We arrived home just as the sun began to rise on Sunday morning.
Thankfully, Alexander had found a church he liked, so he and mum had gone to the early service. My mum had never been religious, but Grayson's family was.
I had decided on my ﬁnal piece for my art project, and got stuck into working on it right away, before I lost my inspiration. Gray ﬂopped himself onto my bed and fell asleep almost instantly, while I set up my easel and paints.
Our parents didn't return until later that evening, bringing home Chinese takeout for dinner. Gray had slept all day, exhausted after my little display of dominance the night before.
I kept replaying it over and over in my head all day. I had never been so completely overtaken by sexual desire before. When it was with Soﬁa, or any of the other girls I had been with, it felt so empty.
Being with Grayson made me feel like I would burst from happiness.
"Gray, wake up, it's time for dinner. Our parents got Chinese."
He sleepily rubbed his eyes, a cheeky smirk spreading across his face as he nipped at my fingers playfully. "Mmmmmm.... I love eating Chinese...."
"I'm not Chinese, asshole..." I stated dryly, as I flicked him square in the forehead.
"Ouch, fuck! That hurt Winnie!........ Are you really not Chinese?"
"I'm half Korean, genius."
He grinned widely, pulling me onto him as he pretended to eat my shoulder. "Huh.... Guess I like eating Korean then."
I shoved him playfully, rolling my eyes as I hopped off his bed. He quickly showered before coming downstairs for dinner. Mum had apparently "found God" upon going to church for the ﬁrst time, and spent the entire dinner going on about her newfound religion.
Oh great.... Can't wait until she tries to drag us to church.
Usually, we waited until about midnight to sneak into each others rooms to sleep, but Mr. impatient decided to risk it by coming to my room 20 minutes after our parents had gone to bed.
"Winniiieeeeee..." Gray whispered loudly, as he crept into my room, and under the covers.
"Jesus fucking Christ, are you trying to get caught?" I grumbled quietly, lifting the blanket for him to snuggle next to me.
He wrapped himself around me, pulling me firmly against him. " Shhhhhh.... If we be quiet they won't know.... I couldn't wait any longer for my snuggles."
We both drifted off to sleep rather quickly, even though Gray had slept pretty much all day.
The next morning we got up and went to school as usual.
Before I knew it, the bell for second break had rung and I was heading towards our spot near the back of the school. Since the yoghurt incident, we decided it was better to sit away from the cafeteria.
Gray, Zach and Mase were already there when I arrived. I sat down and pulled out my lunch, just as Soﬁa walked over. I ignored her and began eating my lunch as if she wasn't standing right behind me.
I flat out ignored her.
"Could I.... Talk to you in private for a minute, please? It's important." She asked in a rude, impatient manner.
"What is it?" I sighed in resignation.
"Not here.... Come with me-"
"-Anything you need to say to Win can be said in front of us." Gray interrupted protectively.
Sofia stared at me expectantly. "Win?"
"You wanna talk, then talk." I stated coldly.
"Fine." She huffed in annoyance, crossing her arms over her chest. "I'm 4 weeks pregnant, Win."
Everyone's eyes were now on me, but I couldn't meet any of them.
I stayed silent and frozen, as the gears ticked in my head.
Four weeks... Fuck... We were still together then....But I was always super careful!.... I always wore a condom, she said she was on the pill.
"Win? Did you hear what I said?" Sofia asked awkwardly, a look of concern on her face as she waved her hand in front of my blank face.
I looked over at Grayson, who was staring down at his feet, pain etched all over his face. My heart sank seeing him hurting over something I had caused.
I had no idea what I was supposed to do. I was nowhere near ready to have a kid, especially with Soﬁa.
I could feel my chest constricting and it became harder and harder to breathe. My own thoughts began screaming in my head, blocking out all outside noises.
I shot up and quickly ran off.
Not exactly my ﬁnest moment.
I stopped behind the art block on the other side of the school and braced myself against the wall, trying to ﬁght off the panic attack that was taking over. Tears stung the corners of my eyes as I struggled to catch my breath, my whole body trembling uncontrollably.
A pair of strong arms wrapped tightly around me from behind, that familiar, intoxicating scent ﬁlling my nose. As he pulled me tight against his warm body, my muscles slowly began to relax, making breathing a little easier again, and my thoughts return to a more bearable volume.
He whispered low, and calmly into my ear. "It's okay Winnie. I've got you. Just breathe, baby."
Usually I would've hit him, or told him to fuck off for calling me baby. Right now, I just needed to hear his voice.
"What the fuck do I do, Gray?" I choked out between ragged breaths.
His voice was soothing as he spoke, but I could feel the sadness in it too. "I think you and Soﬁa need to sit down and discuss your options. I'll be by your side the whole time, okay Winnie?"
"Okay.... T-Thankyou..... Fuck.... This is so fucked.... I'm so fucked...."
I pulled out my phone, my hands still shaking, and handed it to Grayson. "Can you text her and tell her to come by our place after school to talk?... Please?..."
"Of course." He quickly typed the message and hit send. Two seconds later, my phone dinged with her reply. "She said she'll be over at 3:30."
I put my head in my hands and rubbed my face roughly, half hoping that this was a bad dream and that it would wake me up.