The drive back home was tense, awkward even. The reason being that Brian hadn’t said a word to me for about two hours and I was stupefied to even open my mouth. I was squirming in my seat, hoping we could forget about what I had done.
But the truth of it was, I didn’t want to forget it. I had kissed Brian, twice now, and willingly. I wasn’t bothered by it, if anything, I wanted to do it again. As I sat in the car, glancing at him every minute and hoping that he wasn’t looking, I was beginning to come to terms with something I never thought I’d say or do.
I liked a man. I wanted to kiss a man. I wanted to be with a man. I didn’t want to just be with any man, I wanted to be with Brian.
I liked Brian.
I gasped at my revelation and Brian’s hand tightened on mine. Yeah, he had been holding my hand the entire time, squeezing it for a few seconds and then loosening his hold. From the time we left the diner, he hadn’t let me go.
It made the butterflies in my tummy flutter. I liked feeling his big and warm hand wrapping around my small and cold ones.
I looked up at him and he gave me a smile.
The man was beautiful, really.
What was wrong with me? I was calling a man beautiful. A few weeks ago, I would have sliced my wrist for even thinking about something of the sort, but now? Not so much.
It made me wonder, was what Brian said true? That not everyone in this world was evil? I hated gays because of what one of them did to me. I thought that they were all like that, perverts.
My dad was nothing like that, Niall wasn’t, Kyle wasn’t and Brian wasn’t as well.
So I guess I was mistaken.
I had thought that life had never been fair to me but now, I understood that it was the people who lived life that made it unfair, and not life itself.
I wanted to be happy, no matter the cost. If being with Brian was going to make me happy, who was I to refuse it? Besides, I really liked kissing him and he hadn’t given me any notion that he hated me.
I just wished he’d talk to me.
Please, say something.
“Finally!” I exclaimed and squeaked at my outburst.
“Wow, didn’t know you wanted to get away from me that fast” he chuckled, his hand leaving mine.
I quickly grabbed it back and held it between my thighs, where it had been. “I didn’t mean it like that” I sated, rolling my eyes. “I was waiting for you to say something”.
Brian raised a brow at me, leaning down so temptingly close that we were at eye level. “Hmm, what would you like me to say?” he asked, his voice unusually hoarse. His eyes became dark as I looked into them. I felt goosebumps rise on my skin.
“Anything” I whispered.
“I want you”.
He leaned in and captured my lips in a fierce and hot kiss that left me gasping in pleasure. I melted then, relaxing as he dominated me. His hand never left my thighs but he was travelling dangerously close to uncharted territory. I returned his kiss with the same amount of passion but not enough to overpower him, because as much as I hate to admit, I loved how controlling he was being.
He started to pull back but I wasn’t done yet. I wrapped my free hand around his neck and pulled him back, going in for an even deeper kiss. His tongue was in my mouth, meeting mine and making tingles shoot up my spine. I was weak for the pleasure he was giving me. I’d do anything to live like this forever.
“Wow” Brian chuckled against my lips.
“Yeah” I whispered, pecking his lips before opening my eyes. I stared into his dark hazel eyes as he stared back at me.
“I thought you were straight” he stated and I groaned.
“Way to ruin the fucking mood”.
“Hey hey, language” he laughed. I sighed as I looked back at him. He was comfortable in his seat now, but still holding my hand, just how I liked it. “But I’m serious”.
I shrugged. “I’m not gay”
“Sure you’re not”.
I laughed. “No, what I mean is, I’m not gay, at least, not entirely. And if I like you, it must mean I’m not entirely straight, right?”
“Maybe, I guess” he said, sounding doubtful. I wanted to do what I could to clear his mind at that moment. I didn’t like seeing him so unsure of himself. I liked him, a lot, and I wanted him to know that.
“I think I’m bisexual. No, I know I’m bisexual. But I.. I’m not exactly sure because I haven’t felt this way towards any guy before” I admitted.
“So, what you’re saying is” he trailed off as he leaned towards me, “you’re Brian-sexual?” he whispered.
I nodded and allowed him to ravish my mouth just like he had done a few minutes ago.
