe, let’s go” Gabrielle said, snapping me out of my thoughts. Why the hell was I thinking about him at this time? I followed her and Andrew to our next class of the day.
Soon enough, the time for the party came and Gabrielle had forced me into driving over to her place to pick her up. I tried to get out of it, but that girl wouldn’t take no for an answer.
After dressing up, making sure I’d worn one of my jackets, I left the house without even saying goodbye to my mom. Not that I wanted to, she was still my least favourite person in that regard.
I drove over to Gabrielle’s place and we made our way to the party. It had already started. There were a lot of people outside the house, probably the college students. Music was booming so loudly. I’d never been to any party like this before. Wow. College rocks!!!
“They’re over at the den” Gabrielle said as she read a text from Diane. I nodded and we both made our way inside the house. I noticed some guys staring at her intensely, probably thinking about all the ways they wanted to fuck her. Dammit. I knew I shouldn’t have brought her here in her shorts.
I grabbed her hands, glaring at those guys but they just smirked at me. I rolled my eyes at that.
We quickly met up with our friends and the party was in full swing. Soon, Gabrielle was dancing with Diane while Andrew and I drank some beer. I made sure to just get one bottle since I was driving.
“Babe, come dance with me” Gabrielle said, laughing as she pulled me up.
“Or we could do something else” I winked and pulled her in for a kiss.
Gabrielle and I kept kissing and giggling as we made our way up the stairs to one of the bedrooms. The moment we got it open, our shirts came off.
God. She was beautiful. She took off her shorts painfully slow and I held my breath. Of course I’d seen her naked before, plenty of times but it seemed I was now noticing her body better. She stood silently, looking at me shyly. She brushed her hair behind her ear and smiled at me.
I smirked as I walked closer to her and pulled her into a deep kiss. I then placed a kiss on her necking, suckling there sensually. She moaned. I traced kissed down her chest, cupping her boobs with my hand. My left hand went to her back and took off the bra.
Gabrielle moaned as I sent my fingers down to her pussy, rubbing over her clit. She moaned loudly, making me chuckle. Damn, she was wet.
Then I noticed something was wrong. Even as we kissed and went through foreplay, I wasn’t hard. I mean, I should be ready to plug and go by now but for some reason, it wasn’t happening for me.
“Aiden” she moaned my name and pulled me with her to the bed, her legs coming up around my waist. Her hands went down, fumbling with my belt but I stopped her.
“What’s wrong? I need you baby” she whispered against my lips.
“I... uh... I don’t know” I stated, sitting up.
“What’s going on? Don’t you want this?” she asked, sitting up as well.
I didn’t know what was wrong. It’s just that I wasn’t into the whole sex thing again. I really wanted to do it but my stupid dick was still flaccid as fuck. I didn’t want her to see but before I could react, she touched me.
“You’re not hard” she stated, looking up at me. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. It’s just...I think I need the bathroom” I said, getting up from the bed.
Gabrielle looked worried. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I am” I smiled at her and gave her a quick kiss. “You know what, I need a drink”.
Thankfully, the mini-fridge in the room was filled with beer and I gulped one down in a go. Yeah, I think I can do this now. It was probably because I didn’t have any alcohol in me. Yeah, that was it.
“I’m ready” I said as I turned back to her.
“Finally. Come here” she smirked.
I laughed and went to the bed, lying on top of Gabrielle. We started kissing and I began to finger her. She moaned as she clutched the pillow. I enjoyed hearing her moan, it meant I was doing something right. And yet, nothing was working for me.
“I need you inside me baby” she moaned.
How could I when no part of my body was ready for this? My mind wanted it, I wanted it, and yet, Ah fuck, I thought, allowing images of his naked body come to my mind.
I imagined what would have happened yesterday had Kyle not come in. We would have kissed and as horny as I was, we would have taken it further. I’d have allowed him to kiss me everywhere, take me into his mouth and make me feel wonders. And then, I’ll take him into my mouth as well and suck him into oblivion.
Yeah, that should work.
I hurriedly took a condom from the pocket of my jeans.
“Let me” she said and I gave it over to her.
The moment Gabrielle touched me, I felt weird. My dick softened instantly making her look at me with wide eyes.
“Fuck!” I groaned. What the hell was wrong with me?
“Aiden, is everything okay?”
“Yeah, I don’t know... I’m not sure”.
“Is it me? Are you not into me anymore?”
“No, no. Of course not” I said, trying to reassure her but I wasn’t even sure myself.
“No, Aiden. I don’t think you get it. We’ve been doing this more times than I count but all of a sudden, you can’t get it up? That’s hardly reassuring” she stated.
“Well what am I supposed to do? I don’t know why or how this is happening, okay? It’s my dick, I think I’m the one who’s allowed to be freaking out!” I shouted and got off the bed. “Argh!!!” I shouted, punching the wall, not even caring about how much it hurt.
“Are you gay? Is that it?”
“What?” I asked, paling at her conclusion. “Where would you get that idea from?”
Gabrielle shrugged, sitting up properly. “It should be impossible but what am I supposed to think?”
I sighed. “I’m not gay. And no, it’s not your fault. Maybe I’m just not into it alright?” I said. “You know what? I think I should go”. I picked up my shirt from the floor and put it on.
“Aiden wait. Are you alright?”
“Yeah, I am. I just need some time” I said to her, kissing her quickly and then picked up my jacket from the floor.
“Aiden” she called and grabbed my arm making me hiss in pain.
