31: Burn The House Down
I was expecting this. I wanted this to happen. I wanted him to feel the same rage I felt when I saw the smug look on Felicity’s face after proved it to me that I’m nothing to him.
I stumbled a little in my heels. I saw people leaving giving me side looks and I’m surely giving them a whole month worth gossip. I don’t want people to know about my personal business so it’s better if they all leave soon.
He kept staring at me and if I was a vampire I could hear his blood boiling because he looked damn intense. His jaw was clenched, his grey eyes held back a storm and his arms were bulging out as he closed his palms into fists. His black shirt was unbuttoned and I could see the heavy rise of his chest. The man was charged up.
“Get inside the fucking house. NOW!”
My temper flares at the tone he is using with me. If I wanted to be patronized I would still be living with my father.
If Alastair expects me to follow him back inside the house like a lost puppy, he has another thing coming his way. I gave him a hard glare and then flipped my middle finger to salute his actions.
I started to walk away, towards the beach. I couldn’t hear him following me but still, I kept striding towards the water with purpose. I stopped for a second to get my stilettos off my feet to feel the water. I sensed him standing just behind me. His breath crashing against my neck. I resumed walking but he gripped my waist to stop me. Flipping me around, he moved me closer into him, his eyes telling me I wasn’t going anywhere until he damn well let me. His lips hovered over mine as he panted into my mouth. But he withheld. He captured my jaw with force forcing my eyes to clash with his.
“If you hadn’t noticed before, I’m this close” he gestured between the negligible distance between us “to losing my mind. So you better get inside the house or I will carry you back whether you want to or not.”
“You can try. I will scratch your face until I have blood in my hands. And if you managed to still get me inside the house, I will set fire to it. You cannot do anything unless I want you to do it to me. Get that inside your thick brain. It might take a while to keep this little information in your mind since it is already full of so many secrets.”
I pushed him away but he didn’t let me. So I continue to push at his chest until he finally loosened his grip on my waist. I stumbled back a few steps and on reflex Alastair reached for me but I stopped him from touching me.
“I’m sorry. Let me get this straight. I come home early to surprise you since dad and your mom is out of town for some last-minute trip but I find you wrapped around that boy like he was your second skin. Tell me if I hadn’t come home, what were you planning to do with him. Kiss him? If you hadn’t already and I missed the show or better, you planned on fucking him later in my room to goad me? Tell me Adelyn. Why on the world are you angry with me when I’m the one who just caught you in the act?”
“You piece of shit. If I had planned on fucking Emeric, nothing would have stopped me. I would have fucked him in your room while you watched. Then I would have called Nate and told him to join us too. My ex, the guy who definitely wants to fuck me and the man who doesn’t know what to do with our questionable relationship anymore, all in the same room. Now, that’s a party.”
His veins were popping out of his neck by the time I finished my monologue. I still had so much inside me. He dares to accuse me of cheating on him when he’s been cheating on me emotionally from the very start.
“I went to see Felicity and she told me everything. She told me why no woman can ever take her place and why when your darkness finally visits you, the first person you want by your side is her. I begged you to tell me what’s bothering you so many times but you kept dodging and putting more distance between us. I respect your decision to keep some things to yourself but when you keep running back to that woman when you are in pain, it fucking hurts Alastair, it hurts.”
Fuck, I felt tears in my eyes. Fuck! I furiously wipe my tears away from my cheeks. Alastair stood frozen, staring at me for what felt like minutes, his face looked ashen, his hands trembled as he gripped & pulled his hair.
“Alastair, I’m sorry but I had to know. It was driving me insane.” The betrayal in his eyes felt like a bullet to my chest.
“You had to know? You never thought that maybe it was my place to tell you everything when I felt that you were ready to hear it and understand it. You know what. I’m done. I’m done with your bullshit, your games, and everything about you.”
“No. We are not done. It doesn’t work like that. You want to run when you are feeling vulnerable then I will give you some time and space but we are so not done. You went through that horrible experience when you were my age. Don’t you think I have proven myself mature enough to understand you? If you know me at all you know that won’t leave you after the lengths, I have gone to keep you in my life.”
“Say something, please.”
“What do you mean?”
“Why do you want to keep me in your life?”
I sucked in a long breath. I looked away from him. He closed the distance between us and turned my face towards his.
“Say it. I want to hear it.”
My heart thudded in my chest and for a moment I looked at him. He knows. I loved three people in my life and they have fucked me up pretty good. Do I want to add him to that list? But I have nothing left to lose, right?
“You know it.”
When I struggle to pull free, he grips the back of my head and presses his nose to my ear, making me tense to stifle a shudder.
“Now, who is running away when they are feeling vulnerable, huh.”
And he’s so close. I’m strangely paralyzed as his lips move by my ear, causing an unwanted quiver down my legs. My nipples hurt all of a sudden and my body is in some strange contracting mode.
This man, using my words against me.
Needing to taste him, I couldn’t take it anymore. Wrapping my hands around his head, I pressed my lips into his. We opened for each other, the feel of his hot tongue swirling inside of my mouth felt incredible. I ran my fingers through his silky hair as we kissed. His mouth was insanely wet, hot, and his taste was addicting. He pulled back and I took in much-needed air.
“I love you. Please don’t fuck me over. I may not be able to survive the blow.”
He gave me a crooked smile and that boyish charm that attracted me to him took over his body. I cannot believe we went from ending things to this.
“I love you too. I’m way too deep to get you out of my system, baby.”
I jumped at him and he lost his balance. We fell on top of each other and then our lips connected again. There was no longer a concept of time. Nudging my legs open with his knee, he wedged himself between me. His hot erection was pressing against my body. Then he took my hand and slid it down to his crotch as we kissed so that I could feel his desire.
Fuck! You would have known that confessing your feelings would turn us on like this.
I moaned against his mouth to confirm that I absolutely felt it; it was practically halfway down his thigh. His kiss wasn’t ordinary or like anything I’d ever felt before. The man knows how to work his mouth and hands. He kissed with all of the force in his body as if the very act was necessary for survival.
Something so wrong never felt more right to me.
The sun was almost set and the atmosphere and turned chill. The darkness, our best friend started covering us. Alastair picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. I just keep looking at him, mine, all mine. I felt the wetness creep into my back, the water touched my neck, and then I was onto Alastair again, kissing his lips, his neck.
“Fuck me. And don’t you dare tell me something cheesy like I want to make love to you today. I want you to fuck me so hard, I couldn’t stand straight for days.”
The lust mixed with love was visible in his eyes and he bit my lip teasingly.