Chapter 34 - Just Sleep
Six days passed and I sat in my room after Paige called and tried giving me a shift but I said no. I quit and now I was crying again as Grenade by Bruno Mars played again for the hundredth time this week. It was so right though.
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah)
You know I’d do anything for ya (yeah yeah)
Oh whoa oh
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won’t do the same
If my body was on fire
Ooh, you’d watch me burn down in flames.....
My door opened and I looked up and saw Chloe and Becky.
“Oh, Steph.” Chloe said, coming to me as Becky did, “Listening to this won’t help.” She said, taking my phone and stopping it.
I turned away from them and went down into my ball, covered the sheets over me again.
“Gale’s calling. Again.” Chloe said but I didn’t respond, “Gale.” She said and I figured she was on the phone, “Chloe... No... She doesn’t want to talk to you... She’s seriously in a little thing called depression! Like, she’s listening to fucking depression songs about failed love. You’ve done a fucking good job, are you proud? No, I’m not putting her on... Fine!” She said and then put the phone to my ear.
“Steph? Please, talk to me.” I took the phone and moved it away, let it fall from my hand and onto the floor.
“How about we get you out of here?” Becky asked, “Or maybe a shower, some proper food?”
“How about a movie?” Chloe asked, taking my arms and pulling me up to face them, my back against the bedhead. I opened my mouth to speak but I just whimpered and fell into tears again as I turned and buried my face into Chloe and she hugged me back.
“It’s ok, Steph.” She said, rubbing my back, “There are a lot more boys out there. You’ll find someone else.”
“I don’t care about that. I care that he lied to me. He played me after he promised. The whole game, the dates, it was just his own fucking game.” I cried, “Logan warned me and I should have listened. Gale, he, he made me think that Logan was wrong but he was right.” I sobbed and wiped my eyes on her shoulder, “I quit my job. I quit school. I quit everything.”
“Steph, don’t let one dick fuck up your life.” Becky said, “Just try something f.” She said and held me a small black metal drink bottle, “You can trust me and Chloe. Your our best friend, we’d never hurt you, ok?”
“What is it?”
“Pain killers? Of a kind.” Chloe said and with a shaky hand I took it. I unscrewed the lid and then paused before I put the tip to my lips. The liquid came down into my mouth and then Chloe lifted it up more so I didn’t back down. I gulped it down and tried pulling away but she kept it there until it was all gone.
“Good. Now, we’re sorry.” She said and my eyes felt so heavy. The headache in my head worsened as I fell against her.
“Just sleep, little baby.” She said, rubbing the side of my head and that’s exactly what happened, well, I didn’t have much control with it.