“What the hell?”
“If something is wrong, you’ll tell me right?” she asked, a hoped tone to her voice but I couldn’t think about that as her fingers were pressing into my scars.
“Let go!” I seethed and snatched my arm away from her. “Fuck!” I hissed and glared at her. “I just need to clear my mind” I said, walking out of the bedroom and out of the house.
Yeah, I needed to clear my head. I don’t know what happened with Gabrielle and why this was going on with me but there was only one way to find out.
With that thought in mind, I got in my car and drove over to Kyle’s house. I needed to be sure of what was going on. It couldn’t be that I was impotent. Hell, I was only 18. How would that happen to me?
When I got there, I rushed to their front door, banging on it as hard as I could.
The door opened, revealing Brian who surprisingly was not naked. Not that I wanted him to be, I was just surprised.
“What is it with you and banging on people’s doors?” he asked, crossing his arms and glaring at me.
“What have you done to me?” I asked with clenched teeth. It was his fault. It had to be. Since I met him, my body wasn’t functioning right. Not how I wanted it to.
“What are you talking about?”
“Ever since I...” I started saying and then looked around, realizing I was still standing outside. I rose a brow at him.
“Ugh fine, come in” he said and walked into the house leaving the door open.
What was his problem? Just yesterday, he was happy and talking to me like we were friends and now we’re back to being enemies or whatever the hell we were?
“Okay, what’s your deal? Hit me” he said, placing his hands on his waist as he leaned against the couch in the living room.
I sighed. “There’s something wrong me. Ever since I met you, I… I’ve been having these weird reactions. When it comes to you and your always naked body. And yeah, what the hell is up with that? Huh? And... and... whenever I see you, I just want to touch you and stuff. For goodness sake, I have a girlfriend and I don’t even think about her as often. Oh and today, you know what? We tried having sex but guess what? I couldn’t get it up. I don’t know why. I just...It just won’t work. So you know what happened? I thought of you and your naked body. That’s how I did it. And when the image of you left my mind, it was like my body froze and I just couldn’t do it anymore. So what the hell? What’s wrong with me?” I ranted, panting and pacing in the living room.
All the while, Brian was just standing there, looking at me as if I’d said the dumbest thing in the world.
“What? Don’t you have anything to say?” I asked him.
“No” he replied making me glare at him. “It’s perfectly normal to have a crush on someone Aiden”.
I scoffed. “How dare you? You think this is just some crush? I don’t have a crush on you. I just don’t get why I can’t have sex with my girlfriend unless I think of you. I’m not even gay”.
Brian just stared at me intensely and walked closer to me, in a stalky predatory kind of way. “Maybe she’s not doing it for you anymore or maybe you’re not as straight as you thought babydoll” he said huskily, brushing his hand on my cheek and waked off to the kitchen.
I groaned. I hated that guy. And I still didn’t know what was wrong. I followed him into the kitchen, determined to know what was going on with my body.
“Well, you can’t just say that and walk away. This involves you too”.
Brian laughed. “Is that so? Please, enlighten me” he stated as he poured himself a glass of whiskey, from what I could see.
I sighed, crossing my arms and leaning against the wall. “Doesn’t it bother you that I thought of you while having sex with my girlfriend? I mean, I am freaking out about it”.
He shrugged. “Why should it bother me? I’m kinda sexy so… you know” he smirked at me.
Brian was annoying me. I bit my bottom lip, thinking about my options. It couldn’t just be about Gabrielle. Since I met this man, I’ve had these weird feelings so I needed to know for sure, no matter what it took. Even if I’d hate myself afterwards.
“You told Kyle you liked me” I said.
Brian shrugged, again, as if he didn’t care.
“I don’t know about you but that kinda means something” I said as I walked up to him, getting purposely close enough. He just looked down at me with those intense, hazel eyes of his. “So, no harm right?” I smirked and standing on my toes, I placed my lips on his.
The moment I did, I felt something surge through me. It was like a pulse of electricity. I couldn’t quite explain it. Brian’s lips were so soft, I felt my knees go weak. He didn’t respond, not at first but when my lips remained on his for a while, he actually kissed me back and I gasped, pulling away from him.
“Oh my God” I said and started pacing. What did I just do? I was about to enter a full panic mode, thinking about how I just kissed a man and how I might be gay but Brian turned me around kissed me deeply.
I gasped and he plunged his tongue into my mouth. My arms went on his shoulders to hold myself up. I responded in just a matter of seconds and I could feel him lifting me off my feet. I gasped when he sat me down on the kitchen counter.
We went back to kissing again, our lips moulding together in perfect sync and fuck was he good. He was even better as he took complete control over our kiss. I didn’t see the need to fight him because every time our tongues met, every time his lips met mine in the most sensual way I could ever think of, a shudder running through me and straight to my groin.
I moaned at the feel of his body against mine. I’ve wanted to feel him like this in so long. I don’t know why I waited this long but damn. I felt his member rubbing against mine, which was straining in my pants.
“Fuck!” I cursed, pulling back from him and looked down. Well, I was right.
“Got what you wanted right? Now you can go fuck your girl” he smirked at me, took his glass of whiskey and walked away. I could only stare at him as he went, my mind still fuzzy from what just happened.
How the hell did I get hard in such a short time? And why in the fucking hell did I kiss Brian?
“Wait” I said and he turned. My mouth opened and closed again. I didn’t know what to say. What do I do? What did I tell him?
“Thought as much” he said and walked up the stairs, away from me.