“I like you too” Brian stated when we pulled back and before I could answer, we heard a knock on the window at my side of the car.
I jumped in seat, shocked at the intrusion. I felt heat creep up my cheeks as I saw my dad standing there, looking all smug. My mom was behind him, smirking at me.
Brian didn’t look any better. He looked like a deer caught in headlights.
This was so embarrassing, even for me.
“Ugh, parents, am I right?” I asked, making him chuckle nervously.
“We can hear you”.
“Ugh!” I groaned. “See you later?” I asked and Brian nodded. I kissed him on the cheek quickly, not even ashamed that my parents were watching. They had probably been spying on me and saw that I had kissed him, so, what the hell right?
I got out of the car and nodded to Brian so he could drive off fast enough without getting interrogated by my parents. Luck was not on his side though because Chance and Klara were standing in front of the car.
Okay, it really sucks when you have four parents!
“That wasn’t very smart of you Aiden” Dad laughed. “We just want to talk to him”.
“It’s late, you guys” I whined.
“It’s only protocol. Besides, it’s not that late. It’s almost daybreak” Mom stated, as if that made it any better.
“Hello sir, ma’am” I heard Brian greet Chance and Klara. Chance just gave him a smug smirk as he patted his back, way too hard, I must say. For a big man like Brian, I was kind of surprised.
They said nothing, just stared at him. It must have been so uncomfortable for him, even I was uneasy. We all walked into the house and into the living room where they made Brian sit. I stood next to him, ready for any questions they wanted to ask. I was already dreading this.
Why? Oh Why me?!
“Mom, um, moms, dads?” I asked and they all laughed. “Guys, this is Brian” I stated. “Brian, these are my parents”.
The four of them looked shocked at what I said probably at the fact that I had accepted them.
Yeah, I was surprised too.
I guess it was time to stop hating and start accepting people for who they were. I had Brian to thank for that, oh and of course, the woman back at Angel Falls.
“Aiden, why don’t you go make some coffee?” Dad asked and I groaned.
I went away reluctantly but not before I gave Brian a reassuring squeeze on his shoulder. I wondered what they were asking him.
When I got back to the living room, without the coffee because I didn’t know how to do anything, if we’re being honest, Brian was ready to leave.
“You’re leaving?” I asked and he nodded, looking shaken to his core. I sighed and glared at my parents. Dad pretend to be interested in Chance’s eyes and mom and Klara were looking at the ceiling as if the chandelier was the most interesting thing in the world.
“What did they say?” I asked when we got to his car.
“Not much” he shrugged. “Just that they were going to slowly cut off my balls and make me eat them whiles they skinned me alive and then fed me to wolves if I hurt you. Did you know there were wolves in this town?”
“Oh my god, you poor baby” I cried, laughing as I cupped Brian’s face. “So sorry they said that to you”.
I didn’t even know my parents were firstly like that. That was a gruesome description though and I might have cupped my balls to reassure them as he said it.
“I won’t hurt you, you know that right?” he asked, holding onto my wrists.
“Of course, I trust you” I whispered.
“Thank you” he whispered back. I just looked into his eyes, wondering what else they might have said that made him shiver like that.
“Stay over?” I asked.
“Maybe you should get some rest” he suggested.
“But I want to be with you” I whined, wrapping my arms around his torso and resting my head on his chest. He embraced me tightly.
“I know, but you have school today. If you’re a good boy, I’ll take the night off and you can come over” he promised.
I nodded. “I’ll miss you”.
“Me too baby”.
I kissed him again before he left. I didn’t know what it was, but Brian left him hungry for more.
I walked back to the house, rubbing my arms to get the goosebumps off my skin. I hadn’t even noticed how cold it was. The moment I saw them standing there, with those smug looks in their faces, I wanted to slap them off immediately.
“What did you guys do?” I asked.
“Oh, nothing really” Dad answered with a wave of his hand.
“We just told him that we had all the right resources and power to make his life long and miserable” Chance shrugged like it wasn’t the worst thing he had ever said.
“Why would you say something like that?”
“It shouldn’t be a problem if your boyfriend loves you dear, and I’m sure he does” Mom smiled at me.